Friends are real. They exist.

Naiiyak ako. Kasi naman tong si Rox .. ayun .. bigla ba naman akong chinat sa facebook .. sabi ba naman .. "Kamusta? mis you! muah .. ! lab u! " O diba? sino ba namang di maiiyak?? Feeling ko tuloy mamamatay na talaga ako .. kasi nagpaparamdam na yung mga kaibigan ko tapos ayun. Ayun na nga. Para bang miss na miss nga nila ako. Pero nakaka-touch ah. Kasi naman diba ... wala lang. Sakto kasi .. sa mga panahong nag-eemote ako .. dun pa .. dun pa sila magsasabi ng ganyan .. nakakaiyak talaga .. Nakakaiyak isipin na kahit na maraming tao ang gusto na kong patayin dahil sa mga sinasabi nilang di magagandang bagay .. mayroon pa rin akong mga kaibigang nagpapaalala sakin na marami man silang galit sa kin .. mahal naman nila ako .. :)

The reason behind my tears ..

Yeah. I know right?!

Memory Lane

Have you remembered a time when you happen to be in a place and then suddenly remembering that memory you have buried a long time ago? It sucks isn't it. Yeah .. well, it happens. It always happens.

My current school for me is one of the best place to describe this. I have this old friend (yeah, he's old. literally) that has been my classmate for a semester. We've been .. a .. I don't know if we're good friends but .. at least we're friends. LOL. And well, now that we're not close anymore (how sad) .. I have to forget everything that happened before. But because as I have said on my other post, I am so attached to those I call my friends. So whenever I came to cross on places somewhere in our school .. even a chair .. reminds me of him. It really sucks. I never liked the feeling of missing someone .. knowing the fact that they never ever miss you back. But well .. 'memory lanes' are still good things .. it's sad but .. at least they remind you that something, somewhere, somehow, for quite sometime .. a good and a happy memory happened.

Are we FRIENDS?? Sure??

I have lots of companions and acquaintances .. but not friends. Most of the time, people misunderstood me. Like, one friend of mine told me that he is confused with the girls I'm always with in school because I always tell him that we quarrel and they're not my friends. He told me that we're always together so we're all friends, but I insisted that we're not. 

When I was younger, I have always been open for everyone .. even someone I have only chatted with for a while, I call her a friend. But one time, I have this one classmate whom I have always been with everyday .. we shared everything .. and so I have actually coined her as my best friend. Then one day, she confronted me .. really .. and told me that we're not friends and I am so stupid that I didn't know that. it made me feel so sad that I came to promise myself that I will choose very carefully those people that I will call my friends. 

So now, I still live with this promise .. and I don't regret it. As time goes by .. I realize that I really have to sort out my friends. But ironically, I often meet people now who easily call me their friends and it bothers me. I become shocked when I hear words like, "We're friends right?" .. I don't know how to respond especially when that person has never been in my list. Well, when this happens, I often say .. "Ah.. " and then, I smile.

Well, even if I sort out friends or not, I still haven't found the perfect and true one. I mean, yeah, no one's perfect, but at least I wish I could have a friend like that on the movies who are very supportive, always ready to talk and listen .. ah .. how I wish. But I have those people whom I call my friends .. not too many .. just enough to make me hurt. But even if they hurt me and I do as well, I love them.. because they are my friends.

Only one problem with me is that when I finally called someone my friend, I attach myself to him so much that when he or she leaves me, it's as if I had someone who died. Really. I care so much for those I call my friends .. but I don't know if they feel the same way too. But I really admit .. I'm really having a hard time to call someone my friend, but when I do .. of course I inform them and I make sure they agree because if not .. then it all ends there.

So when people ask me .. "Are you friends? or What relationship do you have?" I simply answer them according to the hierarchy. LOL.

-chat mate

-acquaintance

-classmate/schoolmate/neighborhood

-friend

-best friend/boyfriend

-family

There it goes! haha!

Eto pa o !!! Love it !! :D

Love it! :))

Isn't it ironic?

