babush na January! Bilis ng panahon! Feb nanaman! Kaya pala takaw sa status nanaman ang mga single at bigo sa FB .. at ang mga taken naman nagtitipid na .. buwan nanaman kasi ng mga puso. Ako? As usual alone. hahahaha! walang ka-date! Lagi naman e! LOL!

Ayoko na nga. bitterness nanaman aketch this month. awkie lang ... maiksi lang naman ang buwan na ito .. nadagdagan nga lang ng isang araw (leap year ngayon, may 29. tsk) pero carry naman. 29 days?! wala yun! tapos isang araw lang naman ang Feb. 14. makaka survive to! hahahaha!

Sana naman next year .. may ka-date na ko. ahay .........................

Ok, wala talaga akong panama.

.... at siya'y maganda (sa mata niya, yun pa naman ang mahalaga)

.... siya'y matalino (eto pa lang taob na ko)

....at dahil matalino siya, siya'y may kwenta kausap

....siya'y masipag

....siya'y mabait, sobra

....siya'y maalaga

....siya'y masarap magluto (malamang)

....siya'y magaling sa (alam mo na)

....siya'y malaki sa lahat (hay .......................................................................)

....siya'y talentado (pareho pa sila. nebenemenyen)

HIGIT SA LAHAT .......................

....siya'y MAHAL NIYA.

FRIEND.friend.FRIEND.friend

When Someone walks for miles to see you,

When Someone says sorry even though he didn't do anything wrong,

When Someone cries because he still love/misses you,

When Someone still tries to get you back no matter how much you ignore,

When no matter how much you hurt him, he still loves you,

When Someone stops an argument with you to save the relationship,

When Someone continuously makes you feel special and tries to make you happy,

When Someone wants to leave you because of your rude behavior but is not able to do....

....he loves you more than anything..

Don't let him go because you may never find someone like him ever again....

He may be a very special God's gift to you...

So reserve him...and make him also feel special to you.

a guy and a girl can be just friends, but at one point or another, they will fall for each other...

Maybe temporarily, maybe at the wrong time, maybe too late, or maybe..

.

.

.

Forever.

When will I meet the man who would do this for me?! wew!

I want a man who would not think twice of shouting to the whole world how much he loved me.

I dream of a man who would willingly face my parents no matter how much I try to stop him.

I fantasize about a man whom I could kiss, hug and hold hands with in public places, without thinking about whoever will catch us doing it.

I am praying for a man who would sincerely tell me he loves me, not because he has to, he just wants to and he likes to .. but because he really felt this only with me. No buts.

So we ignore each other, and pretend the other doesn't exist, but deep down, we both know it wasn't supposed to end like this.

Eto lang naman ako sa Valentines o.

Yes, it does. It even KILLS.

I was so desperately in love with you, that even though those things are beyond my moral beliefs, I did because of you.

kaya mahal kita e, kahit pangit ako, mabaho, pandak, mataba, maitim, boba, walang kwenta ... lahat na ... naaatim mo pa ring sabihin sa akin na mahal mo ko .. alam kong natural ka lang bolero, pero hindi pa rin madali yung ginagawa mo a. kahit na ang batikang bolero ay nasusuka pag ako ang kaharap. 

mahal kita, kahit ganyan ka, ganito ako, at ganito tayo. masaya ako dahil naranasan kita sa buhay ko. sabihin man nilang tanga ako dahil mahal pa rin kita, ayos lang. mahal kita e.

CELLPHONE

...yung bagay na kahapon parang ayaw ko ng bitawan

....ngayon, ni ayaw ko man lang tignan.

Ansakit, para kong tino-torture minu-minuto. 

Mas ok pa maglaslas e. 

Nakakaloka talaga.

I'm feelin' it right now. I'm afraid. I don't know what he might tell me the next time we'd talk, I don't even know if we'll ever converse again. If ever we'll have the time to speak again, I don't want to hear anything about it. I just want him to tell me if we'd still be the same or not. But actually, it kills me. I'm really anxious about what he would utter. 

But most of all, I am horrified about the truth that he might tell me it's all over. I swear it would tear off my soul. I just wish I could bear it all.

I should ready myself for hearing the worst words. I must learn now to swallow everything, even the fact that he might not talk to me anymore. Any of the two things - being ignored or being told that it's over - would surely hurt me.

24 hours na walang paramdam. Nakakaloka lang. Hay... 

Ano na kayang nangyari? 

Magtetext pa kaya siya?

Tatawag?

Magkikita pa kaya kami?

Kung magkita kami, papansinin niya pa rin ba ako?

O sasabihin niya na bang tapos na ang lahat?

Iiwan niya na ba ako?

Mawawala na ba siya?

Binura niya na ata ang number ko.

Nakakaloka talaga. 

Sana inayos ko na yung 'i love you' ko sa kanya kahapon .. yun na ata ang huli. 

