After a very long time, I stumbled again in this blog. 

I miss posting. It's been months since I've last visited and shared my thoughts in here. I became very busy the past few weeks ..... with someone. :)) And that hindered me in opening my account again. 

But now, I'm here. And well, that is what's important.

I admit that I am not feeling very well right now. It's sad but I only remember my blog whenever sadness tries to eat me up just like now. But I would not share about the lonely things. Since this is the first time after a long time I've posted again, I would post something that caught my interest tonight.

Just as I was surfing the internet, I happen to open a page about Yoko Ono's 'art'. I'm sorry if I will not be able to elaborate it, but the thing is, Yoko Ono's photo which shows her old age caught me.I wasn't really interested though, for I didn't really know who she is. All I have in mind is that she's the second wife of John Lennon, a great musical icon. Am I right? Well, that's what my Beatle-fanatic-friend told me. :)

SO I searched for her name and have a glimpsed of her photos. She's not that beautiful in my eyes, but when I looked at her pictures, I realized her beauty lies behind. She's pretty in her own way. 

Next, I decided to search for her pictures with John Lennon, and that was what strikes me tonight. 

I didn't know what's with it, but when I saw their pictures together, I felt electricity inside. I love looking at them. They seem to be very happy together. I am not really fond of taking a look at a couple's photo, but theirs is different. I felt the love that lies in each one of them. I may sound funny right now, but I fell in love with both of them. hahaha! I mean, I like seeing their photos. I can't explain it, it's just true and amazing. That's when I felt that they really loved each other. I don't often feel this way, really.

They are good couple to look at. I may not know them but I like them together. I felt like I want to be Yoko Ono and I want to have my John Lennon. :)) 

Oh well, I wish I could find a love like that. Sincere, Realistic and True. 

I LOVE HIM, SO MUCH IT HURTS .........

Relationships fall and whither because eventually someone stops trying and it doesn't feel the same. The first couple of months or even years it may be the best thing you ever wished for, but eventually someone loses feelings, gets to busy, or doesn't even bother to try. You know why? Because they're comfortable. The beginning is all about the chase. Can you keep up? If you can then you'll get the hang of it and then you won’t want to try anymore. You aren't afraid to lose them because they're yours. Arguing leads to fighting and it just gets worse from there. It all flashes by so fast. So, cherish what you have.

So far so good naman ang aking buhay. Isang buwan at kalahati na akong di nakakaranas ng matinding depresyon. Umiyak man ako nitong nakaraang mga araw pero hindi na lumagpas pa ng 2 araw. Hindi rin sumagi sa aking isip na maglaslas o ano pa man. Magaan ang aking pakiramdam, hindi tulad noon na parang araw araw akong may problema. 

Siguro kasi ngayon natutunan kong mas i-appreciate ang mga magagandang bagay na nangyayari sa buhay ko. At ang pinakamahalaga ko pang natutunan ngayon ay ang wag pansinin ang mga taong naninira at gumugulo (sa di magandang paraan) sa buhay ko. Alam mo yun. Ang sarap ng feeling na malaya ka sa galit at poot. Na paggising mo sa umaga, magdadasal ka hindi dahil sasabihin mo kay Lord na natatakot kang harapin ang panibagong araw ng buhay kundi dahil magpapasalamat ka sa bagong pagkakataon para lumigaya at sumamba sa kanya. Na papasok ako sa paaralan ng di kinakabahan at naiinis sa mga taong nakikita ko, bagkus, excited pa kong makipagkwentuhan sa kanila at nakangiti akong papasok sa aming classroom. Na sa loob ng room eh hindi ako nakakaranas ng matinding pagod at hindi yung para akong may sakit. Yung lalabas ako ng paaralan na masaya at may ngiti sa labi. Na uuwi akong hindi pagod. Na may pagkakataon pa akong makipag-usap sa pamilya ko. Na di ako nagmamadaling gawin ang mga bagay dahil alam kong may sapat akong oras para gawin ang lahat ng yun .. di ako pressured. Na matutulog ako sa gabi, magdadasal na hindi puro hinanakit at sama ng loob ang isi-share ko kay God kundi kung gaano ako ka-thankful dahil binless niya ako ng sobra. Na sa pagpikit ng mata ko, walang mabigat sa dibdib ko kaya diretso ang tulog ko. 

