I miss you .. :')

You can miss someone who died, someone who moved away. But the worst thing? is having to miss someone you see everyday. :)

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One of the worst feelings ever. Ewan ko ba .. missing someone is a positive thing for me .. kasi it tells na you remember someone and you are being remembered .. so .. ibig sabihin .. mahalaga ka. Pero it is not a so good feeling .. kasi .. masakit. Masakit maka-miss ng isang tao. Yung tipong naiisip mo na 'sana andito siya sa mga oras na to' ..

Hay. Pero ang pinaka nakakainis .. e yung mamiss mo yung taong nakikita mo naman araw-araw. Sabihin na natin di araw-araw .. pero yung mamiss mo ang isang tao sa oras na magkasama o nagkita kayo .. para sakin malupit yun. Sobrang sakit. Parang kanina lang e .. (haha!)

Alam mo yun. Yung naiisip mo na ,.. "sana .. sa mga oras na to .. pwede kong gawin to .. pwede kong sabihin yun .. " .. pero ni di mo malapitan. Malapitan mo nga limitado naman kasi alam mong maraming matang nakatingin .. at isa pa, hindi na tulad ng dati ang lahat. May lamat na, sabi nga ni Geh. Hai.

Basta, hindi masarap ang feeling na maka miss ng tao lalo na kung ang taong yun e nag iwan ng maraming memories sa buhay mo. Nakakainis. Kung pwede lang kalimutan ang lahat .. edi sana di ka malulungkot at maghahanap pag wala na ...

Tama nga si Sir Celeste. Sabi niya sa comment niya sa post ni Caesey na ..

When someone is so sweet to you,

Don't expect that he/she will be like that all the time
because even the sweetest chocolate,

"Expires!"

"Everything in this world have an expiration date. The point is to make everything worthwhile while it's still there."

Habang andyan pa at ok pa ang lahat . .. go! Wag mo ng hintayin pa ang araw na katulad nito .. maiisip mo siya at mamimiss mo ..na sigurado namang sooner or later mangyayari ... lahat may expiration. Ahai ..

"5 fingers of prayer"

1. Your thumb is nearer to you,so pray for those who are closest to you.
2. Pointing finger: pray for those who teach, instruct & heal.
3. Tallest finger: pray for our leaders, they need God's guidance.
4. Ring finger: weakest finger, so pray for those who are weak, troubled or in need.
5. Little finger: the smallest to remind you to pray for yourself.

Kung hindi ka gagawa ng kalokohan
habang bata ka pa,
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Wala kang maaalalang nakakatawa
kung matanda ka na. =))

Wanted : Kausap.

Naloloka na talaga ako!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Grabe.. ang hirap ng ganito. Yung naiipon lahat sa isip at puso mo .. na gusto mong ilabas pero hindi pwede. Hindi pwede kasi walang makikinig .. at walang interesado.

Ito ang problema ko mula pa noon. Lagi akong mag-isa .. tapos nagtataka ako .. marami naman akong kaibigan pero wala akong mapagsabihan ng mga nararamdaman ko ni isa.

Nagkaroon naman ako ng mga kaibigang may pakinabang .. yung nakikinig sakin .. pero wala e .. wala na sila ngayon. Malayo sila sakin at limitado ang sharing portion. Yung isa naman .. wala na kasi inaway ko. Oo, tanga na kung tanga .. e ganun e. Nagsisisi naman ako .. pero wala na e .. nangyari na .. di ko na rin naman mababawi pa.

So ayun na nga. Yun namang mga nakakasama ko sa kasalukuyan .. kung hindi ko mapagkatiwalaan, di naman interesado. Meron namang sobrang judgemental .. di ka pa nga tapos magkwento yung facial expression nakakababa na ng pagkatao. Alam mo yun?? Bakit ganun?? Bakit parang pinagkaitan ako ng mga taong matino?? Bakit parang bawal ako mag open kung kanino??

Naiinggit ako sa mga palabas na .. ayun .. may bestfriend yung bida na sinasabihan niya ng lahat ng sikreto niya tapos naiintindihan pa rin siya. Yung di siya pinaplastik. Yung di siya hinuhusgahan. Yung mahal pa rin siya kahit na nakakahiya na ang mga pinagkukwento niya (shet naiiyak ako .. I'm getting emotional nanaman..hahahaha!) Alam mo yun. Nakakainggit talaga .. kasi hindi pa ako nagkakaroon ng mga ganyang kaibigan.

Yung mga nagiging kaibigan ko .. gusto lagi sila ang pinakikinggan. Ok lang naman sakin yun kasi feeling ko talent ko ang makinig kahit na paulit ulit at walang kwenta na .. pero kasi naman .. diba. Hindi man ako umaasa ng kapalit sa serbisyo ko bilang kaibigan .. tingin ko naman may karapatan akong umasa sa serbisyo nila bilang kaibigan ko rin. Diba? Haizt.

