Yeah. I know right?!

Memory Lane

Have you remembered a time when you happen to be in a place and then suddenly remembering that memory you have buried a long time ago? It sucks isn't it. Yeah .. well, it happens. It always happens.

My current school for me is one of the best place to describe this. I have this old friend (yeah, he's old. literally) that has been my classmate for a semester. We've been .. a .. I don't know if we're good friends but .. at least we're friends. LOL. And well, now that we're not close anymore (how sad) .. I have to forget everything that happened before. But because as I have said on my other post, I am so attached to those I call my friends. So whenever I came to cross on places somewhere in our school .. even a chair .. reminds me of him. It really sucks. I never liked the feeling of missing someone .. knowing the fact that they never ever miss you back. But well .. 'memory lanes' are still good things .. it's sad but .. at least they remind you that something, somewhere, somehow, for quite sometime .. a good and a happy memory happened.

Are we FRIENDS?? Sure??

I have lots of companions and acquaintances .. but not friends. Most of the time, people misunderstood me. Like, one friend of mine told me that he is confused with the girls I'm always with in school because I always tell him that we quarrel and they're not my friends. He told me that we're always together so we're all friends, but I insisted that we're not. 

When I was younger, I have always been open for everyone .. even someone I have only chatted with for a while, I call her a friend. But one time, I have this one classmate whom I have always been with everyday .. we shared everything .. and so I have actually coined her as my best friend. Then one day, she confronted me .. really .. and told me that we're not friends and I am so stupid that I didn't know that. it made me feel so sad that I came to promise myself that I will choose very carefully those people that I will call my friends. 

So now, I still live with this promise .. and I don't regret it. As time goes by .. I realize that I really have to sort out my friends. But ironically, I often meet people now who easily call me their friends and it bothers me. I become shocked when I hear words like, "We're friends right?" .. I don't know how to respond especially when that person has never been in my list. Well, when this happens, I often say .. "Ah.. " and then, I smile.

Well, even if I sort out friends or not, I still haven't found the perfect and true one. I mean, yeah, no one's perfect, but at least I wish I could have a friend like that on the movies who are very supportive, always ready to talk and listen .. ah .. how I wish. But I have those people whom I call my friends .. not too many .. just enough to make me hurt. But even if they hurt me and I do as well, I love them.. because they are my friends.

Only one problem with me is that when I finally called someone my friend, I attach myself to him so much that when he or she leaves me, it's as if I had someone who died. Really. I care so much for those I call my friends .. but I don't know if they feel the same way too. But I really admit .. I'm really having a hard time to call someone my friend, but when I do .. of course I inform them and I make sure they agree because if not .. then it all ends there.

So when people ask me .. "Are you friends? or What relationship do you have?" I simply answer them according to the hierarchy. LOL.

-chat mate

-acquaintance

-classmate/schoolmate/neighborhood

-friend

-best friend/boyfriend

-family

There it goes! haha!

Eto pa o !!! Love it !! :D

Love it! :))

Isn't it ironic?

Alam mo ba yun ?? :D

Ako .. di kita napapanaginipan .. naiisip kita lagi.

Naalala ko nung isang day before na sabi niya napapanaginipan niya daw ako. Super kinilabutan ako nun .. hahahaha! Nasa kusina pa nga ako nun e .. tapos nung sinabi niya yun natigilan ako. Tapos naalala ko rin ngayon yung gabing sinabi niya .. syempre di same date to .. matagal na after yung first incident .. nung sinabi niya na di na niya ko napapanaginipan. Ahay ...

I MATTER!

Pain in my ♥

Here I am alone in this empty room,
And let my mind just fly you to the end.
Thoughts of you still linger in my memory
Wondering why my life is not that fair.

I could still recall, those memories of you,
The joy and all your laughter,
The love that we've been through.
Oh I can't believe, you're gone...

I don't want to remember,
The things we used to do,
All the things that remind me of you.
I don't want to hear those songs,
Those songs we used to sing,
'Cause I don't wanna feel the pain in my heart

Talkin' to my self, for reasons I can't find.
Findin' out why everything went wrong.
Tears fallin' down on my cheeks,
That I've been tryin' to hold.
I just dunno if I could still go on.

I wanted you to stay,
The tears began to show,
You said you care for me,
But then you have to go
And now I know, you're gone.

I don't want to remember,
The things we used to do,
All the things that remind me of you.
I don't want to hear those songs,
Those songs we used to sing,
'Cause I don't wanna feel the pain in my heart

(Instrumental)

I just can't believe, you're gone...