Alam mo yun? Ang sarap ng pakiramdam na maging positibo sa buhay. Hindi ko naman sinasabing talagang laging positive ako. Sabi ko nga, ngayon ko pa lang ito natutunan at natututunan. May mga pagkakataon pa rin na nagiging nega ako, pero normal na bahagi naman yun ng buhay. Kasi kung overly positive naman hindi na rin maganda. Tsaka, hindi ko naman sinasabing wala na kong mga problema. May mga pagkakataon pa ring parang pagod na pagod na ko, na anlungkot ko, na ansama ng loob ko, na galit ako ... pero mas nami-minimize na yung mga ganung scenario ngayon. At kung magkaganun man, hindi na bayolente ang mga reaksyon ko.

HINDI NA GANITO NGAYON. :)))))

Ito ang nagagawa siguro ng may inspirasyon (naks naman! ako na talaga) at may masayang pamilya. Epekto din ito ng di pagpansin sa mga bagay na hindi naman makakatulong sakin para mag-grow. Basta ito lang masasabi ko. Ang sarap mabuhay. Kung noon gusto ko ng mamatay, ngayon ... hindi naman ako natatakot mamatay pero mas ok pa rin ang extended ka ... mas marami pang magagawa at pwedeng maranasan. :)))

The first to apologize is the bravest. 
The first to forgive is the strongest. 
The first to forget is the happiest.

When we feel being poisoned by stress, pressure, pain and failures: the best ANTIDOTE is to PRAY. Nothing more, nothing less...:)

Whatever the situation may be.. Don't ever be cold to someone you care about.. Indifference and unanswerable questions hurts more... than angry words...

So me! LOL

Jesus and Satan competed on the
computer.
They started typing. They did reports, e-mails,
attachment s and downloads.
But before the time was up,
Brownout came!
Satan cursed.
Jesus sighed.
When electricit y was back,
Satan lost everything he had
done.
But Jesus started
printing all His files.
Satan shouted:
YOU CHEATED!
Jesus just smile. because He did what Satan
didn't know.
HE SAVES. :)

I love my relationship with my BED. No commitment needed. We just sleep together EVERY NIGHT. ♥

All Has Its Purpose

Me: God, can I ask You a question?

God: Sure

Me: Promise You won't get mad

God: I promise

Me: Why did You let so much stuff happen to me today?

God: What do u mean?

Me: Well, I woke up late

God: Yes

Me: My car took forever to start

God: Okay

Me: at lunch they made my sandwich wrong & I had to wait

God: Huummm

Me: On the way home, my phone went DEAD, just as I picked up a call

God: All right

Me: And on top of it all off, when I got home ~I just want to soak my feet in my new foot massager & relax. BUT it wouldn't work!!! Nothing went right today! Why did You do that?

God: Let me see, the death angel was at your bed this morning & I had to send one

of My Angels to battle him for your life. I let you sleep through that

Me (humbled): OH

GOD: I didn't let your car start because there was a drunk driver on your route that would have hit you if you were on the road.

Me: (ashamed)

God: The first person who made your sandwich today was sick & I didn't want you to catch what they have, I knew you couldn't afford to miss work.

Me (embarrassed):Okay

God: Your phone went dead bcuz the person that was calling was going to give false witness about what you said on that call, I didn't even let you talk to them so you would be covered.

Me (softly): I see God

God: Oh and that foot massager, it had a shortage that was going to throw out all of the power in your house tonight. I didn't think you wanted to be in the dark.

Me: I'm Sorry God

God: Don't be sorry, just learn to Trust Me.... in All things , the Good & the bad.

Me: I will trust You.

God: And don't doubt that My plan for your day is Always Better than your plan.

Me: I won't God. And let me just tell you God, Thank You for Everything today.

God: You're welcome child. It was just another day being your God and I Love looking after My Children.

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I remembered last week, I was a bit upset when a friend of mine wasn't able to meet up with me as we have planned. In a text message, he said that, "All has it's purpose". I absolutely agree with this, but that time, I thought he was just using those words to calm me down. But then, as I have read the above conversation a while ago, I realized that God is really good. That He has wonderful plans for us. We may have planned a lot of things which for us are the best things but then, God has a lot more sensible aims for us.