It's a damn cold night ....

A few minutes before 2 AM. I'd better go to sleep or else ..... :( 

Am I not normal??

Procrastination AGAIN!

I was really about to do my assignment for tomorrow, but I don't know what exactly I have to do so I end up answering non-sense but very cute questions. I don't regret doing it though. I need a break just for a while. I am planning to do my assignment maybe later or tomorrow morning. :) 

Purple : 10 Facts About My Room

1. My room is located at the highest place in our house, just before our roof. It serves like an attic actually.

2. No one can stand in my room, it requires any person to just sit.

3. Though its height is less, my room is wide enough to accommodate at least 5 people in it.

4. My room only contains a bed, a pillow, an electric fan, a light bulb, a personal box with lock, a book, my puzzles and my countless bags.

5. I don't sleep in my room for like 3 months already, because it's so hot up there.

6. I clean my room regularly even though I don't sleep there.

7. I has no stairs. I'll have to use a table and a chair to get in there.

8. Its floor is made of wood and I love it. 

9. Unfortunately, my room doesn't have any windows.

10. It is the best room in our house on rainy days.

Blue : 9 Facts About My Family

1. I have parents who loves each other dearly.

2. I have an elder brother that is somewhere in Mindanao with his girlfriend and their kid.

3. I have a younger sister who is very pretty and so smart that she's actually a scholar of De La Salle Zobel.

4. I'm so proud of my family and I love them so much!

5. My family is one reason why I am still alive as of now.

6. We are one big happy family, just drop my brother in this case.

7. We love our brother even though he doesn't love us.

8. Our family is close to God and has one faith.

9. My family is a precious gift from God.

Green : 8 Facts About My Body

1. I have 2 dimples and a lot of pimple scars on my face.

2. I have obvious scars on my left arm.

3. I have huge thighs and very annoying large legs.

4. I have a lot of insect bite marks only on my left leg.

5. My tummy just got larger now that I'm single compared to its size when I was taken.

6. I am not tall. Not even reached at least 5 ft.

7. I have small feet sized 4 1/2.

 8. I hate my body so much that I want to change a lot about it.

Yellow : 7 Facts About My Childhood

1. I don't remember much of it.

2. If it never happened, I wouldn't be where and what I am now.

3. I've spent most of my childhood years in Bacoor, Cavite

4. I studied in a convent with Franciscan Sisters.

5. All I know is my childhood is better than my life now.

6. It's one part of my life I want to be back.

7. Nothing beats childhood.

Orange : 6 Facts About My Hometown

1. It never changed, still Las Piñas City since birth.

2. It has its never dying campaign, Clean and Green.

3. It doesn't have nice parks and very inviting recreational places but it has a lot of malls around.

4. It seems not improving unlike the other cities but  I love it as it is.

5. It's not as popular as the other cities, because no huge crimes were ever publicized here.

6. It is large enough that I haven't been on all of its barangays in my 20 years of residency.

Red : 5 Facts About My Best Friend

1. We became friends 3 years ago.

2. We fell in love with each other.

3. We broke up, just last December.

4. He doesn't exist anymore.

5. I told you, he doesn't exist anymore.

Pink : 4 Facts About My Parents

1. They are extremely hardworking individuals I've known.

2. They are God-fearing and are faithful Roman Catholics.

3. They love us so much and never fail to make us feel it.

4. They are simply perfect creations of God and I'm so blessed for having them.

White : 3 Facts About My Personality

1. I am hot tempered. I sometimes consider myself as Bipolar, but it is not clinically proven yet.

2. I am very adventurous. I love traveling and trying different things.

3. I am quiet. Silence is is my best friend.

Grey: Two Facts About My Favorite Things

1. My favorite things are the so-called 'BOOKS' and 'BAGS'.

2. I have two rooms full of each.

Black : 1 fact about the person I like

He knows the whole lyrics and is good in singing "We Didn't Start The Fire" by Billy Joel.

Oh Hooray for today! :D

Ok. So I just saw this photo and I was like, "yeah, very timely."

I survived. It's been 6 months and 18 days since that very hurtful day. After December 22, I was like a zombie walking in the street, an insane woman who doesn't know what to do with herself anymore. But now, here I am. Still not beautiful but more of a picture of a heartbreak survivor. I'm so proud I've been through it. I mean, if it didn't happen, I won't appreciate life as wonderful as it is today.

I admit that I still remember everything. E-V-E-R-Y-S-I-N-G-L-E-T-H-I-N-G. But it doesn't affect me gravely anymore. It sinks in when I suddenly thought about it, I still cry when I cannot really handle the pain left, but the good thing is, it rarely happens. If before it hits me every second of everyday, now once a month is just enough. :)

God has blessed me even though I have sinned a lot. That's so wonderful about Him. Even if we are at our darkest side, He still wants us to feel that He loves us. I would forever thank God for all the experiences I've been through and all the lessons I've learned from it. I made me stronger. And I would forever be thankful to God for loving me in spite of my every bad deeds. 

I survived. God helped me survive.

