Ganito ako bukas! hahahaha! Kaya matutulog na ako. Gusto ko mang magpost pa ng marami .. kaso gusto ko rin namang makarami ng tulog. Ayoko ng matulog sa school .. ang hirap .. sakit kaya sa likod. Pero buti na lang maaga ang uwi bukas .. makakapagpahinga pa ako. Ayoko na nga pumasok sa school e .. kung mayaman lang ako .. mas trip ko pa mag-homeschool. hahai. Pero ganito talaga ang buhay. Tiis tiis din. Sa totoo lang hindi naman yung academics at lessons ang ayaw ko sa school e. Yung mga tao dun. Yun lang naman. Mas ok pa sigurong mag-self study kesa ganun .. may klase tapos andami. Pero ganun talaga .. hindi naman dapat lagi na lang mag-isa ako .. kahit na sa ganito ako nasanay.

So ayun nga .. magpapaalam lang naman talaga ako. Matutulog na ko .. late na rin. Kaso di pa ko antok .. pero dapat kong pilitin. Ayokong magmukhang ewan bukas sa jeep. hahahaha! Good night! :) ♥

My dream bed. Astig no?! Kama na, duyan pa. Gusto ko talaga nito!!!! Pag mayaman na ko bibili talaga ako nito. Kasi .. ako yung tipo ng taong hindi nakakatulog sa kama o upuan (except na lang pag antok na antok na talaga) ... pero nakakatulog ako sa jeep, o kung saang bagay na gumagalaw. Gusto ko yung nagalaw ako ... yung dinuduyan .. parang ganun ang feeling. Mas mabilis akong makakatulog sa ganung paraan. hahaha! Siguro kasi sa 'hilo effect'. LOL

Tapos isa pa .. parang exciting lang tong kamang to. Kunwari may asawa na ko tapos ganito kama namin.. tapos magmamahalan kami .. astig no?! Dinuduyan kami. Tapos pag malikot kami .. galaw ng galaw yung kama .. hahaha! astig lang talaga. Gusto ko talaga to.!!!!!

As always.

one day, three autumns. --- > I MISS YOU. :)))

True, Loyal and Honest Friend. .. ako?! hahaha!

Natutuwa ako pag nagseselos ang lalaki. Ang cute lang. Pero syempre pag yung lalaki nagseselos tapos nananakit .. ibang usapan na yun. Yung pang mag-syota na selosan lang. Astig! Basta ang cute. Kikiligin ka .. hahaha! Muntanga lang e. 

Sa babae .. pag nagselos?! Ewan ko .. ganun nga ba talaga?? Di naman kasi ako ganun kaselosa .. pero oo .. medyo bayolente ako pag nagseselos. hahaha! Hindi naman ako nananakit physically, sinasabi ko lang .. like, "sige lapit pa, pag-untugin ko kayong dalawa e" o kaya, "wag kang sasandal sa kanya .. sapak aabutin mo sakin". Mga ganun. hahaha! Pero di naman ako nagger. Thank God. :)) 

Amazing!

COVER THE LINE IN THE MIDDLE THAT SEPARATES THE TWO COLORS USING YOUR FINGER AND SEE WHAT HAPPENS ... :)

Ako ulit. Ano ba ... why so guilty?! Hmpft! XD

Ako nanaman o. hahahaha!

       Gusto ko to. Hindi naman ako nangangarap ng bonggang mga kung anu-ano pag ikakasal na no .. pero gusto ko lang, if ever, na makaranas ng isang marriage proposal at maging engaged. Yung hindi kasal agad o sama agad. Sana no?! Sana talaga. Yun lang naman e .. sana magawa ko. Sana hindi ako ma-excite masyado sa pag-aasawa. Hahahahaha! At sana .. ma-engage ako sa lalaking .... ok na .. yung siya na talaga. ♥

Mga STRAW baga.

