LOVE is DIRECTLY PROPORTIONAL to PAIN ~: 11/1/12

23 November 2012

... but the most painful as well :'(

i love you haters

‎"Never ever make your girl demand for every thing you are supposed to do. Its like making her feel she doesn't deserve your care."

True enough. It's never my character to force someone to do something for me, especially if that thing is what they are supposed to do. But then, I insisted that he must promise to offer me 2 days and 2 consecutive Sundays so we will be together. I know I was so wrong. Believe me, I don't really want to do it. I swear. I just want him to feel that he must do something for me.

Next week would be our monthsary, and you know what? He told me he'd text me if he will be able to meet me up next week. HE HAS TOTALLY FORGOTTEN OUR SPECIAL DAY, even though just last week, we've talked about it and he said he's always been thinking about it. It was sad, and it hurts me too much. So I have no choice but to make him remember today his promise of 2 days even if he has more important things to do. Well, I don't really mean it. I would only want to see him react. Of course, as expected, he was very disappointed and he just answer me with his unwilling "yes". No I love yous, and he doesn't even tell he's excited and happy for that day (after I told him I have no classes that day). :/

Though he swear again he'd meet me up and we'll be together, I won't do it. I know he will not be happy with me. I'd just stick with this until Thursday or early on Friday next week, and then I will tell him to do what he really want to do ... even if it would kill me inside.

18 November 2012

"Someone will really hurt us intentionally and yet we tolerate that person only because OKAY LANG na saktan ka niya at least may connection kayo kahit masakit sayo."
-Papa Jack

“Para sa mga lalaki, be man enough to say na ayaw mo na, hindi yung basta ka na lang hindi magpaparamdam. Isa kasi sa pinakamasakit ay ang umasa na meron pa, yun pala wala na.”
- Papa Jack

Nobody can be happy all the time. Its not healthy to keep your hurt in or your tears. So let them flow. But once they are out wipe them away, put a smile on your face, and walk away from whatever or whoever made you hurt......

17 November 2012

I've just called him a while ago, and for 5 minutes, I haven't uttered a single word.

It's because, ... I want to just hear his voice. I missed it so much. It seems like I haven't heard of it a long time ago, though we had talked a couple of hours ago. I've just ... appreciated it more tonight. How I miss him so much.

I just want to hear his breath. It was so cool. I miss that too.

I miss everything about him. Really. :'(

Never waste an opportunity to tell someone you love them.

~I've already wasted almost a day by not telling him how much I love him .... because it hurts a lot. :'(

“Nakakainis yung pakiramdam na miss na miss mo na siya. Pero wala kang magawa kundi hintayin siya kung kelan ka niya ulit maaalala.”

Just let go of things that makes you sad and be Happy .

Headin' somewhere far from you.

"It was so easy for him na mawala ka kasi nga option ka lang niya."

-Papa Jack

15 November 2012

This. I want.

My mornings would never be better. I know.

But you wish I'm far away...

Don't bother lying to a girl, she'll find out anyway ..

12 November 2012

Just a few questions.

--
leo
being left behind, having no friends, losing my loved ones
my cellphone, my diaries, my Bible
good smell, good kiss, sense of humor, good company
bad breath, rude attitude and situation mismatch, a broken promise, lies
none
--
my first date with him. ♥
4 feet and 11 inches
hang outs with him. :(
12 noon
orange
yes
life isn't fair but God is good
in his arms
everything my mom cooks.
always.
songs from my sister's cellphone
attitude
4 1/2
black
black
none in particular
no
pink
my real name and my message to the one I love
none
none
none
relaxed
--
--
very good. :)
new year.
piercing - each on both ears.
none
I want a new blog, but I love blogger more.
Chinese Cinderella
yes. fortunately.
yes.
November 9, 2012
1 1/2 hours.
yes
in front of my computer
myself.
reasonable level.

It's the best thing I hear right after I open my eyes in the morning

And the only thing I want to hear just before I close my eyes when I go to sleep.

All this, you've deprived me.

Thank you so much for taking my only happiness.

Not anymore this semester. I hope.

You say those who commit suicide have lost courage and are coward?

Think again.

It takes a lot of courage to take all this.

Salute to the 'suiciders'.

I've never had enough courage to take a pill and end my life, even if I want to.

Another Semester. :/

NGA NAMAN. :/

This .... :'(

XD

Funny but sensible, right? Those who end up as the 'genius' are the ones who committed mistakes, fall through the consequences, get up and finish the obstacle. Then that's when learning takes place. ♥

Naalala ko lang dati, nung nagpapakiramdaman pa lang kami. Nagse-send siya ng 'lab u' tapos pag tinatanong ko kung para san yun, sasabihin niya wrong send. Ang masakit pa dun, yung idudugtong niya na .. " ... para kay ----- yan". Ansakit grabe, pero bawal mag-react syempre. Pero nung tumagal inamin niya rin na para sakin talaga yun. Na natatakot lang siya aminin noon, at ang tanging depensa niya lang kapag di na niya kayang itago ang nararamdaman eh ang sabihing wrong send yun. :)) kilig much. :'*