Just for tonight, please?

I knew it would happen. I told you. 

Just one time. I just want you to know that until now, it still hurts the same. . but no, I won't grab it if ever this wish would be granted. .. 

You won't even go to my funeral, I'm sure of that. Your fears stops you always. I hate how cowardly you act. That's not how I've known you ... 

Why would I? I would only hurt myself as much as you've hurt me. I loved you so much, I never ever wished to hurt you. 

... because it's hard to take it back as it is... 

That is what's happening right now. My life goes on ... ~~~

I wish I'd hear from you again. For at least once, my dear. ...