Hello Blog!

Wow. Sa buwan na ito wala pa akong masyadong naipo-post. Una't huling post ko e nung January 2 pa. LOL

Ano nga ba nangyari sakin nitong mga nakaraang araw na di ako nagpaparamdam dito?? 

Wala, masaya lang kasi ang buhay ko. At masyado akong busy kaya pati yung paborito kong pampalipas oras na pag-i-internet e nakaligtaan ko na. Ang galing nga e. Hindi naman sa sinasabi kong produktibong mga bagay ang ginawa ko .. actually hindi rin pero mas ok siya kesa sa pag-upo at pag-e-emote dito sa internet. Pero ngayon .. I'm back. Mukang mapapadalas nanaman ang pagbisita ko dito. 

Ang blog ko ay isang bagay na tinatakbuhan ko kapag malungkot ako. Pansin ko lang. Tuwing mag-e-emote ako ang sipag-sipag kong mag-share .. pero pag masasayang bagay ang nagaganap sa akin ni di ko maikwento rito. Ansama e no. Well, yun naman kasi ang purpose ko nung gawin at simulan ko ang blog na to. Nandito ito dahil ito ang isa sa mga paraan para mai-release ko ang emosyong di ko naman pwedeng i-express sa totoong mundo. Isa pa, dito sa internet feeling ko andami kong katulad (totoo naman), andami kong karamay at pakiramdam ko maraming nakakaintindi sakin. Hay, buti pa ang blog, hindi nagsasawa sa kaartehan ko. Malamang, kasi wala naman siyang magagawa kung ano ang i-post ko .. ako ang nagmamanipula sa kanya. 

Hmm .. andito na ulit ako .. oo, dahil nag-e-emote nanaman ako. hahai ... parang naiirita nanaman ako sa paligid .. ayoko nanamang kumausap ng kahit na sino. hahahaha! 

Pero sana ... sa mga susunod na araw .. yung mga ipopost ko e maganda at may kwenta na. Kaya ko kaya? Parang hindi, ako pa... e puro walang kakwenta kwentang bagay ang naiisip ko. Hahaha. Hayaan ko na nga .. at least may nasasabi. LOL

Ewan ko ba. Mas namimiss ko ang isang tao hindi dahil matagal kaming di nagkita o nagkasama .. mas namimiss ko kapag magkasama lang kami kani-kanina tapos maghihiwalay na. Alam mo yun. Dun sa point na hiwalay na kayo ... dun bumubuhos ang extreme na emosyon ng pagka-miss. Na kung pwede mo lang siyang balikan gagawin mo. Na kung pwede mo lang sabihin na wag muna siyang umalis o wag na lang kayong maghiwalay gagawin mo. Na kung pwede lang sana .. habambuhay na kayong magkasama .... gagawin mo. Alam mo yun. Kaya nga madalas, pag ako may kasama tapos goodbye na, tapos na ang oras ... kailangan ng umuwi sa bahay ... hindi ko nililingon ang taong yun. Nalulungkot ako. Mas ok pang wag ko siyang makitang palayo. Hay. Grabe. Pero ngayon meron akong isang taong namimiss .. ay marami naman pala .. pero siya ang pinaka namimiss ko ngayon. Haha! Magkasama lang kami kahapon pero .. wala, sobrang bitin. Grabe. Feeling ko kahit whole day kong makasama ang taong yun e mamimiss ko pa rin. Hay. Sana makita ko siya bukas. May plano kami e, pero syempre hindi ko alam kung matutuloy at ayokong paasahin ang sarili ko. Pero gustong gusto ko na talaga siyang makita at makasama. Hay. ... Nababaliw na ko. hahahahaha! Antok lang to. :)

Nakakabitin talaga. Ang sarap pang matulog buong araw. Ang sarap pang mag-stay sa bahay. Ang sarap pa ng buhay na di ka nagka-cramming o kinakabahan kung may assignment o exam kinabukasan. Ang sarap ng buhay na di ka nagmamadali dahil baka ma-late ka. Hay. Mamaya ... wala .. may pasok na. Stress nanaman. Badtrip all over nanaman. Pero sana hindi ganito no. Ok ayokong i-expect na ganito. Dahil new year na .. siguro naman mas ok na. At dahil nasimulan ko ang 2012 ng masaya .. siguro naman, at sana naman ay good vibes ako diba. Naman. Hay! Buhay! May pasok nanaman. No choice. Well, 3 months na lang naman .. mabilis na lang ! hahahahaha!

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

THANK YOU 2011...