At sana, in-accept ko na lang yung 'lab u' niya ng maayos .. kasi mukhang yun na ang huli.

What a guy wants ...

I want you to let me play with my/your hair.
I want you to accept my compliments.
I want you to listen to me sometimes.
I want you to smile for me.. (guys love their girls smile)
I want you to hold my hand unexpectedly.
I want you to tell me silly jokes and pick up lines.
I want you to watch Pixar/Disney movies with me.
I want you to try to play video games with me.
I want you to tell me silly stories.
I want you to sing and dance randomly with me.
I want to take pictures and make couple videos with you. (even though guys may not show it, we enjoy taking pictures and making videos)
I want you to not make fun of my little imperfections. (sometimes it gets to us)
I want you to kiss me.
I want you to bite my lip occasionally. (I cant speak for all guys, but damn it feels good)
I want you to tell me you love me.
I want you to tell me you missed me when we finally get together.
I want you to accept me for who I am.
I want you to love me unconditionally.
I just want to spend time with you.
I need you to know that I love you so much..

What a girl wants ....

I want you to hug me from behind, unexpectedly.
I want you to give me your hoodie when I`m cold.
I want you to hold me and keep me warm.
I want you to cuddle with me and watch movies together.
I want you to kiss me in the rain.
I want you to hold my hands and play with my fingers.
I want you to play with my hair.
I want you to take amazing photos with me.
I want you to come to my house and meet my family.
I want you to lay on my bed with me and just hold me.
I want you to let me dress you up and make you look silly.
I want you to watch sunrise with me.
I want you to give me piggy back rides daily.
I want you to kiss my nose.
I want you to wipe my tears away.
I want you to tell me that you miss me already even if we were together five minutes ago.
I want you to drop everything and hug me tight.
I want you to take me on a picnic.
I want you to snuggle with me in the movie theaters.
I want you to squeeze me as hard as you can when you hug me.
I want you to smile every single time you see me.
I want you to know how much I love you.
I just want you.

Everything happens for a reason. Every action has a reaction. Always remember that what's meant to be will always find a way to come about.

Excuse me, please. I'm dreaming.

NO.

Please stop loving each other when you're already dead. Give chance to others. LOL. hahahaha!

LADIES,

There's always a girl who's prettier than you, but you've just got to find that ONE GUY who doesn't care.....

Family Day!

Nung Sabado, nagpunta kami sa Quiapo. Si Papa, Mama, Sam, Ako at si Jeff. Nakakatuwa kasi hindi ko akalaing bonding day namin yun. Nalaman ko lang din yun nung Friday sa kapatid ko. 

Bale dalawang oras ang biyahe namin mula sa amin mismo hanggang Quiapo. Mabuti at may natsempuhan kaming bus na diretso. Dumating kami doon quarter to 7 na. Sa overpass, wow ... andaming nagtitinda ng ... mga laruang pang matanda. 

Mabuti na lang naabutan namin ang susunod na misa. Sakto lang ang dating namin. Medyo nakakaantok pero ayos naman. Maliit lang pala ang Quiapo church, malaki pa yung sa Baclaran. Pero pag sa TV parang anlawak. After mass, nagbubuhos ng holy water ang mga laymen. Nagbubuhos talaga ang term e no .. haha. Pano kasi andami .. as in basang basa ka. May mga nakasabay kaming magsimba na sobrang tatangkad na mga lalaki .. mga manlalaro ng FEU. Mukhang may laban kaya nagsimba .. isang team sila e. Pagkatapos ng misa, nagpunta kami sa likod para sa "pahalik". 

Matapos naming mahipo ang lahat ng santo sa likod, naglakad na kami .. malapit lang naman. Nagpa-duplicate ng susi si Papa para samin ni Sam. Tapos sumakay na kami ng jeep papuntang Luneta. Kanya-kanyang bayad nga pala kami sa pamasahe. Muntik pa nga akong di sasama sana, kasi naisip ko kung sasama ako mauubos pera ko. hahaha! Kuripot e no. Pero awa ni Lord di naman. 

So, sa Luneta. Nagbago na nga ang luneta, nun na lang ako ulit nakapunta dun. Mas maganda sana dun kapag gabi. Tinignan namin ang mapa ng Pinas, tapos dumiretso kami sa Children's Playground. Doon kami kumain ng baon naming Spaghetti at binili nilang chocolate ice cream. Grabe, sira ang diet ko! hahahaha!  

Medyo naiinis lang ako kina Kuya kasi wala sila. Kahit yung anak lang sana nila. Ganun sila, madamot. Naisip ko nga e, pag nagka-anak ako, lagi kong dadalhin kina Papa at Mama. Nakikita ko kasi kung gaano sila kasaya pag kasama nila ang apo nila. Pero naman, kailan pa ko magkakaanak diba. Matagal pa. Siguro ang pinakamaganda ko na lang na magagawa para sa kanila ngayon ay ang mag-aral ng mabuti at makapagtapos. 

