"Don't feel sad over someone who gave up on you, feel sorry for them because they gave up on someone who would have never given up on them."
I've just read this striking message from Twitter.Tonight, I don't know what I feel. I have this one person, who is a member of my team, who happened to be close to me. We were always communicating with each other just like how sisters by blood do. We share things, and we actually see to it that in any occasion, we have the same type or color of dress, same pair of shoes, and even exactly the same bags. We've been through difficult times, of course.
Just this afternoon, her mother approached me, asking me where her daughter is. To cut the nonsense story short, she instructed me to text her dear daughter, and ask her where she is last night. Concerned, I texted her, and I told her to be responsible enough especially in informing her mother where she's going because she's obviously worried. To my surprise, this person replied angrily. I was so shocked, and for humanly reasons, I started to get angry too. Fortunately, I was still on my right mind for choosing not to reply on her stupid messages, but sadly, I wasn't able to control my emotions until I have nothing to do but cry and spit out foul words as my means of expressing my anger. After crying a river, I was able to compose myself again, and I am ok. Ok, which means like there's nothing happened. Now, I could say with all honesty that I don't feel bad anymore.
What happened has taught me many lessons. After she told me, out of her anger I guess, that she doesn't like to be around me anymore, is something I will never forget and I think talking about it will not help change my mind. Yes, I'm ok, but it doesn't mean I will just forget everything. This will serve as a reminder to me that I should never ever trust anyone, and that I should not establish deep relationships with anyone so that when they leave me behind, I will not feel that bad. Good thing, I haven't considered her as my friend yet, though I was at the brink of telling myself she is. Good thing, I was left by a dear friend before, and I've been through the hurt of losing someone I'm so used to being with, because I was able to just brush the dust off my shoulder like nothing happened. Good thing, I can easily recover.
Before the night ended, I received another text message from her. She told me she doesn't want us to be like this (because we work in the same team, and maybe she thought it would be hard to be with someone you don't feel good with), and that she wants us to talk about it tomorrow. I don't know if she wants to reconcile with me, or she just want to talk to straighten up things so that it will not be too awkward to work together. Whatever her purpose is, I won't forget this. I'm not sad, because I had already experienced being left behind, and I'm not afraid of being alone again, because I've been through it. I'll just have to remember that when we meet in work, I have to be professional enough not to let this personal issue affect our duties, and that I'll have to be kind still, after everything she had said.