I don't want to remember,
The things we used to do,
All the things that remind me of you.
I don't want to hear those songs,
Those songs we used to sing,
'Cause I don't wanna feel the pain in my heart,

And I don't want to remember,
The things we used to do,
All the things that remind me of you.
I don't want to hear those songs,
Those songs we used to sing,
'Cause I don't wanna feel the pain in my heart

Leaving Yesterday Behind - Keno

Since you left me, I never really tried
To put my life to where it should belong
And I've always let the past gone by
I'm realizing that it could be wrong

But now I fin'lly knew
I had to let it go
To make way for a brighter tomorrow

So now I'm leavin' yesterday behind
And fin'lly I've made up my mind
So let the mem'ries stay away
And think about today
I'm leavin' yesterday behind
'Cause now I'll try to live my life once more
The way I did before

Since I know that I never will forget
The memories that made my yesterday
I will try not to let it interfere
The choices I will make along the way

'Cause I'm not livin' in a world of fantasy
I'm here now in the world of reality

So now I'm leavin' yesterday behind
And fin'lly I've made up my mind
So let the mem'ries stay away
And think about today
I'm leavin' yesterday behind
'Cause now I'll try to live my life once more
The way I did before

So now I'm leavin' yesterday behind
And fin'lly I've made up my mind
So let the mem'ries stay away
And think about today
I'm leavin' yesterday behind
'Cause now I'll try to live my life once more
Just the way I did before

I miss you ..

:'( Yeah .. I always miss those people I had with me before .. But I do not agree that it's a proof that I am a good person. I actually had hurt them that's why they left me .. and .. even if I care for them so much still after them hurting me back, it's non sense.

Lord, I Offer My Life To You ...

Are you gonna wait for me???

So sweet. How I wish I have a friend like Patrick or Spongebob. This is what I like most in this cartoon... the value of friendship and good actions towards other people .. even if they are hurting you. Hay ...

Nice, Gary! XDDDDD

The Ideal BF

Wow .. perfectly and very well said. hahahaha! Ideal BF. Wala naman ako nun .. kasi naman kung magseset ako ng standards tulad nito .. mahuhurt lang ako pag di ko nakuha. Pero well nung nabasa ko to .. kind of .. nag-agree ako .. astig e .. except for number one .. papalitan ko .. Someone who won't mind if I don't eat too much. hahahaha! Meron kayang ganito? Friend nga na ganito wala e .. BF pa kaya. hai ...

Happy Birthday Mama Mary !!!!

rrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I've sent him a message .. a .. a quote .. a yummy quote. And ah .. ah .. ah .. I'm scared. Scared to death. Swear. Lord, I'd sleep na .. :)))

Prayer For A Friend

This was such a nice song .. tinype ko nga sa cp ko yung ilang lines e .. I want to send it to my friends .. :)) 

For every action, there's an equal and opposite reaction. - Newton

Dapat lang.

Sometimes, GOODBYE is painful way to say I LOVE YOU ..

Ten ways to love

Be yourself.

Friendship Day

Ang cute nila no .. hahaha! Oo .. HAPPY FRIENDSHIP DAY ngayon. 1st year anniversary nga e. Friendship day namin ni Bro. Sabi niya kasi dati Sept.7 kami naging magkaibigan .. pero hindi talaga ako sure dito no. Pero at least diba may date. hahaha. Ayun na nga friendship day .. gusto ko sana siyang batiin kaso .. 

1. Syempre .. di na tulad ng dati. Di ko na siya pwedeng itext ng wala lang .. nakakahiya naman maiistorbo ko pa .. tapos baka sabihin nanaman nun sinasayang ko oras niya. 

2. Para kong tanga lang .. masyado kong kinakarir diba .. sabihin pa nun ang feeler ko.

3. Hindi na siya nagtext ulit simula nung Wed, nung umattend ako dun sa outreach niya sa Pulanglupa. Syempre bakit nga naman diba?? ahai. Eh ayun na nga .. nakakahiya naman kung bigla kong itetext ngayon diba tapos ganito lang pala ang sasabihin ko.

4. Hindi nga siya nagtext ... so it means wala sa isip niya to .. ibig sabihin talaga .. ako lang mukhang tanga na nagse-celebrate dito. hahahaha!!!

