a matter of no choice.

A while ago, I was thinking about not getting married when I grew older. Not because I have Gamophobia (see photo below), but because ... I don't feel like living with someone (else) and leaving my family (parents) behind. I'm not bitter, I just don't see myself into it. Anyway, as the saying goes, we should not talk as if there's no tomorrow, for we might swallow it in the end. 

I was just ... day dreaming, ok?! I'm wondering if I'd ever get married. When I imagine myself with someone (else), ... I feel disgusted with myself. haha!

If ever I weren't be married (God, I want to be married. Please.) I would still want to have a child. I want to be like that of the movie The Backup Plan. But I won't do it scientifically .. I want it naturally. :) It's a sin ... I know. So I am not really allowed to be unmarried because of that. LOL

I'm now in my twenties ...and sooner .... maybe five to eight years from now ... I will be someone's mate. I'm not rushing things though. I'm enjoying my life right now, being single and I pray that I will remain the same until such years (5-8). I hope that when the time comes that I will be meeting the man of my life, he's the one and no one else. ....

For now, I'd be living my single life to it's fullest! :D

Sooo excited! :D 9 months to go!!!! :)))))

RESEARCH. ♥ more patience!

Good morning! :0

I remember when you told me that I should always eat especially when I'm with you. At first, I was hesitant because I fear that when I get fat, you'll not love me anymore. But you were so persistent and you love eating as much as I do. You like it when I bring you food, and I love it when you bring me some too. You told me I'm getting heavier. I was hurt but you tried to calm me down. You lift me up and told me that no matter how much weight I gain, you'll still be able to carry me around... and you did. You even told me that you're loving me more than anything. That made me love you more than you love me, Ga. 

I guess I will never be able to forget you and not think about you for a day. Everything reminds me of you .... even the food that I eat each day. And you know what? Those are the sweetest things that I never wish to throw away and regret.... because those are the things that taught me how to love wholeheartedly. 

I miss you more each day, Ga. ..... 

It's raining outside .. and all it pours on me are memories of us ....