I just want to share that my profile picture in Facebook earned likes which I never expected to have since I haven't changed it to my own photo for like more than a year. After I had been a victim of a "minor cyber bullying", where my photo had been laughed at, I have not earned the guts again to show my face online. But now, as a good start for my recovery from all the bad things that happened to me, I start facing the things that I fear most, and one of them is posting my very own photo. I do not intend to be overly flattered or whatsoever, but I really appreciate how those friends, 'real friends' of mine see who I am. I mean, not only with the photo. After seeing who those people who liked my picture are, I just saw that no one even belonged to my acquaintances at my present school, which is pretty sad. And those people who liked it? They are the ones that I once neglected but gave their time when I needed them. Which is why, though I had been in the most traumatic rejection and brokenheartedness recently, I have gathered and braced myself immediately because of them. This whole summer (2 months) is so worthwhile and very well spent, because I had time to recollect and meet them again. Oh well, I don't want to be too emotional but I can't stop myself. Anyway, school days are now approaching, which is a bit sad because I have to face those people again. :/ But I don't have to be bitter anymore, because I know I'm ok and I'm getting to full recovery. :)))
So what's with my picture? Nothing really new, except with a a little bit daring look I've exhibited there. The red lipstick I used made my whole face glow, and I'd forever thank it for making me see what I should be. I mean, that photo have shown me not only how I should look physically, but how I should look at myself as well. Not with boastfulness, but I looked good there compared to my actual look right now. LOL.
After everything I've been through, I think it's time for me to undergo metanoia. Change of heart, change of mind, change of how I see myself, change on how I see the things that happen around. I should begin to love myself now, so I could be better. This coming school year, I WILL CHANGE FOR THE BETTER ME. I WILL, I WILL, I WILL. :)))
Love is wanting to be near YOU, even though it’ll probably only make things hurt more. Love is feeling safest with YOU, even though YOU’d broken MY heart. Love is trusting YOU, even though YOU'd lied to ME a thousand times. Love is YOU, even though for YOU it’s not ME.~
De Moi
- LadY kYu
- Love usually ends in pain and hurt…but that doesn't mean that it’s not worth it.~~