5. Higit sa lahat .. HINDI NA KAMI FRIENDS NGAYON .. BAKA NGA DI NAMAN TALAGA KAMI NAGING FRIENDS E.

Ayun lang naman. hahahaha! Di naman ako emotera .. wala lang naman sakin .. hahaha. Wala lang pero nag-post e no?? XD Pero gusto ko talaga siya itext .. yun bang kamusta lang para naman di niya isipin na magtetext lang ako pag magtatanong sa kanya. Pero kasi .. natatakot talaga akong malaman nanaman ang mga sasabihin niya. Swear. Tsaka lalo na pag binanggit ko pa tong friendship day na to .. baka maloka ako sa magiging komento niya .. ang mga preacher pa naman ansasama .. di maingat sa words. Pero ganun talaga. Ahai.

Titingnan ko .. may ilang oras pa naman ako bago matapos ang Sept. 7 e. Mahina kasi ako sa sign e .. Kainis. Pero basta .. ganito .. pag lumabas siya sa list ng friends ko sa profile ko sa Facebook .. magtetext ako .. hanggang 12 midnight lang o hanggang mag offline lang ako a .. pag wala edi ok. :)) Pero kung meron?? Patay. Be ready. Nakakatakot ang words.

Di bale .. basta .. HAPPY FRIENDSHIP DAY!!! :))))

Cellphone. ♥

Cellphone nga naman .. ang daming nagagawa. Isang maliit at simpleng bagay .. pero kung kontrolin ang buhay ng tao .. tinalo pa ang remote sa pagkontrol ng telebisyon. Hindi ko alam kung magagalit ako sa bagay na ito o matutuwa ako .. kasi naman .. andami niyang nasisirang buhay pero .. tingin ko naman hindi pa rin siya dapat sisihin. Kasi bagay lang siya at tao pa rin ang nagpapagana sa kanya .. kaya kasalanan na ng tao kung magpapaalipin sa kanya diba?? Tsaka isa pa .. lahat naman nakikinabang sa kanya .. at higit sa lahat .. sumasaya. Tama diba?? Parang ako lang e. Nang dahil sa cellphone naramdaman ko ang ligaya ng pag-ibig. O diba .. ayos. hahaha. Nang dahil sa cellphone . .. naging malapit ako sa mga taong di ko akalaing magiging kaibigan ko .. yun nga lang .. dahil din dito o ito rin ang naging daan para wakasan ang mga nabubuong relasyon. Pero ayos lang ..ganun talaga ang buhay. Sa huli .. cellphone pa rin siya .. bagay. Isang bagay na tumatanggap ng mga tawag at mensahe para sakin .. ang bagay na nagtatago ng numero na nagpapaalala sakin sa mga taong malapit sa puso ko .. at ang bagay na dapat kong hanapin ngayon para burahin ang mga nabanggit ko. :D

Aminin !!!

Sus .. pakipot pa nga si girl ... tsk.

Depression eats me again. I need someone to talk to. I need you.

I just love this blog. (click on the title) I was searching for photos about being depressed .. because lately, I have been going through it again. And then I stumbled here .. and know what? It was really nice. Yeah. posts are triggering .. but captions are inspiring. It helps .. not too much but at least it helps relieve something inside. The messages actually made me cry. It's as if God was talking to me, as if He's telling me that someone out there cares and loves me .. and it's none other than Him. I am near to giving up again ... making plans of punishing myself for being such a stupid gal. I hate myself so much .. and I don't know how will I face tomorrow. I want to hide. I am ashamed. I am a total trash. 

What's good also is that whenever these things ran on my mind .. many people suddenly appear .. people who are not expected to comment and message me .. that I can. That I am strong. That the "I" they knew doesn't give up. If only they really know. If only I could tell them. But I know they won't understand. They will only judge me. .. and that's what I fear. 

I don't like this feeling of emptiness.. loneliness.. being depressed. It swallows me whole .. I can't breathe. I barely see light. I only see myself .. alone in darkness .. struggling against something or someone I don't see .. but I feel. I feel .. the hatred .. the anger .. for myself. I hate myself so much .. I am worthless .. I am nothing but a big trash in the lives of those that I care about. If only I'd die .. their burdens will be lighter. I hate myself ... so much. 

Hay nako .. eto nanaman ako .. HB nanaman kay Wendy. Actually kahapon pa to e. 

