ready for retirement...

Kanina, mga kani-kanina lang,...aa hindi kanina pa pala...habang nagko-computer kami ng kapatid ko dito sa taas, may kumatok. Si Mama pala, pero nag-iisa siya. Sabi niya, bumagal daw ang takbo ng motor dun banda sa Greenfield School na nung una di ko pa na-gets kung saan. So pinaayos muna doon ni Papa. After namin kumain mga ilang minutes na matagal din...dumating si Papa..pagod na pagod. Gulat kami kasi walang tunog ng motor...yun pala... tinulak niya yung motor namin mula dun sa pagawaan hanggang bahay. Eh lintsak, napakalayo nun at marami pang 'ups and downs' bago makarating sa bahay.

Well, ayun usie ako ee...syempre naki-epal ako sa chikahan nila ni Mama about sa motor...nung una nagana pa siya...kaso nung pinagawa lalong yun di na umandar. Nakalungkot yung reaksyon ni Papa as in parang disappointed na ewan. Parang naiiyak na ewan. Kasi naman, una sa lahat, ayoko mang sabihin (dahil sabi nga nila dapat lagi mong sinasabi na may pera ka...) wala kaming pera. Hirap talaga ngayon. As in nararamdaman ko na ang epekto ng krisis...pati nga El Niño ee ramdam ko ee...

Hay nako...nalulungkot ako kanina habang pinagmamasdan ko si Papa, lalo na yung motor niya. 12 taon na kami nitong pinagsisilbihan. Oo, matagal na at pwede niyong sabihin na maaari na namin itong sindihan. Pero hindi. Ayoko. Nagkaroon na kami ng pangalawang motor na mas bago sa kanya noon pero yun pa ang naunang na-dispatsa namin.

Mahirap siyang palitan. Noong bago pa lang namin iyong nabili, kitang kita ko kung gaano kasaya si Papa. Iyon ang kauna-unahang sasakyang naipundar nila ni Mama mula sa pagtitinda.

First everything.

Dito natuto si Papa mag-motor. Ito ang naging bestfriend niya. Saan man siya magpunta, kasama niya ito. Napakalaki ng naitulong nito sa pamilya namin. Naaalala ko pa noon, napakalakas pa niya...parang si Papa. Pero ngayon....it's ready for retirement..

Kahit na ganon, ayoko pa rin siyang ibenta o palitan. I want it to stay. Actually, I still hope na maaayos pa yun. Sa dinami-dami na nitong pinagdaanan, ngayon pa siya susuko...naman diba! Sabi ko nga kanina kay Papa..kung yung mga kalansay ng mga motor nakilos pa...yun pa kaya na buo pa....

Nagpahinga lang sandali yun. Isipin ko na lang na nagkasakit siya...at gagaling din. Mabuti ang Diyos hindi lang sa mga tao kundi pati sa mga bagay. Alam kong papagalingin siya ni God.

Bukas, magcocommute si Papa sa pamamalengke. Gusto ko man siyang tulungan, hindi na rin kasi alam kong mas magiging hassle lang pag andun pa ko.

On the other hand, nakakadagdag lang to ng tampo kay Kuya kasi antamad niya...hindi man lang magkusang tumulong sa amin. Nakakainis.

The hell...I was shocked!

While practicing at a friend's house for the presentation tomorrow in our English subject, I glanced at my cellular phone and found a text message from someone who's number is not saved on my phonebook. As I read the message, I was shocked to see the name of Zafirah in the message. It says there:

El0e..uzta..


E2 new # q..


GM

Zafirah
(her real name actually, but I have to use her code name for security purposes)






~>Life is a bitch, Then you'll die <~



I did not understand the last line but it doesn't matter for me. What matters is....the message. But I doubt if it's really her...but she's the only Zafirah I knew. Well, I really want to reply but I preferred not because I still don't want to open a communication and then again I'll end up being the bad one. You know...like what happened the last time we chat on the net. Well, if she really forgave me, then that's good. But for now. I think I should have to change myself first before attaching myself to them again. I hate it when I make someone feel bad...but then I just can't control it. I am designed to annoy people. Ha.....

I hate it when bad things happen at the end of a perfect day...I love it when perfect things happen at the end of a ruined day...

