I am really expecting a text message from him. I mean, yeah, I may appear desperate but I am really waiting for it. My mind keeps on telling me the whole day that I am just wasting my time expecting nothing .. and that deep inside I know he won't even remember me ..but I really just can't deny the fact that ... that .. that .. I .. miss him and I am constantly thinking about him.
Rains, storms, strong winds, reports about these things makes me remember him. I worry so much how was he, if has he arrived home safe. I wonder if he has brought with him an umbrella, or if he is now suffering from severe cold inside the air conditioned bus because he was wet. Oh well, I am really insane. I hate myself so much. I am such a fool to be like this. I really hate myself. !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
After this insanity, I end up realizing that I am such a big fool. That person doesn't even think about me, like what he had said before, he even hasn't remember me if nothing comes through his way that will remind him of me. He's so bad! How could I like a person like him who doesn't even care if I exist. AHHHH!!!!
I think what I should do is I'll just have to sleep and forget about these things. Yes, this is the best idea. I hope when I wake up, I won't remember anything.
It's better to have amnesia than to be hurt by constantly reminiscing the past that I can never ever bring back. :l