Kasi naman .. kahapon asa Le Colonial kami nila Bro. Je at Geralyn .. tapos dumating siya .. para mag inarte. And what's worst, nung kinakausap ko siya . di man lang ako pinapansin. Kapal ng mukha e. Tapos ang nakakainis pa .. at the end of our session ... siya pa ang nakasama ko .. and I have to calm down myself para naman di masira ang gabi ko knowing that I'm in a place where people worship God. So kinalimutan ko na ang hard feelings ko. And then now .. grabe. nag-joke lang ako na 'take care your face' kasi sabi niya may sakit siya and she's asking me to take care of her .. grabe a . grabe makareact. Kapal talaga e. 

What I hate most about her? Napaka .. napaka .. hai. Di ko maintindihan. Ang arte arte niya. Napaka sensitive. Napakababaw. Buti sana kung cute tingnan e .. at buti sana kung maganda siya .. I'm sorry pero masama talaga ako .. I just simply hate her .. from head to toe. ayun lang naman. 

Tapos kagabi .. she told me na .. alam naman niya at tanggap niya na ayaw ko sa kanya. Well .. at least she knows. :)))

I know after this .. siya nanaman ang biktima . siya nanaman ang kinawawa ko. And like what Geralyn said .. pabayaan ko na lang ang sasabihin ng ibang tao .. tutal kahit anong gawin ko ako pa rin naman ang masama .. edi panindigan ko na .. ahai ...

Walang 'real you'.

Ito ang isa sa mga pinaka hindi ko malilimutan sa mga sinabi ni Sir Celeste. Walang REAL YOU. Hindi natin dapat sabihing, "hindi ako ito, di mo pa nakikita ang tunay na ako". Bakit? Kasi ayon kay Sir, kung ano ka at sino ka nung time na yun ... ikaw talaga yun. At dahil iba ibang tao ang na-e-encounter natin araw-araw, hindi maaaring may iisang pag-uugali lang tayo na ipapakita sa lahat ng yun .. ang ugali at pagkatao ng isang tao ay nagbabago depende sa sitwasyon at kung sinong tao ang kasama niya.

For example, iba ako pag kasama ko mga classmate ko nung high school, iba pag kasama ko mga classmates ko nung nasa Muntinlupa pa ako at iba rin pag kasama ko ang mga kaklase ko ngayon. Hindi iyon dahil may itinatago akong tunay na ako .. kundi nung mismong oras o panahon na yun .,, yun talaga ako. Kaya di natin masasabi na meron tayong fixed 'us'. Kung pagsasama-samahin ang lahat, iyon ang bumubuo satin .. pero hindi pa rin natin ito matatawag na ma-e-enclose sa tawag na 'tunay na ako' dahil ang lahat ay nagbabago.

Agree ako kay Sir. Dati madalas kong sabihin sa sarili ko at sa ibang tao na .. 'ibang ako ang kilala mo ngayon .. yung tunay na ako di mo pa alam.. ' ngayon.. di ko na sinasabi yan .. kasi isa yang malaking kalokohan.

You are changing every minute, every second. You are not the same person as your are earlier..

echosera lang. XD

Bat lagi kitang namimiss??? daya naman o.. para namang ako miss mo .. tsk. unfair!!

Bert - An Adorable Family Animation by Moonsung Lee

Mariza (The Stubborn Donkey) - Cute Aniboom Cartoon by Constantine Kryst...

Dog and the Butcher -Aniboom Animation

The Piano - Amazing Short - Animation by Aidan Gibbons, Music by Yann Ti...

Behind Closed Doors - A Monstrous Aniboom Animation by Button Films

The Look of Love - Romantic Animation by Lindsay Thompson

Clocktower - Cute animation

One Life - Amazing Animation by Corey Hayes (Song is "Old Man" by Neil Y...

Saying Sorry - A Cute Aniboom Animation

Out to Play (with a Magic Box) - A Funny Animation by Jessica Lozano

"Heavenly Appeals" a short film by David Lisbe

two less lonely people in the world

A Day Made of Glass... Made possible by Corning.

I do this. XD

Lifehouse - Whatever It Takes

Life house-You and Me

Gusto ko tong panuorin .. :D

Matchbox Twenty - Unwell (Video)

DEAR FATHER, we know that JESUS CHRIST is Your only provision for our sins. Through JESUS, we can know and experience Your love and plan for our lives. We deserve to pay for our sin and know that payment should be death. Because of Your love for us, You sent JESUS to die in our place so we would not die separated from You. Amen.

nakakainis kaya!hahaha!

Yung feeling na
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ang crush moh may crush na iba..
pinakamasakit kaibigan mo pa!