        Asar ako sa mga ganito. Mula pa noong Elementary at lalong lalo na noong High School, kontrang kontra ako dyan. Muntik na kong di maka-graduate noon dahil sa pakikibaka ko sa 'fairness and justice' na kailan man, ngayon ko lang napagtanto .. ay di nag-exist sa mundo. Lalo na ngayon sa kolehiyong pinasukan ko ... kung saan .. hindi ko inaasahang mismong kasa-kasama ko pa sa araw-araw ang ganito. Ang hirap kumilos. Parang medyo nabahiran ng kung ano ang pagsasama namin. Naiilang na ako. Pero ayoko namang masira ang pagkakaibigan namin dahil sa ganito. Sabi niya nga, hindi naman niya kagustuhan yon ... naipit lang siya, kapit sa patalim. Kapag daw dumating ang araw na malalagay ako sa parehong sitwasyon, malamang gagawin ko rin iyon. Natatakot ako. Natatakot akong dumating ang araw na iyon. Paano nga kung kailangan ng ganun? Pero naisip ko naman .. noong high school nga ako .. nakataya ang pag-martsa ko ng may karangalan sa ipinaglalaban ko ... pero pinagpatuloy ko pa rin. Kaso ngayon, mas seryosong bagay ang nakataya e ... yung kapasidad na mapag-aral ako. Kung mawawala ang 'scholarship' na inaasahan ko, hindi ko alam kung saan ako pupulutin. Baka nga mag-asawa na lang ako. Pero naisip ko ... hindi naman kailangang umabot ako sa ganun. Mag-aaral ako ng mabuti .. at patutunayan kong hindi ko kailangang tumulad sa iba .. na kailangang ibenta ang konsensya para sa kakarangkot na halaga ng numero. Sa ngayon, hindi na ako ganun kagalit .. hindi tulad dati na talagang wala akong sini-sino .. kaibigan man kita o hindi, basta ganyan ka .. galit ako sayo. Ngayon, kontrolado ko na. Iniiyak ko lang ng isang gabi, ok na ko. Naintindihan ko na ang malaking pangangailangan ng mga taong ganito .. pero hindi ibig sabihin nito ay ayos na sakin ang kalakarang ito. Kung sana .. kung pwede lang pigilan ..gagawin ko. Pero hindi e. Ito ang isa sa mga realidad ng mundo. Ito ang totoo. Hindi ko ito mababago .. pero kaya kong hindi na paramihin pa ang mga taong ganito kung mismong ako ay iiwasan ito. At least, kahit ako lang .. kabawasan na sa lumulobong populasyon ng mga taong 'straw'. Ang yabang ko no?! Akala napakalinis kong tao. Ipinapahayag ko lang ang saloobin ko sa isang paniniwala ko na natatakot akong bitiwan pagdating ng araw. Sana ... hindi dumating ang araw na iyon. Hindi ko hahayaan. Ayokong masayang ang pinaglaban ko noon.

♥♥♥

I may not get to see you as often as I like. I may not get to hold you in my arms all through the night. But deep in my heart I truly know, you're the one that I love, and I can't let you go.

I'd have a good sleep ... :) I will sleep with a happy ♥ .. I wish every night's like this. :))))

There are times when I really like to talk with some people but then I hesitate. I just feel like when I text them or called them or talked with them in person, it will make them angry. I am afraid I will only disturb them. I feel like I annoy them. So most of the time, I wait for them to contact me first, which, I know is not fair and good. Well, I think I have to learn how to change my mindset .. :)

I don't have a boyfriend, who cares?! I have you in my life, that's enough.

A while ago .. I have written a prayer request. .. and you know what?! I have written there ... "Lord, ayoko po munang magka-boyfriend, basta wag niyo lang muna siyang aalisin sa buhay ko ngayon ... ". hahahaha! 

Before, I always include in my prayer that I want to have a boyfriend as soon as possible. At first, I just want to have one .. but then as time passed by .. I want it so that I could forget the one that I love. But now, I don't want to have one anymore. I just want this 'someone' to stay in my life longer ... or .. maybe .. forever. This person isn't really the one I like but ... I that 'someone' is just so special that I want to live the rest of the chapters of my life with that person included in the characters.

I am very thankful to God that I have met that person. Maybe I couldn't have this person always with me (of course, I can't bring anyone with me always like a toy) but I pray that that person may be my friend until my last breath. No kidding. I am happy being single so long as that person would stay in my life.

A day well spent

I just had a great day with my former classmate, Christine. I wasn't really planning to meet her today ... I was actually thinking about how will I tell her I can't make it. But then, everything around made it possible. We've met at 3PM in National Bookstore. Still, I saw the same girl I have been with 2 years ago. Yeah, it's been two years since we've last talked .. but it was like we haven't been too far from each other when I saw her .. it was still the same as the old days.

We went to the food court, and there, she shared a lot about her experiences, her problems and as well as her happy moments, especially with her boyfriend. She's expecting me to tell something, like the old days, when I used to react on every word that she utter .. but this time, I am just quiet and I just laugh at her. She asked me if it's because of the course I am taking, which is, AB Evangelization .. that I have to be careful with my words. It's not like that, really. It's just that I don't want to interrupt her ... she looks really cute when she talks non stop. hahaha!

Then, we went to National Bookstore where she bought some things and then we proceed to the ever favorite, McDonalds. We continued our conversation there. We've talked about our high school mates. She told me that I've shared a lot about everyone except myself. ... but then .. she knows me, I never shared anything with everyone a lot.

Hmm .. then we went to upstairs, to the movies. She wants to watch a film, but I don't want to .. it's getting late and I have to go to Amvel. And besides, there are no good movies available. hahaha!

Then after that, we went to the food court again and continued our conversation. We ended up at 8PM. I'm touched when we are about to ride on the jeepney. Because we are going to take different routes, we have to be in separate jeepneys. She asked me where will I ride, and then when I told her, she said that she will go with me and just take another jeepney at the market where she will drop off. We seated at the front seat. Well, I know I shouldn't be touched. I am such an assuming girl. Maybe she rode the same jeepney with me because she really have to go to the market or for any other reason. No one would ever like to be with me longer. I know.

Well, it was such a nice day. I'd really want to stay longer. Ah, I miss her .. so much! It's been so long since I've talked with somebody like her. She's different. She's not like others who wouldn't care to listen. She may talk a lot, but she listens a lot too. I love her so much. I was so fortunate to have her as my friend (I hope she consider me as her friend). :)

My ever favorite cartoon. ♥