Procrastination AHEAD!

It wasn't like I am really procrastinating. It's just that, all of the things that I have to do came at the same time,  and no matter how I try to do one of them so it will be lessened, it seems that nothing changes. So here I am, wondering how would I finish all of this today. :) But of course I am not discouraged, because I know I can do it, with God beside me. :)) Praying for a blessed day for all of us! AMEN!

...'coz I was once a suicidal ... ~~~

note to self:

KALANDIAN mode. XD

Yung feeling na kahit mahal nyo pa ang isa't-isa,
kailangan nyo nang maghiwalay.

Ang LOVE ay parang buhol- buhol na sinulid.
 Kapag di mo na kayang ayusin, kailangan mo ng PUTULIN.

Kung mahal ka niya, babalik siya? No.
Kung mahal ka talaga niya, una pa lang hindi ka na niya iiwan.

Hindi man tayo para sa isa't isa,
atleast dumating yung araw na sumaya ako at nakilala kita.

Hindi mo naman kailangan mahirapan,
minsan kasi ayaw mo lang talaga bitawan kaya lalo kang nasasaktan.

This is why I love studying. Studying ROCKS! \m/

So, yeah. You're reading it right. I have a lot of videos to watch tonight until Wednesday. I've been downloading it for 3 1/2 hours now. 

1.) http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=O_jIGfSPaWM&feature=share

2.) 

These two videos were posted last July 11, I think right after our class. I didn't know how important that I should start now until one of my classmates told me earlier this afternoon that one of the videos is actually almost 4 hours! So upon arriving home, I have cancelled some of my schedules and started downloading the stuff. Now, if you'll ask me why I downloaded it instead of just watching it directly on Youtube, of course I have my reasons.

a. I would save a lot of time if I'll download it, because if I watch it directly, I will have to wait for hours for loading the video and the interruptions will cause great inconvenience especially in understanding the topics.

b. You'll say that I am wasting my time now from downloading, but you're wrong. While I am downloading the videos, I am doing some other commitments and assignments (of my sister and mine) and I'm able to post just like now.

c. I can watch it anytime, anywhere in our house if I download it. I don't need to connect to the internet which would make it easier for me.

d. I want to keep a copy of the video, for future purposes. :)

So there are more than 4 hours for both videos, but a while ago, this was added to the lists:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7rcNCB3cqTg&feature=youtu.be

So all in all, I'll have to sit and watch and study and evaluate the three videos for a total of 5 hours! Not to mention the added hours for reading related literature about the topics! And what's even more exciting is that I have 2 remaining days to do this! whoa!!!!

(the days were not a problem if I'm not as busy as I am now.)

BUT before you expect a bunch of complaints from me, read, understand and believe this first: I AM GRATEFUL AND SO HAPPY ABOUT THIS. Knowing that I have a lot of things to do, a lot of things to learn, and an opportunity to read some more for added knowledge is just way too exciting! I can't explain how happy I am right now. The pressure just intensify the happiness I am in at this moment! haha! I miss doing a lot of school stuff, not just go to school and kill the hours listening to ... whoever. This is exactly why I love our priest-professors because aside from their kindness, they are real good mentors and we really learn from them! No idle time, which leads to less tempting moments. :) I just love this day. I'm so excited to watch the videos! Thank God for this. :)) 

The story behind the song I've been listening all over again last night. :'(

When I was suicidal..

So what? Do you know what lies behind those cuts that I have? You shouldn't judge me by what you see, because you don't know anything ... 

Yeah, good thing no one asks how I am now, because I'm so tired of lying. 

The whole world says it's not true, but in fact, it is. It's not because I pity myself, but I'm only telling what the world shows me. And that is, it's better off without me.

ALWAYS. 

I can't take it anymore ... ~~~

Look beyond, and please understand, not judge. 

So that's why you've kept the keys .??!

to myself .....

I miss us, GA ... :'(

ALWAYS. :/

Just for tonight, please?

I knew it would happen. I told you. 

Just one time. I just want you to know that until now, it still hurts the same. . but no, I won't grab it if ever this wish would be granted. .. 

You won't even go to my funeral, I'm sure of that. Your fears stops you always. I hate how cowardly you act. That's not how I've known you ... 

Why would I? I would only hurt myself as much as you've hurt me. I loved you so much, I never ever wished to hurt you. 

... because it's hard to take it back as it is... 

That is what's happening right now. My life goes on ... ~~~

I wish I'd hear from you again. For at least once, my dear. ... 

OOPPPPSS!!! Pahabol mula kay Papa Jack ... :')

Hindi na baleng siya ang bumitaw basta alam mong wala kang pagkukulang.

Pag nagmahal ka. Umasa ka na masasaktan ka. Kase ngayon, bukod sa uso ang agawan at paramihan. Trending rin ang iwanan ng walang dahilan.

Yung umiiyak ka na sa sobrang sakit pero nagawa mo paring sabihin na: "Masaya ako para sa inyo"

isa sa pinakamalungkot na sitwasyon sa buhay ay yung gusto mo siyang ipaglaban pero pagsuko nalang ang tangi mong pagpipilian.

Mahirap isuko ang isang taong sobrang mahal mo. Pero mas mahirap ipaglaban ang isang taong hinihintay nalang ang pagsuko mo 


Ok ... enough for tonight. :/ SO fed uP! Sana bukas "wala na"  .... ~~~ (Joy Lee's magical hands)

A good thought before going to sleep ... ~~

It's a damn cold night ....

A few minutes before 2 AM. I'd better go to sleep or else ..... :( 

Am I not normal??

Procrastination AGAIN!

I was really about to do my assignment for tomorrow, but I don't know what exactly I have to do so I end up answering non-sense but very cute questions. I don't regret doing it though. I need a break just for a while. I am planning to do my assignment maybe later or tomorrow morning. :) 

Purple : 10 Facts About My Room

1. My room is located at the highest place in our house, just before our roof. It serves like an attic actually.

2. No one can stand in my room, it requires any person to just sit.

3. Though its height is less, my room is wide enough to accommodate at least 5 people in it.

4. My room only contains a bed, a pillow, an electric fan, a light bulb, a personal box with lock, a book, my puzzles and my countless bags.

5. I don't sleep in my room for like 3 months already, because it's so hot up there.

6. I clean my room regularly even though I don't sleep there.

7. I has no stairs. I'll have to use a table and a chair to get in there.

8. Its floor is made of wood and I love it. 

9. Unfortunately, my room doesn't have any windows.

10. It is the best room in our house on rainy days.

Blue : 9 Facts About My Family

1. I have parents who loves each other dearly.

2. I have an elder brother that is somewhere in Mindanao with his girlfriend and their kid.

3. I have a younger sister who is very pretty and so smart that she's actually a scholar of De La Salle Zobel.

4. I'm so proud of my family and I love them so much!

5. My family is one reason why I am still alive as of now.

6. We are one big happy family, just drop my brother in this case.

7. We love our brother even though he doesn't love us.

8. Our family is close to God and has one faith.

9. My family is a precious gift from God.