For all the times i had to go through the pain of losing someone i love.
For all the beautiful moments i cherished with my FAMILY and FRIENDS..
For new friendship,new perspectives,new horizon.
For the worse and painful feeling of loneliness..
For the amazing feeling of loving and being loved.
For all the new changes you brought in me.
For all the times i cried and became stronger.
For the feeling of being rejected and taken for granted..
For all the beautiful moments spent with HIM.
For the fact that he knew what he was doing to me but yet didnt wanna do anything about it.
For all the times i had to stop caring about myself and my feelings just to make sure he is happy.
For all the times i missed my loved ones who are far away from me.
THANK YOU 2011 for giving me a new meaning of life and for making me explore my inner strength and beauty..
you are certainly one of the years am not gonna forget..
NOW LETS JUST WAIT AND HOPE FOR A BRIGHT AND PEACEFUL AND HAPPY 2012 :)

Girls are taught a lot of stuff growing up. If a guy punches you he likes you. Never try to trim your own bangs and someday you will meet a wonderful guy and get your very own happy ending. Every movie we see, Every story we're told implores us to wait for it, the third act twist, the unexpected declaration of love, the exception to the rule. But sometimes we're so focused on finding our happy ending we don't learn how to read the signs. How to tell from the ones who want us and the ones who don't, the ones who will stay and the ones who will leave. And maybe a happy ending doesn't include a guy, maybe... it's you, on your own, picking up the pieces and starting over, freeing yourself up for something better in the future. Maybe the happy ending is... just... moving on. Or maybe the happy ending is this, knowing after all the unreturned phone calls, broken-hearts, through the blunders and misread signals, through all the pain and embarrassment you never gave up hope

At least for me, having an intense physical attraction to a guy does not happen that often. So when I find a guy that I am really attracted to, it is hard for me to break it off if it isn’t working. I offer him many chances to get it right because I know it will be really hard to find someone again that I feel that kind of attraction to. Also when you are familiar and comfortable with someone it is hard to let that go, even if they aren’t right for you. I know that someday I will find someone that I am attracted to AND also treats me right.

Sometimes in life, you find a special friend. Someone who changes your life just by being part of it. Someone who makes you laugh until you can't stop. Someone who makes you believe that there really is good in the world. Someone who convinces you that there really is an unlocked door just waiting for you to open it. This is forever friendship. When you're down and the world seems dark and empty, your forever friend lifts you up in spirit and makes that dark and empty world suddenly seem bright and full. Your forever friend gets you through the hard times, the sad times and the confused times. If you turn and walk away, your forever friend follows. If you lose your way, your forever friend guides you and cheers you on. Your forever friend hold your hand and tells you that everything is going to be okay. And if you find such a friend, you feel happy and complete because you need not worry. You have a forever friend, and forever has no end.

HEART: mhl q tlga xa..

BRAIN: alm q, x0bra p nga db?

HEART: lm mu pla,bt plit mu p xang knkLmtn?
...
BRAIN: kc ayaw n ktang mxktan.

STOMACH: s s0bra m0ng pgm2hal,d kna kmkain.

EYES: pti aq npu2yat n..

LIVER: k0rek, pLgi k pNg uMi¡Nom, naAapek2han n kMe n kidNey.

LUNGS: aq dn nh2rPn ng huMinGa.

HEART:pXenxa n guYs ha...e2 tlga functi0n q e, aNg MAGMAHAL..

Thinking of you means "I miss you"
Holding your hand means "I like you"
Squeezing it means "I want to kiss you"
Putting my head on your shoulder means "Comfort me"
My hands on your waist means "Never let me go"
Biting my lip means "I'm jealous"
Staring into your eyes means "Do you love me?"
Winking means "I adore you"
Dreaming of you often means "You're someone special"
Being with you often means "I can't live without you"
And wearing your ring means "You're mine"

MARRIAGE.

That scary moment when you put a ring on your finger and can't get it off.

I don't know which is worse, keeping your love for someone a secret or telling them and risk being rejected.

Sabi ni “Peter Pan”

“when you think of happy thoughts you’ll fly.”

eh bakit pag iniisip kita.

I fall?

Makuha ka sa tingin. :)))

If you like someone, you don’t have to openly admit it.

Sometimes, it takes just one gaze to let that someone feel it.

Hindi pwedeng sakanya lang oras mo. May kaibigan siya, may pamilya siya. Kung tutuusin, umextra ka lang. 

#PapaJack

The 'I Love You' I have been waiting for.

Relationships that aren’t mutual are like ‘restricted’ love. You’re never free to just to love and enjoy it. You’re free to let your imagination and even your libido run wild, it’s just that it’s incredibly painful when you realize that you’ve far outpaced reality.You can be in love on your own but you actually can’t have a mutual relationship, one with love, care, trust, respect and shared values, on your own. Real, mutual love doesn’t have ‘buts’. You don’t need someone saying “I love you but…you know my situation” or “I love you but I can’t give you what you want” or even “I love you and we’ll always be friends but…” You want someone to say “I love you” – simplicity. After they say it, you continue about your life together, a life I might add that reflects that of two people who love each other mutually. You hug, you kiss, you make plans, those plans come to fruition but before you even make plans, you can even get on and enjoy the simple, normal things that make up the day to day.

Move on.

1 month passes - Cant eat, pain deep.

3 months pass - sleepless nights wondering what went wrong

6 months pass - Thinking if the other person has moved on

9 months pass - Crossing paths and realizing you are now the most familiar strangers

12 months pass - Life continues with nothing left but a trial of happy memories and a chapter completed