Ikot-ikot, picture-picture. Ayun lang tapos umalis na rin kami ng mga bandang 10:30am. Nag-LRT kami hanggang Baclaran tapos dun na ko humiwalay sa kanila. Nung time nga na maghihiwalay na, parang ayoko pa. Kasi .. wala. Bihira lang kasi yung mga ganung pagkakataon, yung makakasama ko sila Mama at Papa ng hindi sila nagmamadali. Pero kasi pagod na rin sila at isa pa may gagawin pa ko nung panahon na yun. Naisip ko nga bigla nun, parang di ko pa kayang mag-asawa. Kasi hindi ko yata kayang mawalay kina Mama at Papa. Pero naisip ko rin na ganun talaga ang realidad ng buhay .. na may kailangan kang iwan para sa ibang bagay na mahalaga din naman. Na kahit ayaw mo, kailangan mong putulin ang oras ng masasaya mong sandali sa kanila para naman sa masayang pagkakataon sa iba.  Na darating din talaga ang panahon na iiwan mo sila. hay. Pero matagal pa naman yun. Baka nga di na ko makapag-asawa nito. hahaha!

Ayun, masayang masaya ako noong araw na iyon. Gusto ko siyang maulit. Kailangan kaya ulit?? Hay ....

Nakakabingi ang katahimikan. Muli, ako nanaman mag isa dito sa bahay. Mas ok pa kanina na nasa school ako, at least nababaling ang atensyon ko sa ibang bagay. Nakakalimot ako. Sana pala di na muna ako umuwi. Sabi ko na nga ba, ito nanaman ang kahihinatnan ko rito. Andami kong naiisip na kung pwede lang sana di na lang. Nasasaktan ako. Naiiyak ako. Kung pwede lang i-reformat ang utak e. Hay. Itulog ko na lang kaya to? Kaso kailangan kong matapos mag burn ng mga kanta. Magsa-soundtrip na lang ako para at least yung utak ko okupado, yun bang wala akong maiisip kundi lyrics ng kanta. Kasi pag tahimik, bumabalik ako sa realidad. Ayoko. Ayoko na.

choose to be happy ~

        I'm finally ok. After crying for a couple of hours, I've now recovered. I just wish that the moment I turn off my computer, I won't think about it anymore. Silence without anything that could steal my mind kills me. It flashes all the things that happened, and may also show a sneak peek of what might happen after. Right now, I fear tomorrow. I don't know how would I deal with anything I would see, hear and feel. I just pray that when I woke up, everything will be ok. I don't want to be hurt anymore. I want to start my day refreshed, without worries. But of course, what do I expect? Even if I try to run away from it, I'll end up meeting pain at the middle of the line. Well, that's life. I still believe that after crossing the hump, I will surely be at the long, straight way again where at the end of it, I'll be meeting the happiness I've long been searching for. 

          I really pray that tomorrow will be ok. If I could only forget this day, I will.

Good things will happen if you have faith and believe with all your heart. It may take time but it will happen.

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Is praying about having you someday a good thing? I guess, even if I have enough faith and have believed with all my heart, it will never ever happen. Yes, they say that all things are possible, but I still believe with exceptions. I know God would tell me that there is a better one prepared for me, but I still want you. It's only you. Is it too much if I ask you to be mine?

You know what, she's fortunate. She'd already experienced more than the feeling of winning the lottery. Having you is all I ever wanted, and she had it already. She had my life. That's how lucky she is. 

 She's perfectly matched with you. You get along so well, you look good together. Most of all, she's the one that you need. She could provide your demands. She takes care of you more than anyone else could. She had offered her life to you, which makes you really blessed. A person like me could never replace her. Her goodness and unconditional love for you makes her different and above everyone else. 

So, even if I want to, I can't say I must be the one for you. Oh well, at the end, my condition right now is all my fault. I have allowed myself to fall for you, even though I know I could have stopped myself in the first place. I'm hurt, not because of you, it's because of me.

I have permitted myself to be drowned even if I know how to swim... it's because deep in my heart, I was hoping that you'll rescue me. Yes, you did actually. You jumped in the water, grabbed my hand and waist and lifted me up. But it's not you who have given me the CPR, it's not your breath that would bring back my life. I'll just have to wait for that one guy who would come swiftly to lock his mouth unto mine, and tell me that I don't deserve all the hurt that I'm feelin' right now. 

Hello Blog!

Wow. Sa buwan na ito wala pa akong masyadong naipo-post. Una't huling post ko e nung January 2 pa. LOL

Ano nga ba nangyari sakin nitong mga nakaraang araw na di ako nagpaparamdam dito?? 