I was disappointed about the happenings today...but one thing changed my mood. I was really happy upon arriving in our house. I came home at 9:30 in the evening, and I expect my parents and my younger sister preparing to sleep and finished eating meals. I am also expecting terrifying questions from my mother why the hell I came home very late.

But then, God is good. He doesn't want me to sleep this night without experiencing another good reason why I should still live.

My family waited for me to arrive before eating the dinner. They really wanted to celebrate the success of mine in the admission exam at the College of Divine Wisdom and the awards my sister received (she's the 2nd honor in their class...she really made me proud.!!). I was touched for that fact that like what Ate Shell said, I have people around me who love me so much..I just don't see or allow myself to see them.

Well, I really enjoyed eating with them. It was the best part of my day. That was a very unforgettable moment in my life. The Sr. Pedro (whole roasted chicken) and the Red Ribbon Chocolate Cake is the most delectable food I ate today. I love it. I love this day.

I THANK GOD FOR THIS DAY.

Signature!!!

Wooohooo!!! may signature ako....ayan o...see?? ok ba??? Pangit no...minadali kasi ee...yaan niyo gagawa ako ng bago pag nagka-time na ko...as for now yan muna gagamitin ko kasi busy pa ko...tsaka ok naman siya kahit papano diba...hehe...Lady Kyu...kyot!hahahaha!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Ang cute ng hearts...feeling ko tuloy babaeng babae ako...kaso sana pala yung ibang style na lang pinili ko para mas mukhang signature....mas pangit mas maganda diba... (ano daw???) hahaha!!! Nakakatamad naman...niaantok na ko...tulog na nga ko...geh geh..babush!!!

yabang mo te!!!! selos tuloy ako!!!! amp ka!!!!

Hayun o..sa totoo lang inaantok na talaga ako..naka-idlip na nga ako e...pero pinipilit kong ibuka ang mata ko makapag-post lang dito..may chika kasi ko!!!!!hahahaha!!

Diba kahapon sabi ko last day ko ng makikita si crush ko. E kanina alam mo yun si Taray Queen tinamad siyang gawin yung project naming powerpoint. Tapos pagdating sa Lroom nalaman niyang hindi makakaag-exam pag wala nun. Akala ko mapapanindigan na niyang tamad siya di naman pala kaya. Kaya yun ako ayun sinamahan ko siyang hanapin yung hinayupak na may hawak ng flash drive na kung nasaan yung ginawa naming powerpoint presentation para sana sa english namin nung midterm. Kahit na gusto ko na talagang mag-exam...kailangan ko uling magsakripisyo. haha.

Edi ayun. as usual mapaglaro ang tadhana, nagkasalisi kami nung may hawak ng flash drive. So binalikan niya yun sa school. Sabi ko papuntahin na lang..e ayaw so pumunta siya...ayoko ng bumalik ng school kasi ang layo...ayun antagal kong nag-antay...ambagal talagang kumilos nung Taray Queen na yun...di man lang naisip na ako mag-eexam pa...duh!!

Ayun tinulungan ko siya...tapos habang ginagawa namin yun naisip ko..."shet, malamang sa malamang hindi ako makakapag-exam ngayon,,..magkikita pa kami next week ni crush ko..." at buong kilig akong humagikhik. Akala tuloy ni Taray pinagtatawanan ko siya.

Wala lang...hindi ko alam kung sasaya ako...habang pabalik na kami ng school nung natapos na kami...ewan ko ba...basta!

Tapos yun umabot pa siya sa oras..hindi siya na-minusan....(daya nga e...tingnan mo yun aa..ako nagkanda puyat-puyat para matapos ng maaga powerpoint ko tapos siya instant tapos wala ok pa...haizt! LIFE'S NOT FAIR NANAMAN!!!)

Tapos yun pina-check na niya. Naiinis ako kay Taray...ang yabag masyado!!! paulit ulit niyang sinasabi hanggang nakauwi na kami na lagi na lang daw sinasabi sa kanya ni crush ko na "it's quiet interesting...!!" tuwing may sina-submit daw siya. Gaga ba siya ano pa bang sinubmit namin bukod dun??? pauso!!! kainis!! Ayoko sanang magsalita ng di maganda kasi love ko yun si Taray kasi mabait siya saken minsan kaso kasi dito ko na lang ilalabas lahat diba...ayun nga...ang yabang!!!!!!!