ANG HIRAP BURAHIN ANG MGA TEXT
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LALO NA KUNG KAY CRUSH NANGGALING.

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kaso minsan kailangan ng burahin .. kasi pag paulit ulit mong babasahin .. lalo ka lang nitong paaasahin. XD

sarap!

Yung feeling na..
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nagtapat sa'yo si CRUSH! :">

gawain niya to ah. hahaha!

Kapag maingay ang Girlfriend mo...
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Takpan mo ang bibig niya, nang bibig mo.

oo nga!!!!!!!!

Isusulat ko sa maraming bato na MAHAL
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Tapos ibabato ko sayo para malaman mo Kung gaano kasakit na mahalin ka!

Parang ngayon lang.

YUNG FEELING NA..

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Ang dami mong ASSIGNMENTS/RESEARCH PAPERS pero mas una mong ita-type ang FACEBOOK kesa kay Google xD

magawa nga minsan . XD

Paano malalaman kung gusto ka ng CRUSH mo?
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I-kiss mo siya. Kapag tumagal, gusto ka din niya. Kapag hindi, okay lang. At least naka isa. >:)))

ouch again.

Kaya mo nasasabi na binabalewala ka ng isang tao kasi,
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iniisip mo na mahalaga ka sakanya..
kahit hndi naman talaga.

DEAR FATHER, we come humbly to You today. Bless our steps! Thank you that Jesus took all of our sin on Himself and completely paid for it. The Just died for the Unjust so that He might bring us close to You. Jesus saved us, not because of righteous things we did, but because of Your Mercy. We want to be closer to You Father! Amen! ♥

I miss you .. :')

You can miss someone who died, someone who moved away. But the worst thing? is having to miss someone you see everyday. :)

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One of the worst feelings ever. Ewan ko ba .. missing someone is a positive thing for me .. kasi it tells na you remember someone and you are being remembered .. so .. ibig sabihin .. mahalaga ka. Pero it is not a so good feeling .. kasi .. masakit. Masakit maka-miss ng isang tao. Yung tipong naiisip mo na 'sana andito siya sa mga oras na to' ..

Hay. Pero ang pinaka nakakainis .. e yung mamiss mo yung taong nakikita mo naman araw-araw. Sabihin na natin di araw-araw .. pero yung mamiss mo ang isang tao sa oras na magkasama o nagkita kayo .. para sakin malupit yun. Sobrang sakit. Parang kanina lang e .. (haha!)

Alam mo yun. Yung naiisip mo na ,.. "sana .. sa mga oras na to .. pwede kong gawin to .. pwede kong sabihin yun .. " .. pero ni di mo malapitan. Malapitan mo nga limitado naman kasi alam mong maraming matang nakatingin .. at isa pa, hindi na tulad ng dati ang lahat. May lamat na, sabi nga ni Geh. Hai.

Basta, hindi masarap ang feeling na maka miss ng tao lalo na kung ang taong yun e nag iwan ng maraming memories sa buhay mo. Nakakainis. Kung pwede lang kalimutan ang lahat .. edi sana di ka malulungkot at maghahanap pag wala na ...

Tama nga si Sir Celeste. Sabi niya sa comment niya sa post ni Caesey na ..

When someone is so sweet to you,

Don't expect that he/she will be like that all the time
because even the sweetest chocolate,

"Expires!"

"Everything in this world have an expiration date. The point is to make everything worthwhile while it's still there."

Habang andyan pa at ok pa ang lahat . .. go! Wag mo ng hintayin pa ang araw na katulad nito .. maiisip mo siya at mamimiss mo ..na sigurado namang sooner or later mangyayari ... lahat may expiration. Ahai ..

"5 fingers of prayer"

1. Your thumb is nearer to you,so pray for those who are closest to you.
2. Pointing finger: pray for those who teach, instruct & heal.
3. Tallest finger: pray for our leaders, they need God's guidance.
4. Ring finger: weakest finger, so pray for those who are weak, troubled or in need.
5. Little finger: the smallest to remind you to pray for yourself.

Kung hindi ka gagawa ng kalokohan
habang bata ka pa,
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Wala kang maaalalang nakakatawa
kung matanda ka na. =))

Wanted : Kausap.

Naloloka na talaga ako!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Grabe.. ang hirap ng ganito. Yung naiipon lahat sa isip at puso mo .. na gusto mong ilabas pero hindi pwede. Hindi pwede kasi walang makikinig .. at walang interesado.