Wala, masaya lang kasi ang buhay ko. At masyado akong busy kaya pati yung paborito kong pampalipas oras na pag-i-internet e nakaligtaan ko na. Ang galing nga e. Hindi naman sa sinasabi kong produktibong mga bagay ang ginawa ko .. actually hindi rin pero mas ok siya kesa sa pag-upo at pag-e-emote dito sa internet. Pero ngayon .. I'm back. Mukang mapapadalas nanaman ang pagbisita ko dito. 

Ang blog ko ay isang bagay na tinatakbuhan ko kapag malungkot ako. Pansin ko lang. Tuwing mag-e-emote ako ang sipag-sipag kong mag-share .. pero pag masasayang bagay ang nagaganap sa akin ni di ko maikwento rito. Ansama e no. Well, yun naman kasi ang purpose ko nung gawin at simulan ko ang blog na to. Nandito ito dahil ito ang isa sa mga paraan para mai-release ko ang emosyong di ko naman pwedeng i-express sa totoong mundo. Isa pa, dito sa internet feeling ko andami kong katulad (totoo naman), andami kong karamay at pakiramdam ko maraming nakakaintindi sakin. Hay, buti pa ang blog, hindi nagsasawa sa kaartehan ko. Malamang, kasi wala naman siyang magagawa kung ano ang i-post ko .. ako ang nagmamanipula sa kanya. 

Hmm .. andito na ulit ako .. oo, dahil nag-e-emote nanaman ako. hahai ... parang naiirita nanaman ako sa paligid .. ayoko nanamang kumausap ng kahit na sino. hahahaha! 

Pero sana ... sa mga susunod na araw .. yung mga ipopost ko e maganda at may kwenta na. Kaya ko kaya? Parang hindi, ako pa... e puro walang kakwenta kwentang bagay ang naiisip ko. Hahaha. Hayaan ko na nga .. at least may nasasabi. LOL

Ewan ko ba. Mas namimiss ko ang isang tao hindi dahil matagal kaming di nagkita o nagkasama .. mas namimiss ko kapag magkasama lang kami kani-kanina tapos maghihiwalay na. Alam mo yun. Dun sa point na hiwalay na kayo ... dun bumubuhos ang extreme na emosyon ng pagka-miss. Na kung pwede mo lang siyang balikan gagawin mo. Na kung pwede mo lang sabihin na wag muna siyang umalis o wag na lang kayong maghiwalay gagawin mo. Na kung pwede lang sana .. habambuhay na kayong magkasama .... gagawin mo. Alam mo yun. Kaya nga madalas, pag ako may kasama tapos goodbye na, tapos na ang oras ... kailangan ng umuwi sa bahay ... hindi ko nililingon ang taong yun. Nalulungkot ako. Mas ok pang wag ko siyang makitang palayo. Hay. Grabe. Pero ngayon meron akong isang taong namimiss .. ay marami naman pala .. pero siya ang pinaka namimiss ko ngayon. Haha! Magkasama lang kami kahapon pero .. wala, sobrang bitin. Grabe. Feeling ko kahit whole day kong makasama ang taong yun e mamimiss ko pa rin. Hay. Sana makita ko siya bukas. May plano kami e, pero syempre hindi ko alam kung matutuloy at ayokong paasahin ang sarili ko. Pero gustong gusto ko na talaga siyang makita at makasama. Hay. ... Nababaliw na ko. hahahahaha! Antok lang to. :)

Nakakabitin talaga. Ang sarap pang matulog buong araw. Ang sarap pang mag-stay sa bahay. Ang sarap pa ng buhay na di ka nagka-cramming o kinakabahan kung may assignment o exam kinabukasan. Ang sarap ng buhay na di ka nagmamadali dahil baka ma-late ka. Hay. Mamaya ... wala .. may pasok na. Stress nanaman. Badtrip all over nanaman. Pero sana hindi ganito no. Ok ayokong i-expect na ganito. Dahil new year na .. siguro naman mas ok na. At dahil nasimulan ko ang 2012 ng masaya .. siguro naman, at sana naman ay good vibes ako diba. Naman. Hay! Buhay! May pasok nanaman. No choice. Well, 3 months na lang naman .. mabilis na lang ! hahahahaha!

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

THANK YOU 2011...

For all the times i had to go through the pain of losing someone i love.
For all the beautiful moments i cherished with my FAMILY and FRIENDS..
For new friendship,new perspectives,new horizon.
For the worse and painful feeling of loneliness..
For the amazing feeling of loving and being loved.
For all the new changes you brought in me.
For all the times i cried and became stronger.
For the feeling of being rejected and taken for granted..
For all the beautiful moments spent with HIM.
For the fact that he knew what he was doing to me but yet didnt wanna do anything about it.
For all the times i had to stop caring about myself and my feelings just to make sure he is happy.
For all the times i missed my loved ones who are far away from me.
THANK YOU 2011 for giving me a new meaning of life and for making me explore my inner strength and beauty..
you are certainly one of the years am not gonna forget..
NOW LETS JUST WAIT AND HOPE FOR A BRIGHT AND PEACEFUL AND HAPPY 2012 :)