Selos ako! Talaga! Gusto ko kasi ako lang mapansin ni crush ko ee..hahahaha!!!joke lang.

Naisip ko nga..."sayo sinabi 'it's quite interesting', saken 'very interesting'...mas ok yun.."....kaso nung hinanap ko ang meaning ng quite at very ito ang lumabas...

QUITE

1. (adv) to the greatest extent; completely; "you''re quite right"; "she was quite alone"; "was quite mistaken"; "quite the opposite"; "not quite finished"; "did not quite make it"

2. (adv) to a degree (not used with a negative); "quite tasty"; "quite soon"; "quite ill"; "quite rich"

3. (adv) of an unusually noticeable or exceptional or remarkable kind (not used with a negative); "her victory was quite something"; "she''s quite a girl"; "quite a film"; "quite a walk"; "we''ve had quite an afternoon"

4. (adv) actually or truly or to an extreme; "was quite a sudden change"; "it''s quite the thing to do"; "quite the rage"; "Quite so!"

http://wordhut.com/definitions/quite.htm

VERY

1. (adv) used as intensifiers; `real'' is sometimes used informally for `really''; `rattling'' is informal; "she was very gifted"; "he played very well"; "a really enjoyable evening"; "I''m real sorry about it"; "a rattling good yarn"

2. (adv) precisely so; "on the very next page"; "he expected the very opposite"

http://wordhut.com/?search=very


Kainis!!! Tingnan niyo mas ok yung meaning ng quite sa very... T_T
Nakakalungkot..mas na-appreciate niya yung kay Taray kahit di pa niya napapanood...kakaselos talaga...!!!!

Hay...wala na...ayoko na talaga kay crush ko...ayoko na..hai,..

E hindi naman magagawa ni Taray yun kung hindi ko tinuro sa kanya kung paano...tsaka 2007 gamit niya kaya mas maganda ang features...e ako kinailangan kong ilimita sa 2003 kasi nag-present ako s Lroom..pota!....buti pa siya send na lang sa email..kainis. Kainis talaga. Bat kaya ganun no may mga tao talagang pinapaburan lagi ng tadhana...

Naiinis talaga ako...

Take note:

Hindi man lang nagpasalamat si Taray Queen ever since. Selfish na mayabang pa. Feeling niya rin kasi napakatalino niya,,,....amp!!!

I hate this day!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ok na sige na matutulog na ko...

Naaawa na kasi ako sa sarili ko..para na kong adik sa laki ng eyebags ko. latang lata na katawan ko pero kasi inspired ako kaya ayun ganado pa rin. Hirap talaga pag ganitong may tama ako sa isang tao e. amp!

Sige good night..!! Bukas ulit!!!!

ayoko pa!!!!!!!!!!!

Ayoko pang matulog!!!!!!!!!sarap mag-type!!!!!!!feel na feel ko infairness...pano kaya ko ng mag-type ng di masyadong natingin sa keyboard. haha.

niaantok na ko pero madami pa kong gustong ikwento..

...kaso kasi maaga akong papasok bukas kasi baka at malamang sa malamang eh yun na ang huli naming pagkikita ni crush ko (except na lang pag dinalaw ko pa siya sa 'Lroom'). Hay, di ko na nga pala siya crush no. hahahaha. Siguro bukas pag nakita ko yun matatawa ako. Ang post ko nga sa fb ko e "papasok ako ng maaga bukas kasi last day ko na siyang makikita". Parang tanga talaga. Tapos nung nakaraang gabi ata yun yung initials naman niya post ko. Grabe parang tanga. Hayaan mo na crush lang naman. Tsaka tapos na my gosh!hahaha!!!he's married (period).

ulol

Hay nako kanina pa ko mukhang tanga....alam mo yun..na-eexcite akong makita kung nag-reply na si crush ko sa email...pero wala. Tapos naisip ko kanina habang nakahiga ako sa kama na i-search ko kaya kung may fb siya...kaso naisip ko pano kung may picture sila ng asawa niya dun edi hurt ako...ayun nawala na feelings ko di ko na siya crush. parang tanga lang.