Ito ang problema ko mula pa noon. Lagi akong mag-isa .. tapos nagtataka ako .. marami naman akong kaibigan pero wala akong mapagsabihan ng mga nararamdaman ko ni isa.

Nagkaroon naman ako ng mga kaibigang may pakinabang .. yung nakikinig sakin .. pero wala e .. wala na sila ngayon. Malayo sila sakin at limitado ang sharing portion. Yung isa naman .. wala na kasi inaway ko. Oo, tanga na kung tanga .. e ganun e. Nagsisisi naman ako .. pero wala na e .. nangyari na .. di ko na rin naman mababawi pa.

So ayun na nga. Yun namang mga nakakasama ko sa kasalukuyan .. kung hindi ko mapagkatiwalaan, di naman interesado. Meron namang sobrang judgemental .. di ka pa nga tapos magkwento yung facial expression nakakababa na ng pagkatao. Alam mo yun?? Bakit ganun?? Bakit parang pinagkaitan ako ng mga taong matino?? Bakit parang bawal ako mag open kung kanino??

Naiinggit ako sa mga palabas na .. ayun .. may bestfriend yung bida na sinasabihan niya ng lahat ng sikreto niya tapos naiintindihan pa rin siya. Yung di siya pinaplastik. Yung di siya hinuhusgahan. Yung mahal pa rin siya kahit na nakakahiya na ang mga pinagkukwento niya (shet naiiyak ako .. I'm getting emotional nanaman..hahahaha!) Alam mo yun. Nakakainggit talaga .. kasi hindi pa ako nagkakaroon ng mga ganyang kaibigan.

Yung mga nagiging kaibigan ko .. gusto lagi sila ang pinakikinggan. Ok lang naman sakin yun kasi feeling ko talent ko ang makinig kahit na paulit ulit at walang kwenta na .. pero kasi naman .. diba. Hindi man ako umaasa ng kapalit sa serbisyo ko bilang kaibigan .. tingin ko naman may karapatan akong umasa sa serbisyo nila bilang kaibigan ko rin. Diba? Haizt.

Tapos may mga kasama (hindi ko sila kaibigan ,,.. swear!) naman ako ngayon na grabe .. bumababa ba naman ang tingin sayo pag may shinare ka katulad na lang yung sa lovelife ko na alam ko namang mali at isang malaking katarantaduhan .. katulad din nung galit na gait at asar na asar ako sa isang tao .. pero naman diba .. di nakakatulong e. Kasi sa mga panahong ganun ... emotionally weak ka at kailangan mo ng kausap at understanding nila .. pero hindi e. Lalo ka nilang dina-down, which is very depressing.

Ako na talaga ang dakilang tanga. Minsan na kong binigyan ng Panginoon ng matinong kaibigan, inaway ko pa. Ngayon .. back to normal ang lahat .. eto nanaman ako .. nagkikimkim ng emosyon .. kahit parang sasabog na ko kailangan kong magpigil para lang maging maayos ang lahat. Para lang hindi ako mahusgahan. Para meron pang respeto kahit konti ang mga taong nakapaligid sakin.

Hai. Buti sana kung walang kapaguran ang tao e .. kung malakas lang ako parati at kung mahaba lang ang oras .. dito ko na lang ikukwento ang lahat .. pero limitado ang mga kakayahan ko e. Hay. Kaya nga maraming tao sa mundo e ... para marami kang kaibigan. Para may nakakausap ka. Pero di ganun sakin. Hai..... grabe talaga.

Kaya di na ko nagtataka kung bakit kaya kong magpuyat para makausap lang ang kung sino, gumasta may makakwentuhan lang .. kasi kailangan ko talaga ng kausap. Konti na lang maloloka na ko ng tuluyan .. Grabe .. Grabe talaga ..

I need somebody.

"Kailan kaya ako magkaka boyfriend ulit ??"

Yan ang naiisip ko kanina sa jeep. Hay. Hindi naman sa desperada na ko na magka boyfriend o gustong gusto ko talaga o kailangang kailangan ko talaga no .. pero naisip ko lang .. kelan kaya?? Antagal naman, sana ngayon na. Joke lang. hahaha!!!

Wala lang. Kasi .. feeling ko ... ok masama na kung masama pero .. tingin ko makaka move on lang ako kapag may bago na kong pagbubuhusan ng atensyon ko. hahaha! Ansama e no.

Ang totoo niyan, ayoko naman talaga ng ideya ng 'rebound' no .. hindi ko gawain yan .. pero bukod sa panibagong experience siya kung magkataon .. parang yun kasi yung instant way e. Alam mo yun .. tsk. Hirap i-explain. hahaha!