Girls are taught a lot of stuff growing up. If a guy punches you he likes you. Never try to trim your own bangs and someday you will meet a wonderful guy and get your very own happy ending. Every movie we see, Every story we're told implores us to wait for it, the third act twist, the unexpected declaration of love, the exception to the rule. But sometimes we're so focused on finding our happy ending we don't learn how to read the signs. How to tell from the ones who want us and the ones who don't, the ones who will stay and the ones who will leave. And maybe a happy ending doesn't include a guy, maybe... it's you, on your own, picking up the pieces and starting over, freeing yourself up for something better in the future. Maybe the happy ending is... just... moving on. Or maybe the happy ending is this, knowing after all the unreturned phone calls, broken-hearts, through the blunders and misread signals, through all the pain and embarrassment you never gave up hope

At least for me, having an intense physical attraction to a guy does not happen that often. So when I find a guy that I am really attracted to, it is hard for me to break it off if it isn’t working. I offer him many chances to get it right because I know it will be really hard to find someone again that I feel that kind of attraction to. Also when you are familiar and comfortable with someone it is hard to let that go, even if they aren’t right for you. I know that someday I will find someone that I am attracted to AND also treats me right.

Sometimes in life, you find a special friend. Someone who changes your life just by being part of it. Someone who makes you laugh until you can't stop. Someone who makes you believe that there really is good in the world. Someone who convinces you that there really is an unlocked door just waiting for you to open it. This is forever friendship. When you're down and the world seems dark and empty, your forever friend lifts you up in spirit and makes that dark and empty world suddenly seem bright and full. Your forever friend gets you through the hard times, the sad times and the confused times. If you turn and walk away, your forever friend follows. If you lose your way, your forever friend guides you and cheers you on. Your forever friend hold your hand and tells you that everything is going to be okay. And if you find such a friend, you feel happy and complete because you need not worry. You have a forever friend, and forever has no end.

HEART: mhl q tlga xa..

BRAIN: alm q, x0bra p nga db?

HEART: lm mu pla,bt plit mu p xang knkLmtn?
...
BRAIN: kc ayaw n ktang mxktan.

STOMACH: s s0bra m0ng pgm2hal,d kna kmkain.

EYES: pti aq npu2yat n..

LIVER: k0rek, pLgi k pNg uMi¡Nom, naAapek2han n kMe n kidNey.

LUNGS: aq dn nh2rPn ng huMinGa.

HEART:pXenxa n guYs ha...e2 tlga functi0n q e, aNg MAGMAHAL..

Thinking of you means "I miss you"
Holding your hand means "I like you"
Squeezing it means "I want to kiss you"
Putting my head on your shoulder means "Comfort me"
My hands on your waist means "Never let me go"
Biting my lip means "I'm jealous"
Staring into your eyes means "Do you love me?"
Winking means "I adore you"
Dreaming of you often means "You're someone special"
Being with you often means "I can't live without you"
And wearing your ring means "You're mine"

MARRIAGE.

That scary moment when you put a ring on your finger and can't get it off.

I don't know which is worse, keeping your love for someone a secret or telling them and risk being rejected.

Sabi ni “Peter Pan”

“when you think of happy thoughts you’ll fly.”

eh bakit pag iniisip kita.

I fall?

Makuha ka sa tingin. :)))

If you like someone, you don’t have to openly admit it.

Sometimes, it takes just one gaze to let that someone feel it.

Hindi pwedeng sakanya lang oras mo. May kaibigan siya, may pamilya siya. Kung tutuusin, umextra ka lang. 

#PapaJack

The 'I Love You' I have been waiting for.

Relationships that aren’t mutual are like ‘restricted’ love. You’re never free to just to love and enjoy it. You’re free to let your imagination and even your libido run wild, it’s just that it’s incredibly painful when you realize that you’ve far outpaced reality.You can be in love on your own but you actually can’t have a mutual relationship, one with love, care, trust, respect and shared values, on your own. Real, mutual love doesn’t have ‘buts’. You don’t need someone saying “I love you but…you know my situation” or “I love you but I can’t give you what you want” or even “I love you and we’ll always be friends but…” You want someone to say “I love you” – simplicity. After they say it, you continue about your life together, a life I might add that reflects that of two people who love each other mutually. You hug, you kiss, you make plans, those plans come to fruition but before you even make plans, you can even get on and enjoy the simple, normal things that make up the day to day.

Move on.

1 month passes - Cant eat, pain deep.

3 months pass - sleepless nights wondering what went wrong

6 months pass - Thinking if the other person has moved on

9 months pass - Crossing paths and realizing you are now the most familiar strangers

12 months pass - Life continues with nothing left but a trial of happy memories and a chapter completed

Grrrrrrrrrrrrr!!!!!!!!!!!

That moment when you want to punch someone in the face.

