I may not have him as my date on Valentine's day but it doesn't make me sad at all. First, I don't have any memories with him during Heart's day. Second, God is really good because He doesn't allow me to be lonesome for that very special day ....

I was offered a DATE, and it would really be a great one for sure.

But then, I'm still thinking about it ... 

On February 14 to 16, our school will be having our retreat at Silang, Cavite. 3 days, all for God. Isn't that great?! I may not have the man I want to be with me that day, but God had willingly offered Himself to be with me for 3 days! 

This makes it clear that I was given a special invitation by God (it's how it appears to me) to spend that special day not alone. I don't have to think that I am not complete because God fills the emptiness I feel! 

But as I have said earlier, I'm thinking twice about it. I am considering the fact that I WILL HAVE NO COMPANION .... because I DON'T HAVE ANY FRIENDS AT SCHOOL. But I think it shouldn't be a consideration, because I will be there not for them but for God and me! It's my opportunity to reestablish my relationship with Him! And I do believe that God won't make me feel alone there. And besides, I really really want to join that retreat. :)

So .. I guess I'd really be going. I'd surely post here positive feed backs about what will happen there. :) please pray for me.. 

My daughter. ♥ I'd really want her to be this cute. :))) That's why I chose my GA to be her father ....

Yes, I will.

~i miss those silly days.

There's nothing we can hide.

Requirement #92 - My 100 Ideal Man List

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Pero bakit parang lahat ay nalilito pa rin
Ano bang mga problema nyo?
Dahil ba ang mga kilos ko'y iba, 
Sa dapat makita ng inyong mata

~sirena. gloc9

I've always thought about that.
Children.
They were the most fortunate and I was so envious of them.
How I wish I stay as pure and as innocent as them.
They have no other serious problems.
Only physical hurt is what they mostly endure.
They don't think about being left behind, being dumped, being hurt by someone else.
They play and that's what makes them happy.
Childhood.
It's something a man doesn't have to rush for sure.
And something .. something I miss most. 

Don't say goodbye, say good night .... ~

Have you ever experienced that one day when someone starts ignoring you and then all of a sudden, you'll know from other people that they hate you and you have absolutely no idea what have you done to them? 

I always experience that in our school. That's why I hate people so much there.

In our school, one good thing is because we are not as many as the other universities were, people feel they are all close to each other even if not. Not with the talking and companionship thing. It's more on ... they feel too connected to each other, to the very point that they forget what privacy is. 

Like, they were too used to borrowing your phone, and then read the whole stuff there. Not only that, but a lot of worse attitude are all there. But the worst of all those worse is that when they hate you. First, they are fond of hating you for no apparent reason. Or let's just say, they are too shy to admit the insecurities that crawls all over their bodies. Yes, I know I sound beastly now, but then, what else do I have to think? Someone would hate you, ignore you for no reason. Wow, that's great. 

And what's so bad about it? You didn't know that they were all sympathizing with that one bitch because she have made alliances by spreading the news that it's you ... yeah ... the one who doesn't have an idea ... who is actually making bad things to her. That was such a brilliant idea. Your classmates, and also those who are in different classes would start staring at you like you were a prisoner who just stepped out of the cell and they will let you hear indirect things that are actually directed to you. You are a loser if you keep quiet, but I tell you... it's better to appear weak than stoop down on their level. Huh!

Can't people just tell it to your face?! It's more painful to hear it from all over the campus than that one person who hates you. But then, what do I expect?! They all want to destroy you and hurt you. Thank you guys, but weren't successful. 

Each day, I always stumble on situations I wish you were there with me. I know you would like it too. I know that if you had the chance, you'd spend time with me. But then, at the end of the day, I have to accept the fact that it won't happen again ... or maybe, not now. I'm still positive that one day, though our love would not be like before, we'd still have the chance to roam around and go to places we wish we were before. It will happen. You're not too bad, I know that. I'll wait for that moment. Surely I will. 

You, and your memories. They make me smile though you're not here. Sometimes they hurt, but most of the time, they remind me that for once in my life, I have been the happiest girl alive.