Kasi .. nakakainis e. Ok na e .. di na ko nasasaktan .. tapos eto nanaman. Nakakasawa pero antanga ng puso at isip ko kasi yun at yun pa rin ang sinisigaw nila. Mga leche. Mas marunong pa sakin! hahahaha!!!

O sige wag na nga .. baka sabihin ni Lord lalo akong di karapat dapat mag boyfriend. Siguro ang hihilingin at pagpi pray ko na lang .. yung mawala na tong nararamdaman ko para sa kanya. Tama na .. sobrang kinakawawa ko na ang sarili ko dahil sa katangahan kong ito. Kahit pagbali-baliktarin ko ang mundo, wala na talaga .. suntok sa buwan ang lahat ng ninanais at minimithi ko. ahai. Ayoko na .. ayoko na .. ayoko na ....

I'm 19 but I act like I'm 20. (Parang di naman .. )

[x] You know how to make a pot of coffee

[x] You keep track of dates using a calendar or electronic device

[] You own a credit card

[] You know how to change the oil in a car

[x] You've done your own laundry

[x] You can vote in an election

[] You think politics is interesting

TOTAL SO FAR: 4

[x] You show(ed) up for school late a lot

[x] You always carry a pen/pencil in your bag/purse/pocket

[X] You've never gotten a detention

[] You have forgotten your own birthday

[x] You like to take walks by yourself

[x] You know what credibility means, without looking it up

[] You drink caffeine at least once a week

TOTAL SO FAR: 9

[x] You know how to do the dishes

[x] You can count to 10 in another language

[x] When you say you're going to do something you do it

[] You study even when you don't have to

[] You have hand washed a car before

TOTAL SO FAR: 12

[x] You can spell experience, without looking it up

[] The people at Starbucks know you by name

[] Your favorite kind of food is take out

[x] You can go to the store without getting something you don't need

[] You understand political jokes the first time they are said

[x] You can type pretty quick

TOTAL SO FAR: 15

[] Your only friends are from your place of employment (school counts)

[x] You have been to a Tupperware party

[] You have realized that practically no one will take you seriously unless you are over the age of 25 and have a job.

[] You have more bills than you can pay

[x ] You have been to the beach

[x] You use the internet every day

[] You have traveled overseas for more than 5 times

[X] You make your bed in the morning

[x] You realized people of the opposite sex might just make better friends.

TOTAL: 20

Repost this with the subject as:I'm (how old you are) but I act like I'm (what you got on the test)

The number of people you have to tag is the number you got on the test

And you have to tag the person who tagged you back

emotions test, dont u dare cheat

Copy, Paste, Dont look at the bottom before you do the thing or it won't work!

This is scary but pretty accurate.

1. Which color is better red, black, green, blue, or yellow?

-- red

2. What is your middle initial?

-- J

3. What month is your birthday?

-- August

4. Which color do you like more, black or white?

-- white

5.Name one of your friends.

-- Czar

6. Your favorite number?

-- 3

7. Do you like flying or driving more?

-- Driving

8. Ocean? Lake?

-- Ocean

9. Think of a wish, but don't write it.

--Answers--

1. If you chose:

Red: You are alert and your life is full of love.

Black : You are conservative and aggressive.

Green: Your soul is relaxed and you are laid back.

Blue: You are spontaneous and love kisses and affection from the ones you love and give good advice to those who are down.

Yellow - You are a very happy person.

2. If you're initial is:

A-K: You have a lot of love and friendships in your life.

L-R: You try to enjoy your life to the maximum & your love life is soon to blossom.

S-Z: You like to help others and your future love life looks very good.

3. If you were born in:

Jan-Mar: The year will go very well for you and you will discover that you fall in love with someone totally unexpected.

April-June: You will have a strong love relationship that will last forever. :]

July-Sept: You will have a great year and will experience a major life-changing experience for the good.

Oct-Dec: Your love life will be great, and eventually you will find your soul mate.

4. If you chose:

Black: Your life will take you on a different direction, it will seem hard at times but will be the best thing for you, and you will be glad for the change.

White: You will have a friend who completely confides in you and would do anything for you, but you may not realize it.

5. This person is your best friend.

6. If it is

1-50 you are a very lovable person and you have a great life

More then 50 is nothing

7. If you chose:

Flying - You like adventure.

Driving - You are a laid back person.