Goodbye. :/

"never say goodbye. because goodbye means going away,
and going away means forgetting."
...
-peter pan.

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GOODBYES are my greatest fear. Goodbye is the most traumatic word I know. Goodbye is the number one thing I wish just only happens in nightmares and not in reality. Goodbye is something I never ever want to hear from you ........... 

I have this strange fear with goodbyes. Yeah, I know I wasn't the only person who's afraid of saying goodbye, all people actually do ... but then, this is one natural thing that I always try to think that I can alter. I mean, I know goodbyes are part of our lives because we all know that nothing's permanent, but then I still make myself believe that there could be ways to avoid it. 

Goodbyes are very painful. It holds something that you could never ever take back. When you say goodbye, you are about to change everything. When you say goodbye, you are literally telling that you are ready to forget and leave things behind, which I really hate. I want to restore everything, as much as possible. 

Girls have uncountable crushes, but only one guy remains in her heart.

I may have tons of crushes around, who I always share with you. But I know you know that deep inside my heart, it was only you who resides. There may be a lot more men whose better than you, more cute than you, but then, there is still no other who could be you. You are unique in my eyes, your name is the only thing my heart can recognize. I may seem be happier when I see those guys I like, but swear, there are no more happier moments than being with you even just for a while. 

I might hug other guys. I might laugh with other guys, but none of them will ever mean to me as much as you do..

KISS.

Right about now I need that kiss, a kiss that is passionate,slow ,little tongue,neat,holding each other,saying I Love You between our locked lips ,eyes close while thinking your future with them or try absorb that moment so you can replay it in your mind. I think Kissing is so much better than sex ;)

my favorite quote. :)))

A wise girl kisses but doesn't love,listens but doesn't believe,and leaves before she is left .

-Marilyn Monroe.

“There comes a point in your life when you realize who really matters, who never did, and who always will.”—Unknown

Naughty Things You Can Only Say On Thanksgiving.....

1. Talk about a huge breast!
2. Tying the legs together keeps the inside moist.
3. It's Cool Whip time!
4. If I don't undo my pants, I'll burst!
5. That's one terrific spread!
6. I'm in the mood for a little dark meat.
7. Are you ready for seconds yet?
8. Its a little dry, do you still want to eat it?
9. Just wait your turn, you'll get some!
10. Don't play with your meat.
11. Just spread the legs open & stuff it in.
12. Do you think you'll be able to handle all these people at once?
13. I didn't expect everyone to come at once!
14. You still have a little bit on your chin.
15. How long will it take after you stick it in?
16. You'll know it's ready when it pops up!

In life, you're going to meet new people you wish you never did and say goodbye to people you wish wouldn't go.

Pride.

That annoying feeling when you’re dying to talk to someone, but you refuse to text them first.

At some point you will realize that you have done too much for someone or something, that the only next possible step to do is to stop. Leave them alone. Walk away. It’s not like you’re giving up, and it’s not like you shouldn’t try. It’s just that you have to draw the line of determination from desperation. What is truly yours would eventually be yours, and what is not, no matter how hard you try, will never be.

“I have learned to care people too much, not because they are good…
but because I knew the pain of being ignored.”

Matter occupies space---and the space in my heart is already occupied by someone who really matters.

Dear Men:

 It's all in the kiss. Eight out of 10 women feel they KNOW the potential passion and success of a relationship from the first kiss. The secret to a great one: Start slowly, linger, lips, light tongue, and pay attention to HER... she'll make it clear when the timing is right for something more forceful. ;) (Extra points for cheek caresses, back-of-neck rubbing, hair strokes, and staying SLOW to start.)

SILENCE has a deep explanation in every situation.

it's either you truly don't care anymore

or pretending UNAFFECTED but deeply HURT.

HELL as explained by a chemistry student.

The following is an actual question given on a University of Washington Chemistry mid-term:

The answer by one student was so ‘profound’ that the professor shared it with colleagues, via the Internet, which is, of course, why we now have the pleasure of enjoying it as well :

Bonus Question: Is Hell exothermic (gives off heat) or endothermic (absorbs heat)?

Most of the students wrote proofs of their beliefs using Boyle’s Law (gas cools when it expands and heats when it is compressed) or some variant.

One student, however, wrote the following:

First, we need to know how the mass of Hell is changing in time. So we need to know the rate at which souls are moving into Hell and the rate at which they are leaving. I think that we can safely assume that once a soul gets to Hell, it will not leave. Therefore, no souls are leaving. As for how many souls are entering Hell, let’s look at the different religions that exist in the world today.

Most of these religions state that if you are not a member of their religion, you will go to Hell. Since there is more than one of these religions and since people do not belong to more than one religion, we can project that all souls go to Hell. With birth and death rates as they are, we can expect the number of souls in Hell to increase exponentially. Now, we look at the rate of change of the volume in Hell because Boyle’s Law states that in order for the temperature and pressure in Hell to stay the same, the volume of Hell has to expand proportionately as souls are added.

