It's what I'm trying to preserve. Other than that, none.

:/

Totoo yan teh! Magising ka sa katotohanan! Wag tanga!

Dear Lord,

I'm so sorry for being such a stubborn child of yours. I've been blinded by the feeling I had with that person, but now, my eyes are open. I saw everything and I pity myself for being such a loser. Lord, may you continually help me get through this. It's so painful but I know that what you are doing is for my own good. Lord, be my strength so that I will soon fully overcome this misery. And Lord, I pray for someone whom I deserve more. Someone who would not let me shed a tear because I'm hurt by his actions but rather, because of too much happiness I could not handle anymore. I pray that you will put my heart on someone's good and caring heart. Someone who would love me more than the love I deserve. And Lord, I pray that this man would come as soon as possible. Someone who would heal my heart. A child of yours that abides in your will oh Lord. 

This I pray in the mighty name of Jesus Christ. Amen. 

I don't miss him today, and I guess it was a good thing. I can feel that I'm already moving on. I'll just have to wait for another week, and everything will be alright. I will soon be busy with my studies and I swear, I will focus on my lessons more. I don't have to waste my time on people who consider me as a waste of their time. Damn them! Damn you for hurting me! 

so .. I guess my part in your story is already over. :)))

I like :)

No hard feelings. Just happy thoughts. Everything will be alright soon. :D

I don't want to consider it, but I think I have already given up. After all the hurts I've been through, and all the tears I have already shed, the time has come for me to choose between loving him and loving myself. I really never wanted the idea, but yes, people just have to give up sometimes. Not because they are weak, but because they had been strong enough (at last) to let go of the things that bring nothing but heartaches and heartbreaks in their life. 

In my case, giving up on him doesn't mean I'm quitting. Everything will still be fine between us, like how we used to promise each other. We'd still be friends. I know I still love him, but not like how I loved him before. I think that's how I've given up.I don't mean that my love for him is not as strong as before ... I just want to say that I now know the limits I have, from which I have been blinded from earlier.