Tapos may mga kasama (hindi ko sila kaibigan ,,.. swear!) naman ako ngayon na grabe .. bumababa ba naman ang tingin sayo pag may shinare ka katulad na lang yung sa lovelife ko na alam ko namang mali at isang malaking katarantaduhan .. katulad din nung galit na gait at asar na asar ako sa isang tao .. pero naman diba .. di nakakatulong e. Kasi sa mga panahong ganun ... emotionally weak ka at kailangan mo ng kausap at understanding nila .. pero hindi e. Lalo ka nilang dina-down, which is very depressing.

Ako na talaga ang dakilang tanga. Minsan na kong binigyan ng Panginoon ng matinong kaibigan, inaway ko pa. Ngayon .. back to normal ang lahat .. eto nanaman ako .. nagkikimkim ng emosyon .. kahit parang sasabog na ko kailangan kong magpigil para lang maging maayos ang lahat. Para lang hindi ako mahusgahan. Para meron pang respeto kahit konti ang mga taong nakapaligid sakin.

Hai. Buti sana kung walang kapaguran ang tao e .. kung malakas lang ako parati at kung mahaba lang ang oras .. dito ko na lang ikukwento ang lahat .. pero limitado ang mga kakayahan ko e. Hay. Kaya nga maraming tao sa mundo e ... para marami kang kaibigan. Para may nakakausap ka. Pero di ganun sakin. Hai..... grabe talaga.

Kaya di na ko nagtataka kung bakit kaya kong magpuyat para makausap lang ang kung sino, gumasta may makakwentuhan lang .. kasi kailangan ko talaga ng kausap. Konti na lang maloloka na ko ng tuluyan .. Grabe .. Grabe talaga ..

I need somebody.

"Kailan kaya ako magkaka boyfriend ulit ??"

Yan ang naiisip ko kanina sa jeep. Hay. Hindi naman sa desperada na ko na magka boyfriend o gustong gusto ko talaga o kailangang kailangan ko talaga no .. pero naisip ko lang .. kelan kaya?? Antagal naman, sana ngayon na. Joke lang. hahaha!!!

Wala lang. Kasi .. feeling ko ... ok masama na kung masama pero .. tingin ko makaka move on lang ako kapag may bago na kong pagbubuhusan ng atensyon ko. hahaha! Ansama e no.

Ang totoo niyan, ayoko naman talaga ng ideya ng 'rebound' no .. hindi ko gawain yan .. pero bukod sa panibagong experience siya kung magkataon .. parang yun kasi yung instant way e. Alam mo yun .. tsk. Hirap i-explain. hahaha!

Kasi .. nakakainis e. Ok na e .. di na ko nasasaktan .. tapos eto nanaman. Nakakasawa pero antanga ng puso at isip ko kasi yun at yun pa rin ang sinisigaw nila. Mga leche. Mas marunong pa sakin! hahahaha!!!

O sige wag na nga .. baka sabihin ni Lord lalo akong di karapat dapat mag boyfriend. Siguro ang hihilingin at pagpi pray ko na lang .. yung mawala na tong nararamdaman ko para sa kanya. Tama na .. sobrang kinakawawa ko na ang sarili ko dahil sa katangahan kong ito. Kahit pagbali-baliktarin ko ang mundo, wala na talaga .. suntok sa buwan ang lahat ng ninanais at minimithi ko. ahai. Ayoko na .. ayoko na .. ayoko na ....

I'm 19 but I act like I'm 20. (Parang di naman .. )

[x] You know how to make a pot of coffee

[x] You keep track of dates using a calendar or electronic device

[] You own a credit card

[] You know how to change the oil in a car

[x] You've done your own laundry

[x] You can vote in an election

[] You think politics is interesting

TOTAL SO FAR: 4

[x] You show(ed) up for school late a lot

[x] You always carry a pen/pencil in your bag/purse/pocket

[X] You've never gotten a detention

[] You have forgotten your own birthday

[x] You like to take walks by yourself

[x] You know what credibility means, without looking it up

[] You drink caffeine at least once a week

TOTAL SO FAR: 9

[x] You know how to do the dishes

[x] You can count to 10 in another language

[x] When you say you're going to do something you do it

[] You study even when you don't have to

[] You have hand washed a car before

TOTAL SO FAR: 12

[x] You can spell experience, without looking it up

[] The people at Starbucks know you by name

[] Your favorite kind of food is take out

[x] You can go to the store without getting something you don't need

[] You understand political jokes the first time they are said

[x] You can type pretty quick

TOTAL SO FAR: 15

[] Your only friends are from your place of employment (school counts)

[x] You have been to a Tupperware party

[] You have realized that practically no one will take you seriously unless you are over the age of 25 and have a job.

[] You have more bills than you can pay

[x ] You have been to the beach

[x] You use the internet every day

[] You have traveled overseas for more than 5 times

[X] You make your bed in the morning

[x] You realized people of the opposite sex might just make better friends.