This gives two possibilities:

1. If Hell is expanding at a slower rate than the rate at which souls enter Hell, then the temperature and pressure in Hell will increase until all Hell breaks loose.

2. If Hell is expanding at a rate faster than the increase of souls in

Hell, then the temperature and pressure will drop until Hell freezes over.

So which is it?

If we accept the postulate given to me by Teresa during my Freshman year that, ‘It will be a cold day in Hell before I sleep with you,’ and take into account the fact that I slept with her last night, then number two must be true, and thus I am sure that Hell is exothermic and has already frozen over. The corollary of this theory is that since Hell has frozen over, it follows that it is not accepting any more souls and is therefore, extinct……leaving only Heaven, thereby proving the existence of a divine being which explains why, last night, Teresa kept shouting ‘Oh my God.’

THIS STUDENT RECEIVED AN A+

--uso na ngayon ang M.U.
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--Mag-isang Umiibig--

…because even though right now they promise to be there for you, forever and always; they will break you.
They will fucking break you.
You won’t work right anymore.
Sixth months will have passed, and you won’t even know how to fucking breath without them. You’ll go numb. You’ll stop feeling anything, good or bad.
You’ll stop caring about work, school, friends and family.
Nothing will matter to you except sleep, which ironically you’ll stop getting decent amounts of.
If you base your happiness on another person, you will get screwed over.
Let me just repeat that for emphasis: you will get screwed over.
Truth is, people are dishonest sons of bitches. Hell, even I am. We all are. Yet we all continue going around, making promises that everyone knows we’ll never keep.
Why make the promises at all?
Why put on such a big show, only to hurt someone?
What’s the point of it all?
Love is painful. Then, for a few briefs moments of time, love is fearless. And then it goes right on back to being painful. Only, the post-fearless painful isn’t like the painful before, because now you’re being forced to turn love into a past tense. Now you’re expected to go back to how you were before you ever loved. And that’s impossible. Because once you have loved, and I mean truly loved someone, you are forever changed. Nothing will ever make you go back to how you were before…and nothing will ever really fill the gaping hole left in your chest by the absence of that person.
Nothing will ever be the same. Because people are mean. And they lie about loving someone. And they make someone happy, they promise them the world, and then they rip it all away and leave them broken.
Don’t base your happiness off someone else, or you’ll end up worse off than before.

The perfect girl to date. ♥

Date a girl who reads. Date a girl who spends her money on books instead of clothes. She has problems with closet space because she has too many books. Date a girl who has a list of books she wants to read, who has had a library card since she was twelve.

Find a girl who reads. You’ll know that she does because she will always have an unread book in her bag. She’s the one lovingly looking over the shelves in the bookstore, the one who quietly cries out when she finds the book she wants. You see the weird chick sniffing the pages of an old book in a second hand book shop? That’s the reader. They can never resist smelling the pages, especially when they are yellow.

She’s the girl reading while waiting in that coffee shop down the street. If you take a peek at her mug, the non-dairy creamer is floating on top because she’s kind of engrossed already. Lost in a world of the author’s making. Sit down. She might give you a glare, as most girls who read do not like to be interrupted. Ask her if she likes the book.

Buy her another cup of coffee.
Let her know what you really think of Murakami. See if she got through the first chapter of Fellowship. Understand that if she says she understood James Joyce’s Ulysses she’s just saying that to sound intelligent. Ask her if she loves Alice or she would like to be Alice.

It’s easy to date a girl who reads. Give her books for her birthday, for Christmas and for anniversaries. Give her the gift of words, in poetry, in song. Give her Neruda, Pound, Sexton, Cummings. Let her know that you understand that words are love. Understand that she knows the difference between books and reality but by god, she’s going to try to make her life a little like her favorite book. It will never be your fault if she does.

She has to give it a shot somehow.
Lie to her. If she understands syntax, she will understand your need to lie. Behind words are other things: motivation, value, nuance, dialogue. It will not be the end of the world.

Fail her. Because a girl who reads knows that failure always leads up to the climax. Because girls who understand that all things will come to end. That you can always write a sequel. That you can begin again and again and still be the hero. That life is meant to have a villain or two.

Why be frightened of everything that you are not? Girls who read understand that people, like characters, develop. Except in the Twilight series.

If you find a girl who reads, keep her close. When you find her up at 2 AM clutching a book to her chest and weeping, make her a cup of tea and hold her. You may lose her for a couple of hours but she will always come back to you. She’ll talk as if the characters in the book are real, because for a while, they always are.

You will propose on a hot air balloon. Or during a rock concert. Or very casually next time she’s sick. Over Skype.

You will smile so hard you will wonder why your heart hasn’t burst and bled out all over your chest yet. You will write the story of your lives, have kids with strange names and even stranger tastes. She will introduce your children to the Cat in the Hat and Aslan, maybe in the same day. You will walk the winters of your old age together and she will recite Keats under her breath while you shake the snow off your boots.

