MORE OF A HELL.

S.T.U.P.I.D

... but the most painful as well :'(

i love you haters

‎"Never ever make your girl demand for every thing you are supposed to do. Its like making her feel she doesn't deserve your care."

True enough. It's never my character to force someone to do something for me, especially if that thing is what they are supposed to do. But then, I insisted that he must promise to offer me 2 days and 2 consecutive Sundays so we will be together. I know I was so wrong. Believe me, I don't really want to do it. I swear. I just want him to feel that he must do something for me. 

Next week would be our monthsary, and you know what? He told me he'd text me if he will be able to meet me up next week. HE HAS TOTALLY FORGOTTEN OUR SPECIAL DAY, even though just last week, we've talked about it and he said he's always been thinking about it. It was sad, and it hurts me too much. So I have no choice but to make him remember today his promise of 2 days even if he has more important things to do. Well, I don't really mean it. I would only want to see him react. Of course, as expected, he was very disappointed and he just answer me with his unwilling "yes". No I love yous, and he doesn't even tell he's excited and happy for that day (after I told him I have no classes that day). :/

Though he swear again he'd meet me up and we'll be together, I won't do it. I know he will not be happy with me. I'd just stick with this until Thursday or early on Friday next week, and then I will tell him to do what he really want to do ... even if it would kill me inside.