TOTAL: 20

Repost this with the subject as:I'm (how old you are) but I act like I'm (what you got on the test)

The number of people you have to tag is the number you got on the test

And you have to tag the person who tagged you back

emotions test, dont u dare cheat

Copy, Paste, Dont look at the bottom before you do the thing or it won't work!

This is scary but pretty accurate.

1. Which color is better red, black, green, blue, or yellow?

-- red

2. What is your middle initial?

-- J

3. What month is your birthday?

-- August

4. Which color do you like more, black or white?

-- white

5.Name one of your friends.

-- Czar

6. Your favorite number?

-- 3

7. Do you like flying or driving more?

-- Driving

8. Ocean? Lake?

-- Ocean

9. Think of a wish, but don't write it.

--Answers--

1. If you chose:

Red: You are alert and your life is full of love.

Black : You are conservative and aggressive.

Green: Your soul is relaxed and you are laid back.

Blue: You are spontaneous and love kisses and affection from the ones you love and give good advice to those who are down.

Yellow - You are a very happy person.

2. If you're initial is:

A-K: You have a lot of love and friendships in your life.

L-R: You try to enjoy your life to the maximum & your love life is soon to blossom.

S-Z: You like to help others and your future love life looks very good.

3. If you were born in:

Jan-Mar: The year will go very well for you and you will discover that you fall in love with someone totally unexpected.

April-June: You will have a strong love relationship that will last forever. :]

July-Sept: You will have a great year and will experience a major life-changing experience for the good.

Oct-Dec: Your love life will be great, and eventually you will find your soul mate.

4. If you chose:

Black: Your life will take you on a different direction, it will seem hard at times but will be the best thing for you, and you will be glad for the change.

White: You will have a friend who completely confides in you and would do anything for you, but you may not realize it.

5. This person is your best friend.

6. If it is

1-50 you are a very lovable person and you have a great life

More then 50 is nothing

7. If you chose:

Flying - You like adventure.

Driving - You are a laid back person.

8. If you chose:

Lake - You are loyal to your friends, your lover, and yourself. You are very reserved and not emotional.

Ocean - You are spontaneous and like to please people sometimes.

9. This wish will come true only if you repost this with the title:

emotions test, dont you dare cheat

When Love And Hate Collide

When Love and Hate Collide. T.T

"You could have a change of heart
If you would only change your mind
Instead of slamming down the phone, girl
For the hundredth time "

This verse is pretty obvious: They had a fight, maybe even split up, and she's still so angry that she refuses to talk to him, only hangs up on him. He says that if she'd just change her mind about talking to him, she could have a change of heart about getting back together.

"I got your number on my wall
But I ain't gonna make that call "

He's getting tired of phoning only to have her "slam down" the phone, and his pride is preventing him from keeping on trying.

"When divided we stand, baby
United we fall "

One of the most profound lines Def Leppard ever wrote. When you are in a relationship and you are not pulling the weight together (in other words, you are "standing divided"), then the relationship can't work out, and the two of you won't succeed as a couple ("united we fall").

"Got the time, got a chance, gonna make it
Got my hands on your heart, gonna take it
All I know, I can't fight this flame "

He's saying that he knows she loves him, he has this opportunity to make this relationship work out with her, and he's going to do his best to make it work, because his feelings are so strong, he can't forget about her.

"You could have a change of heart
If you would only change your mind
Cause I'm crazy 'bout you baby
Time after time "

If she'd just change her mind and start talking/listening to him, he could convince her to give the relationship another chance, because no matter how much they fight, or how many times they break up, or how bad it gets, he's still crazy about her.

Without you
One night alone
Is like a year without you baby
Do you have a heart of stone?
"Without you
Can't stop the hurt inside
When love and hate collide "

The first 3 lines are obvious. Then he says that when they're apart or split up, all those feelings of anger and frustration and love and joy and longing hurt too much, but when he's with her, he can bear it. That's why "without you (I) can't stop the hurt inside".

"I don't wanna fight no more
I don't know what we're fighting for
When we treat each other, baby
Like an act of war"

He's tired of fighting with her, and he can't even see the point of arguing when all they do is hurt each other without achieving anything.

"I could tell a million lies
And it would come as no surprise
When the truth is like a stranger
Hits you right between the eyes "

This one is always a bit tricky for me, and I'd like some input. I think he's saying that no matter how many times he lies, he's not surprised, but the truth (that he does love her, and wants to make it work) comes as a huge surprise.

He's lied to her so many times now that it doesn't surprise her anymore, in fact she's actually surprised when he tells the truth. And even though he knows he deserves her distrust, it still feels like he's being hit between the eyes every time she expresses it.

"There's a time and a place and a reason
And I know I got a love to believe in
All I know
Got to win this time "

Same as the previous bridge. They have something special, and they have this opportunity to really find true love in each other, and he really wants it to work.

--Lilandra and achoryzentwo
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Your change of heart turns my love for you into hate... still it hurts to hate you as much as it hurts to love you... I feel like a prisoner locked in this misery since I know you... knowing I meant nothing to you... I'm hurt because I can't shake from this love I have for you... - tigress

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