Date a girl who reads because you deserve it. You deserve a girl who can give you the most colorful life imaginable. If you can only give her monotony, and stale hours and half-baked proposals, then you’re better off alone. If you want the world and the worlds beyond it, date a girl who reads.

Or better yet, date a girl who writes.

(sqrt(cos(x))*cos(200 x)+sqrt(abs(x))-0.7)*(4-x*x)^0.01, sqrt(9-x^2), -sqrt(9-x^2) from -4.5 to 4.5

WHAT HAS ANIME TAUGHT ME ??

That you have to stand up for what you believe in, even if you stand alone.

Don’t try and gain anything new without expecting to lose something first.

In death, we make room for new life.

Death is beautiful.

Love is truly, the only thing you can honestly fight for.

Lessons are painful.

Bravery is the ultimate weapon.

Every human life has potential.

No one knows you better than you.

The ones who truly love you, will never betray you.

The truth comes with a price.

Simplicity is the ultimate sophistication.

The strongest man is never the most courageous.

Everyone has a weakness.

You must earn trust from others, not be gifted it.

Everyone has a back story.

Your heart will always know what is right. Listen to it.

Revenge will only blacken your soul.

It is never acceptable to call someone short.

Things aren’t always what they seem

Protect the ones you love at all costs, it’s worth it

Never give up. It always gets better.

There isn’t always a knight for you, but you find love in the weirdest places.

Friends are forever, best friends will wait for you to chase them.

No love can hurt as much as the love that can never be and no thought can hurt as much as the thought of a love that could have been.

It's TEARS DAY today. T_____T

You told me that in texting, you'll miss the other person more. How about when there's no means of communication at all?

He chose me to be out of his life .. and it sucks.

You've made me feel happy like no one else could .. and then, after that day ... you told me to stop communicating with you. It's unfair, you know? I didn't had a single clue. Or, let's just say that you've showed all the hints, but I chose to ignore it. Ok, my fault. You win.

I don't know what I'm gonna do for the next days.

I mean, I've been used to talking with you, that it's all I want to do the whole day.
Now is the first day of change.

I don't really know how to get you out of my own schedule, when you really are the only one that is important in it.

My life is incomplete for the nth time around, but I swear I'll work this out as soon as possible.

I don't want to be left behind.

I don't want you to see me falling apart while you were enjoying your life without me in it anymore.

I want you to see that without you, I'll be strong.

But for now, excuse me for feeling this way. 

I hope you know me, that I'm not used to changes like this.

I could handle any change, except like this .. the change that I never thought would happen in reality and not just in my nightmares.

The sudden change of you getting me out of your life.

I'm TIRED. (T)icked off. (I)rritated. (R)eady to cry. (E)xtremely upset. (D)one.

You ... left me... just when I need you most.

The feeling when you are in the middle of a good story and realize no one is listening to you. :/

Yes, she's hurt. And her heart is the most abused part. It has taken so much beating, been broken a lot of times. Crushed, dumped, and disregarded. But still, she smiles.
Isn't she amazing?

Yes, you've proven me you're different .. like what you told me before. You may be like them by leaving me behind, but you have your own way, which makes you different from everybody else. You know how. Very simple. You bid the most painful goodbye ever. :/

I needed you. 

I need your arms around me.

I need you to hold me. 

I want to hear from you that someday, we'll be together.

 

This photo perfectly laid it all. 

In logic, our professor told us that a smile means happiness. But now, it's the other way around. Like everything else in this world, a smile had a lot of meaning behind it.

In the classroom I was seated at the back most part of the room. My classmate once told me that in the front rows, one time when I was asked by my professor about what my hobby is, someone whispered, "smiling". 

On one incident, another professor called my attention and actually scolded me in the class for one reason .. she caught me smiling while she was nagging all over. 

In our English class, we are asked to deliver a speech. My professor told me that I am good at it, the way I utter the words and my posture, aside from one thing ... my facial expression. Why? For one thing .. she told me that my eyes are always smiling, which is a good thing because it makes me look an approachable person but a bad side when I were about to deliver something serious. 

This is what makes me good at hiding my feelings. Smiling. It had been a very essential part of my life. I am a good liar. I could show anyone it doesn't hurt .. but really .. it's already killing me inside.

My dimples add up to the act. When people see those "assets" I have, they thought I'm happy with my life. So whenever they don't see me smiling early in the morning, that's when they thought I'm having a bad day, which is, not accurately true. I mean, it had been one of my best acting skills. I could smile in the rain and cry in a sunny day. 

I wish there would be someone who knew me. Who really, really knew me. Who knows that behind my biggest smile is the unforgiven hurt I have inside. I wish there would be someone who would notice the difference with my smile of happiness and smile of sadness. How I wish there's someone out there who would know that when I say I'm ok, I'm actually not.