8. If you chose:

Lake - You are loyal to your friends, your lover, and yourself. You are very reserved and not emotional.

Ocean - You are spontaneous and like to please people sometimes.

9. This wish will come true only if you repost this with the title:

emotions test, dont you dare cheat

When Love And Hate Collide

When Love and Hate Collide. T.T

"You could have a change of heart
If you would only change your mind
Instead of slamming down the phone, girl
For the hundredth time "

This verse is pretty obvious: They had a fight, maybe even split up, and she's still so angry that she refuses to talk to him, only hangs up on him. He says that if she'd just change her mind about talking to him, she could have a change of heart about getting back together.

"I got your number on my wall
But I ain't gonna make that call "

He's getting tired of phoning only to have her "slam down" the phone, and his pride is preventing him from keeping on trying.

"When divided we stand, baby
United we fall "

One of the most profound lines Def Leppard ever wrote. When you are in a relationship and you are not pulling the weight together (in other words, you are "standing divided"), then the relationship can't work out, and the two of you won't succeed as a couple ("united we fall").

"Got the time, got a chance, gonna make it
Got my hands on your heart, gonna take it
All I know, I can't fight this flame "

He's saying that he knows she loves him, he has this opportunity to make this relationship work out with her, and he's going to do his best to make it work, because his feelings are so strong, he can't forget about her.

"You could have a change of heart
If you would only change your mind
Cause I'm crazy 'bout you baby
Time after time "

If she'd just change her mind and start talking/listening to him, he could convince her to give the relationship another chance, because no matter how much they fight, or how many times they break up, or how bad it gets, he's still crazy about her.

Without you
One night alone
Is like a year without you baby
Do you have a heart of stone?
"Without you
Can't stop the hurt inside
When love and hate collide "

The first 3 lines are obvious. Then he says that when they're apart or split up, all those feelings of anger and frustration and love and joy and longing hurt too much, but when he's with her, he can bear it. That's why "without you (I) can't stop the hurt inside".

"I don't wanna fight no more
I don't know what we're fighting for
When we treat each other, baby
Like an act of war"

He's tired of fighting with her, and he can't even see the point of arguing when all they do is hurt each other without achieving anything.

"I could tell a million lies
And it would come as no surprise
When the truth is like a stranger
Hits you right between the eyes "

This one is always a bit tricky for me, and I'd like some input. I think he's saying that no matter how many times he lies, he's not surprised, but the truth (that he does love her, and wants to make it work) comes as a huge surprise.

He's lied to her so many times now that it doesn't surprise her anymore, in fact she's actually surprised when he tells the truth. And even though he knows he deserves her distrust, it still feels like he's being hit between the eyes every time she expresses it.

"There's a time and a place and a reason
And I know I got a love to believe in
All I know
Got to win this time "

Same as the previous bridge. They have something special, and they have this opportunity to really find true love in each other, and he really wants it to work.

--Lilandra and achoryzentwo
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Your change of heart turns my love for you into hate... still it hurts to hate you as much as it hurts to love you... I feel like a prisoner locked in this misery since I know you... knowing I meant nothing to you... I'm hurt because I can't shake from this love I have for you... - tigress

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http://www.songmeanings.net/songs/view/78803/#73015512236

Jesus, I want to know you. I want you to come into my life. Thank you for dying on the cross for my sin so that I could be fully accepted by you. Only you can give me the power to change and become the person you created me to be. Thank you for forgiving me and giving me eternal life with God. I give my life to you. Please do with it as you wish. Amen.

CHRIST took my dirty pieces---> and created a pure MASTERPIECE.
CHRIST took my unclean things---> and became my EVERYTHING.
CHRIST took my old nature---> and gave me a NEW NATURE.
CHRIST took my filthy rags–––> and washed me clean on HIS CROSS.†

When I am angry.......HE CALMS ME.
When I am desperate.......HE RESCUES ME.
When I am inadequate.......HE COMPLETES ME.
When I take my final breath.......HE WILL RECEIVE ME INTO GLORY. My Savior.

I said I'm too afraid to move.....JESUS SAID I AM WITH YOU ALWAYS.
I said I'm spiritually starving.....JESUS SAID I AM YOUR BREAD OF LIFE.
I said I'll die without water.....JESUS SAID I AM YOUR LIVING WATER.
I said I have no clothing...JESUS SAID PUT ON MY WHOLE ARMOR.
JESUS, STARTING TODAY I WILL TRAVEL WITH YOU ALONE! ?