I thought I did accepted it, but I was so wrong. I wish I could admit to myself that you ... you are now just a part of my yesterday, a past that cannot be changed, never forgotten and erased. It hurts whenever I tell that fact to myself. I cannot ACCEPT it, and that's my biggest problem. And now, I'm hurt. Only a brain damage might help me right now .... so I could never ever think of you anymore. I wish ... I really wish that you and our memories would be deleted in my mind ..forever. Wish I could, wish I might. 

Exhausted. :/

I don't know exactly why I feel this way. But thank God, He answered my prayers right away. 

Is this really is it? 

That wishing for both of our good would result to a pain that only my blades can stop hitting inside my heart??