God has blessed my friends and I love it! :)

I'm just waaaayyyy toooooo happy! It's because upon opening Facebook, I saw a lot of good things, not just mere 'chismis' and trash posts. :D 

One of my classmates / good friend from elementary just passed the Nursing Licensure Exam and now, she's a certified Registered Nurse! Another is my classmate / good friend as well in high school, same story. Add to the spice the other past news but still gladdens my heart so much such as my classmate / good friend in high school just had her 2nd baby girl. Another classmate from my previous school in college, just had her 2nd baby boy. Isn't that a nice thing?! And those of my classmates before in college who already graduated that just had their jobs. Wow! God is so amazing! There are a lot more reasons to thank Him each day!

I don't know why. It's not me who experienced those triumphs, but I just feel so happy. It just make me so proud that for once in my life, I have known them and I've been with them. :) 

I know that most if not all of them may have already forgotten me, or if not, maybe I've very seldom crossed their minds. I don't even know if they still had our memories in their hearts. Well, no matter what, I'm still happy and so proud of them. Knowing that those people who became a part of my life has a good life is something my heart is so grateful about. 

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Thank you Lord, for blessing my friends. They were a good part of my life, and I'm so happy that despite of us not seeing each other for a long, long time, knowing that they're happy with their lives, it's enough for me to keep myself calm. :) Thank you so much Lord! May you continue to bless all of the people especially those who are close to my heart! ♥ Amen. 

Random thoughts. ~

I'm sorry about my recent posts on wanting to go to 'kinky places'. Sorry doesn't mean I'd delete it and never do it again, mind you. What I mean with my sorry is, sorry if it offends you in some ways and sorry because I know it would change your impression about me (you'd most probably think that I am a lustful woman whatsoever). 

You know, I want to be there because I want to learn more. Like since I was in high school, I really wished I could take up Sexology as my course (which a friend told me needs a Psychology course before you take up that major, and well, I doubt it if Philippines has such courses offered.) Anyway, it's not because I'm a sex addict or a nymphomaniac. I JUST WANT TO LEARN MORE ABOUT THE SUBJECT. With plans of applying it someday, maybe, but most of all, I'd like my mind to be more open and understand why many people love such earthly things.

Well, I don't have to explain everything. No matter how I defend my side, if someone who'd ever read this would want to think I'm not the woman I am supposed to be in, I can't do anything about it. No matter what we do, either positive or negative, people will always throw their judgments on you (as if you were asking for it, huh?!)

I do believe that the more you know about something, the lesser you'd be thinking it was dirty. :) That's why I really want to expose myself with the act of sex, the world of the LGBT community, the mishaps of mistresses, and so on. Real stuff. Things that most people do not understand. I think education was invented so that we could expand our understanding, not discriminate people and judge them. Education does not mean you are entitled to put an eye on someone, not unless it is what your education have thought you. And well, as for me, this is how I educate myself. 

If you don't have anything good to say, just stay away from my blog  and mind your own thing!

ooohhhh... la .. la... (I'd love to go here! Added to my lists! :*)

I am determined to go to SLEEP!!!!

This week had been very tiring for me yet very fulfilling. I was able to do a lot of things though I was sometimes deprived of sleep, just like now. :/ I find it very interesting doing "high school stuff". I don't think I will be missing school when I graduate, because with my lazy sister, I will forever be a student! LOL

It isn't bad though. At least I'm still learning and it helps me recall every lesson I've been through before .... which is really important, I just realized. Before, I always keep on asking myself what the hell all of those terms would do with my life, but as I grew older, I keep on asking myself why I don't remember those things. Because I need it now. Really. I mean I need algebra and physics and economics because they're still essential in some ways ... if you still remember them, you'd never look like an idiot trying to answer a child's question about his/her assignment, seriously. You know, it's not only about what we will benefit but what we can make out of it. Like, if we just try to study so hard and remember every single detail in our books, well, we could make a future with bright individuals as our descendants. Wouldn't it be nice?

Anyhow, my post isn't really about that. I want to sleep. That's all. haha! I've been awake for like 12 hours. Pimples ahead! wew :/

Good morning everyone! :D

p.s. 
I guess I'll have to take some sleeping pill. It's because, whenever I crossed 3AM without sleeping, I will end up awake for the rest of the day. I don't want that to happen, because I really feel my body needs to rest. wew. I've got to have a good sleep because I'll be doing my essay today. God bless to me, and to you as well! :))

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I'm not rich but ... I prefer a book more than anything else.

So ... we need a book on one of our class and our professor suggested that it would be more economical if we will just photocopy the entire book. The expense would be lesser for like... more than 50% if I'm  not mistaken. So they were all asking who would like the photocopy. I have no problem with that, but I don't have a dilemma with buying a book either. It's just the same, yes, but books are better right?! And  if you can buy a book, why stop yourself? A classmate told me that I was rich that's why I'd like to have a book. No, I'm not rich, but I prefer a book more than anything else. It's a lot more economical (for me) because I won't be able to throw it away (I'm sure of that, though I don't trash hand-outs too) and besides, it's good to see a book displayed in my own little library.. :)) And, it's an opportunity to buy a book, so why not, right?!