Let's do some THINKING today! :D

GOOD MORNING!

I had a great day today. Thank God for all the laughter I had with my classmate. Somehow, I felt happy at school, and it was a good thing to thank God for. :) 

Aside from the laughter, I have learned a lot today that I really want to share here ... but I'm afraid I will not be able to tell it now for I am too tired I want to dive in my bed now. :/

Good night people! :D 

If you love deeply, you’re going to get hurt badly. But it’s still worth it.

— C.S Lewis 

In spite of busy schedules, thank God .... I still can manage to post in my blog. :)

I have not more than a month left for this semester .. and as the days pass by, I can feel the excitement brought by the pressures and bunch of things to do. 

Anyway, I was asked to do the remaining scripts for our shoot tomorrow. At the back of my mind, I was this mischievous girl who grunts about being made responsible of those things (despite the fact that we have a lot of members in our group). But to take it on its positive side, I was so blessed to be given this opportunity to work and use my brain in useful stuff. The fact that my group mates had entrusted me this task makes my self-worth increase, which is a great help for someone like me who's in the process of putting myself back together again. I'm just happy, that even though one person have shown me how worthless I am, there are a lot of people who could actually prove it wrong. 

Thank God for this. Though I will gain another bag under my eyes, it's a good thing that I have another reason why I should get up and tell the world I was worthy of this life!

1. Losing you forever.
2. Losing myself during the process. 

Requirement #91 - My 100 Ideal Man List

I'd look forward for it. :)

Chemistry. If you have chemistry, you only need one other thing– timing. But timing is a bitch.

— Robin Scherbatsky (How I Met Your Mother)

MY LIFE ......... IS A NIGHTMARE ............ FOR TWO MONTHS .......................... UNTIL WHEN ????????????????

Lahat tayo may hangganan. Parang ako, hanggang sayo lang. :) ~ 

So many times are wasted without you ...... :'(

As for me, it would take infinity before I can put myself back together ....

Charlie: Why do nice people choose the wrong people to date? 
Bill: We accept the love we think we deserve. 
~~
Charlie: Can we make them know they deserve more? 
Bill: We can try. 

The exact words I've told myself last August 3, 2012 .....

YES, HE IS. AND I SWEAR I'D DO ANYTHING JUST TO HIDE ALL THOSE BAD THINGS HE HAD DONE AND STILL DOING. IT'S NOT WHAT SHOULD DEFINE HIM. HE'S A REALLY GOOD MAN, AND I KNOW IT. I KNOW IT BY HEART. HE'S JUST OUT OF CONTROL. AND BESIDES, HE HAD DONE NOTHING WRONG TO ANYONE BUT ME. HE'D NEVER DO IT IF I DIDN'T EXIST. I'M THE ONE RESPONSIBLE FOR EVERYTHING .... 

sHiT.

BECAUSE YOU'RE NOT A PART OF IT ANYMORE .....

~soooo high school. :D

I DON'T KNOW..
BUT ONE THING'S FOR SURE ... 

Kung maaalala mong mahal kita, balik ka lang. Mamahalin pa rin kita. :">


Ga ........... kalimutan mo na lahat ng ala alang meron tayo ... wag lang yung katotohanan na noon, hanggang ngayon at sa marami pang bukas ... mahal pa rin kita. Ikaw lang, wala ng iba. 

Balik ka lang, MAMAHALIN PA RIN KITA ............ 

I thought I did accepted it, but I was so wrong. I wish I could admit to myself that you ... you are now just a part of my yesterday, a past that cannot be changed, never forgotten and erased. It hurts whenever I tell that fact to myself. I cannot ACCEPT it, and that's my biggest problem. And now, I'm hurt. Only a brain damage might help me right now .... so I could never ever think of you anymore. I wish ... I really wish that you and our memories would be deleted in my mind ..forever. Wish I could, wish I might. 

Exhausted. :/

I don't know exactly why I feel this way. But thank God, He answered my prayers right away. 

Is this really is it? 

That wishing for both of our good would result to a pain that only my blades can stop hitting inside my heart?? 

I'M SORRY FOR THAT, BUT I'M TIRED OF LIES AND USED TO INSULTS.

ACCEPT IT. RIGHT NOW. HE'S NEVER COMING BACK, AND HE DOESN'T DESERVE A COME BACK EITHER.

I've browsed some of my older posts in 2012 ... and I end up crying. The hurt was not here, though I pity myself for loving a man who doesn't even care. I'll get through this one day. And if we'll ever meet again, I'd swear he'd see how wonderful I've been without him .... 

Seriously.

But I don’t care about just anyone. 
I care about you.
And I wonder if you think of me even half as much as I think of you… 

We should love, not fall in love. Because everything that falls, gets broken.

— Taylor Swift