God is soooooooooo goood to me! I just fulfilled one of my greatest dreams this morning.

I remembered one night, while I was browsing my news feed in Facebook, I saw pictures of my former classmates in Muntinlupa (AB Mass Communication Students) in radio. And then I started congratulating a friend of mine whose one of them. Then on other days I start hearing them on their internet radio program and I was just so happy about them. 

On the other hand, I was saddened a bit. I even told my younger sister that if I haven't transferred in another school, I would probably be one of them :( I didn't regret transferring and changing my course, but I really like writing and the media. I thought my dream were all washed away after I chose AB Evangelization over my ever loved course, Mass Communication / Journalism.

But then ,... I was wrong! ... a miracle happened! We were scheduled to experience the radio and just this morning ... I did it! In an AM radio, speaking about how good is God! Isn't that great?!

God is really good. He may have delayed my dream a bit, but He used it for a more worth it thing. I thought He doesn't want me to do it, but He has plans greater than what I have. There is nothing more fulfilling than having your dream done while doing something that glorifies God! I can't explain into words what I really feel and what I really want to say now. I was soooooo happy. I will never forget this day. 

And other than that, God had given me the best companions this morning. I will not hesitate in putting their names here, to show how glad I am to have them and be with them. They are very nice people and the best. God is so good to me. I am the worst person alive, but He continue to bless me with the best things, best people and best situations. :)

Thanks to you, I've learned a lot and I really had a great day with you .... 

Kia Mapa

Bro. Resty Talain

Bro. Noel Abuda

Most of all, THANK YOU SO MUCH LORD

for the wisdom and courage and guidance

though I did not made it perfectly, but I did it wholeheartedly for YOU. ♥

I'd definitely miss studying. :/

It's already half of February, and March is fast approaching. The school year ends and the new would start on June .... and the next thing I know ... I am free from school!

I myself know how much I hate school, not the building and the lessons, but the people in there. I don't think I would even miss them (like how I felt with the people from my previous college, I'm sorry). But I would absolutely miss writing, listening and other stuff that's only done at school. I will miss being a student so much! I only have one year left and the life I used to have would throw me into the life I'm supposed to have. I get a bit nervous thinking about it, but then, we cannot do anything but face what's inevitable.

I don't have plans yet (which is sooooo me), but I'd like of course,  to have a job and earn money. I'd really want to buy a condo unit (Lord, please grant this to me). If I can (I know I can, because God is with me!), I would continue studying (I don't know which course yet). Getting married is way too far from my mind right now, and loving someone too bad is my advantage for it. It would make me set aside love life for a while (which is good for me) and make me focus on building my own life. 

I know that life after school would not be very easy, but God is there... He is my provider and my strength. With Him on my side, everything is possible and I can do anything, all for His glory! :))) 

I ate at Jolibee, rode a bus and passed through memorable places today. And you know what? I felt sadness crush me from the inside. Not the one that destroys .. but something you feel about good memories that you actually wish you would see happening again. Yes, it's more like a frustration thing ... but it is best described as reminiscing. 

Well ... it was a bit unfair on my side. I was the one exposed to every single memories we had before .. which makes it hard for me to set aside what I feel for him. I may have finally moved on with the hurt, but each day, I'm struggling with those memories and the love I still have for him. How will I ever get over this, if each day I see what used to be us? And that was his advantage. Being away (from my memories) and closer (to her) makes him forget me easily ... 

Anyway, I don't wish to forget him on the other hand. He'd played a great part in my life ... he actually have marked a year in my life as his own. I don't feel bad anymore, though those moments I remember just proves me every time that the love I felt would never be able to be washed away unless I had a tragic incident which will force my brain to delete everything. 

places i want to be with YOU before i die. :) #97