Can I ask Google if you love me?

You left me just when I needed you most. T_T

It's funny how people seems to be so distant when you needed them the most. It's like when you were in your happiest days, they're all present, and to think they have promised you that they'll be on your side no matter what. But then here comes the day when you feel so empty and lonely, and  you can count on anyone but yourself. I hate every person who promised me that they will be with me especially in bad times. Where are they now? Why can't I see at least a shadow of them at my back? I need someone with me now, and no one is present. That's so fair. If I only have a choice I would really choose to kill myself, than being slowly killed by the pains that other people who I used to care about has caused me. I really hate everything now. I hate every people I remember and I hate myself too.