Alam mo ba yun ?? :D

Ako .. di kita napapanaginipan .. naiisip kita lagi.

Naalala ko nung isang day before na sabi niya napapanaginipan niya daw ako. Super kinilabutan ako nun .. hahahaha! Nasa kusina pa nga ako nun e .. tapos nung sinabi niya yun natigilan ako. Tapos naalala ko rin ngayon yung gabing sinabi niya .. syempre di same date to .. matagal na after yung first incident .. nung sinabi niya na di na niya ko napapanaginipan. Ahay ...

I MATTER!

Pain in my ♥

Here I am alone in this empty room,
And let my mind just fly you to the end.
Thoughts of you still linger in my memory
Wondering why my life is not that fair.

I could still recall, those memories of you,
The joy and all your laughter,
The love that we've been through.
Oh I can't believe, you're gone...

I don't want to remember,
The things we used to do,
All the things that remind me of you.
I don't want to hear those songs,
Those songs we used to sing,
'Cause I don't wanna feel the pain in my heart

Talkin' to my self, for reasons I can't find.
Findin' out why everything went wrong.
Tears fallin' down on my cheeks,
That I've been tryin' to hold.
I just dunno if I could still go on.

I wanted you to stay,
The tears began to show,
You said you care for me,
But then you have to go
And now I know, you're gone.

I don't want to remember,
The things we used to do,
All the things that remind me of you.
I don't want to hear those songs,
Those songs we used to sing,
'Cause I don't wanna feel the pain in my heart

(Instrumental)

I just can't believe, you're gone...

I don't want to remember,
The things we used to do,
All the things that remind me of you.
I don't want to hear those songs,
Those songs we used to sing,
'Cause I don't wanna feel the pain in my heart,

And I don't want to remember,
The things we used to do,
All the things that remind me of you.
I don't want to hear those songs,
Those songs we used to sing,
'Cause I don't wanna feel the pain in my heart

Leaving Yesterday Behind - Keno

Since you left me, I never really tried
To put my life to where it should belong
And I've always let the past gone by
I'm realizing that it could be wrong

But now I fin'lly knew
I had to let it go
To make way for a brighter tomorrow

So now I'm leavin' yesterday behind
And fin'lly I've made up my mind
So let the mem'ries stay away
And think about today
I'm leavin' yesterday behind
'Cause now I'll try to live my life once more
The way I did before

Since I know that I never will forget
The memories that made my yesterday
I will try not to let it interfere
The choices I will make along the way

'Cause I'm not livin' in a world of fantasy
I'm here now in the world of reality

So now I'm leavin' yesterday behind
And fin'lly I've made up my mind
So let the mem'ries stay away
And think about today
I'm leavin' yesterday behind
'Cause now I'll try to live my life once more
The way I did before

So now I'm leavin' yesterday behind
And fin'lly I've made up my mind
So let the mem'ries stay away
And think about today
I'm leavin' yesterday behind
'Cause now I'll try to live my life once more
Just the way I did before

I miss you ..

:'( Yeah .. I always miss those people I had with me before .. But I do not agree that it's a proof that I am a good person. I actually had hurt them that's why they left me .. and .. even if I care for them so much still after them hurting me back, it's non sense.

Lord, I Offer My Life To You ...

Are you gonna wait for me???

So sweet. How I wish I have a friend like Patrick or Spongebob. This is what I like most in this cartoon... the value of friendship and good actions towards other people .. even if they are hurting you. Hay ...

Nice, Gary! XDDDDD

The Ideal BF

Wow .. perfectly and very well said. hahahaha! Ideal BF. Wala naman ako nun .. kasi naman kung magseset ako ng standards tulad nito .. mahuhurt lang ako pag di ko nakuha. Pero well nung nabasa ko to .. kind of .. nag-agree ako .. astig e .. except for number one .. papalitan ko .. Someone who won't mind if I don't eat too much. hahahaha! Meron kayang ganito? Friend nga na ganito wala e .. BF pa kaya. hai ...

Happy Birthday Mama Mary !!!!