MORE OF A HELL.

S.T.U.P.I.D

... but the most painful as well :'(

i love you haters

‎"Never ever make your girl demand for every thing you are supposed to do. Its like making her feel she doesn't deserve your care."

True enough. It's never my character to force someone to do something for me, especially if that thing is what they are supposed to do. But then, I insisted that he must promise to offer me 2 days and 2 consecutive Sundays so we will be together. I know I was so wrong. Believe me, I don't really want to do it. I swear. I just want him to feel that he must do something for me. 

Next week would be our monthsary, and you know what? He told me he'd text me if he will be able to meet me up next week. HE HAS TOTALLY FORGOTTEN OUR SPECIAL DAY, even though just last week, we've talked about it and he said he's always been thinking about it. It was sad, and it hurts me too much. So I have no choice but to make him remember today his promise of 2 days even if he has more important things to do. Well, I don't really mean it. I would only want to see him react. Of course, as expected, he was very disappointed and he just answer me with his unwilling "yes". No I love yous, and he doesn't even tell he's excited and happy for that day (after I told him I have no classes that day). :/

Though he swear again he'd meet me up and we'll be together, I won't do it. I know he will not be happy with me. I'd just stick with this until Thursday or early on Friday next week, and then I will tell him to do what he really want to do ... even if it would kill me inside. 

"Someone will really hurt us intentionally and yet we tolerate that person only because OKAY LANG na saktan ka niya at least may connection kayo kahit masakit sayo."
-Papa Jack

“Para sa mga lalaki, be man enough to say na ayaw mo na, hindi yung basta ka na lang hindi magpaparamdam. Isa kasi sa pinakamasakit ay ang umasa na meron pa, yun pala wala na.”
- Papa Jack

Nobody can be happy all the time. Its not healthy to keep your hurt in or your tears. So let them flow. But once they are out wipe them away, put a smile on your face, and walk away from whatever or whoever made you hurt......

I've just called him a while ago, and for 5 minutes, I haven't uttered a single word.

It's because, ... I want to just hear his voice. I missed it so much. It seems like I haven't heard of it a long time ago, though we had talked a couple of hours ago. I've just ... appreciated it more tonight. How I miss him so much. 

I just want to hear his breath. It was so cool. I miss that too. 

I miss everything about him. Really. :'(

Never waste an opportunity to tell someone you love them.

~I've already wasted almost a day by not telling him how much I love him .... because it hurts a lot. :'(

“Nakakainis yung pakiramdam na miss na miss mo na siya. Pero wala kang magawa kundi hintayin siya kung kelan ka niya ulit maaalala.”

Just let go of things that makes you sad and be Happy . 

Headin' somewhere far from you.

"It was so easy for him na mawala ka kasi nga option ka lang niya."

-Papa Jack

This. I want.

My mornings would never be better. I know.

But you wish I'm far away...

Don't bother lying to a girl, she'll find out anyway .. 

Just a few questions.

1. --
2. leo
3. being left behind, having no friends, losing my loved ones
4. my cellphone, my diaries, my Bible
5. good smell, good kiss, sense of humor, good company
6. bad breath, rude attitude and situation mismatch, a broken promise, lies
7. none
8. --
9. my first date with him.  ♥
10. 4 feet and 11 inches
11. hang outs with him. :(
12. 12 noon
13. orange
14. yes
15. life isn't fair but God is good
16. in his arms
17. everything my mom cooks.
18. always. 
19. songs from my sister's cellphone
20. attitude
21. 4 1/2
22. black
23. black
24. none in particular
25. no
26. pink
27. my real name and my message to the one I love
28. none
29. none
30. none
31. relaxed
32. --
33. --
34. very good. :)
35. new year.
36. piercing - each on both ears.
37. none
38. I want a new blog, but I love blogger more. 
39. Chinese Cinderella
40. yes. fortunately.
41. yes.
42. November 9, 2012
43. 1 1/2 hours.
44. yes
45. in front of my computer
46. myself.
47. reasonable level.

It's the best thing I hear right after I open my eyes in the morning

And the only thing I want to hear just before I close my eyes when I go to sleep.

All this, you've deprived me. 

Thank you so much for taking my only happiness. 

Not anymore this semester. I hope.

You say those who commit suicide have lost courage and are coward?

Think again.

It takes a lot of courage to take all this. 

Salute to the 'suiciders'. 

I've never had enough courage to take a pill and end my life, even if I want to.

Another Semester. :/

NGA NAMAN. :/

This .... :'(

XD

Funny but sensible, right? Those who end up as the 'genius' are the ones who committed mistakes, fall through the consequences, get up and finish the obstacle. Then that's when learning takes place. ♥

Naalala ko lang dati, nung nagpapakiramdaman pa lang kami. Nagse-send siya ng 'lab u' tapos pag tinatanong ko kung para san yun, sasabihin niya wrong send. Ang masakit pa dun, yung idudugtong niya na .. " ... para kay ----- yan". Ansakit grabe, pero bawal mag-react syempre. Pero nung tumagal inamin niya rin na para sakin talaga yun. Na natatakot lang siya aminin noon, at ang tanging depensa niya lang kapag di na niya kayang itago ang nararamdaman eh ang sabihing wrong send yun. :)) kilig much. :'*

True enough.

Gossips are just gossips. Better get along with me first and know me before you believe in anything.

Haters gonna Hate

There is a very old issue but still roams around all the corners of my school ... and lately, I've just heard that it even reached provinces too (wow, I'm a celebrity). What a pathetic gossiper and a paparazzi I have at school. What the hell does she really want from me? I mean, I've already stopped communicating, and talking about her just to stop all those shit. But then, I still get news about it. The worst I've heard so far? That a parent from a far away province actually knows about me (take note, she knows my name as well) and that I don't even know whose parent that is and who the hell that student is. I am really enraged upon knowing the stupid news. What right do they have to talk about me? and besides, they don't personally know me, I bet that parent haven't seen me for a single time. And that student who told her mother about it? I don't know yet who she is, but the mother said that her child is a good friend of that stalker I have. Huh, she better keep all her secrets to herself and not blurt it all out to her 'good friend'. It's because that 'good friend' they call is the bitch that used to be my companion before. And now, she's ruining my life and I don't know why. I didn't do anything bad to her, swear. I've been a good acquaintance to her, that's why it's really a big question why is she still talking ill to me until now. I thought everything is ok after we talked about it face to face, but then she didn't stop. I think she wants the whole Philippines to know that bullshit she spreads about me. The moment I've heard of it, I really want to kill her. But then, what's the point of reacting too much? The gossip was not true. It's been a long time, it's actually three years now since she formulated that story and still do not stop. Wow. And until now, she keep on tracking all my activities and my personal life. What a big fan I have, and a hater as well. Well, when I see her at school, I'll just smile at her for sure. That kills her. My smile annoys her too much, maybe because she cannot contain seeing me having the courage to smile at her in spite of all she had been doing towards me. And killing her inside by my sweet smile is better than ever. 

:)

*I'm so sorry for the foul words. 

When you love someone, dont expect them to love you as much as you do. But love them so much that they dont want to be loved by anyone except you. ♥

POOR ME.