10 powerful ways to deal with anger.. (Sri Chinmoy Inspiration)

1. When you are angry say nothing.

If we speak in anger we will definitely aggravate the situation and quite likely hurt the feelings of others. If we speak in anger we will find that people respond in kind, creating a spiral of negative anger. If we can remain outwardly silent it gives time for the emotion of anger to leave us.

“When angry count to ten before you speak. If very angry, count to one hundred. “

- Thomas Jefferson

2. Be indifferent to those who seek to make us angry.

Some people may unfortunately take a malicious pleasure in trying to make you mad. However, if we can feel indifferent to them and their words; if we feel it is beyond our dignity to even acknowledge them, then their words and actions will have no effect. Also, if we do not respond in any way to their provocation, they will lose interest and not bother us in the future.

3. Use reason to stop anger.

When we feel anger coming to the fore try to take a step back and say to yourself “This anger will not help me in any way. This anger will make the situation worse.” Even if part of us remains angry our inner voice is helping us to distance our self from the emotion of anger.

4. Look kindly upon Others.

Another visualisation, suggested by spiritual teacher Paramhansa Yogananda, is to see the anger-rousing agent as a 5 year old child. If you think of the other person as a helpless 5 year old child your compassion and forgiveness will come to the fore. If your baby brother accidentally stabbed you, you would not feel anger and desire to retaliate. Instead, you would just feel he is just too young to know any better. This exercise may be particularly useful for close members of the family who at times evoke your anger.

5. Value Peace more than anger.

If we value peace of mind as our most important treasure we will not allow anger to remain in our system. As Sri Chinmoy says:

“You may have every right to be angry with someone, but you know that by getting angry with him you will only lose your precious peace of mind..”

6. Always try to understand those who are cross.

Don’t worry about feeling the need to defend yourself from their criticisms. If you can remain detached and calm they may begin to feel guilty about venting their anger on you. Inspired by your example of calmness, they will seek subconsciously to do the same.

7. Focus on Something Completely Different.

Suppose someone has done something to make you angry. Think about something which will make you happy. The best antidote to negativity is to focus on the positive.

8. Breathe Deeply.

The simple act of breathing deeply will help considerably with removing anger.

9. Meditation.

Practise meditation regularly to bring your inner peace to the fore. If we can have an inner access to our inner peace we will be able to draw upon this during testing times. – How to Meditate

10. Smile

When we smile we defuse many negative situations. To smile is offer goodwill to others. Smiling costs nothing but can effectively defuse tense situations.

Photo credit: Ranjit Swanson, Sri Chinmoy Centre Galleries

ayoko!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

May crush ako. Pero ayoko siyang maging crush. Kanina pinipigilan ko pa sarili ko...aaa...last week pa pala...pero wala e...yun na e...crush ko na siya..kahit bading siya....yan nanaman....nagkaka-crush nanaman ako sa taong di pwede.

Bading
May asawa
Malayo ang estado ng buhay sa kin
May anak na
Taken na
Same sex pa

Grabe...patong patong na kasalanan ko aa...haha..sana di ako ma-inlove sa kanya...kasi dagdag siya sa listahan. haha., pero di yan..aalis na ko sa school na yun...di na kami magkikita T_T. Joke! Me pag-iyak?hahahaha!!

Basta ayoko. Kanina ko pa hinahampas ang dibdib ko (yung chest a...hindi breast..flat na nga hahampasin ko pa..). Ayoko magkagusto kahit kanino. Kay phantom love lang. Joke!


Ah basta,.wag lang sa kanya...di ito pwede.
Sabagay crush lang naman...ako naman assuming masyado love agad nasa isip...pero kasi diba...di naman imposible..basta!!!


Good night na nga...antok lang to...lasing na lasing na ko sa antok.

Kaya ko. KAYA KO.

Haha!!!!Ang saya ko ngayong araw na ito...ngayon lang kasi ako nakatapos ng isang presentableng powerpoint presentation.Proud ako kasi as in todo effort ako dun. Talagang pinagpuyatan ko siya kagabi para matapos at piangkagastusan ko talaga siya infairness to me ha!

And worth it naman dahil nakakuha ako ng 98% na grade. Bawing bawi ang pagod sa mga papuri pa lang ng mga kaklase ko. Ang sarap pala ng ganitong feeling...yung may natatapos kang gawin at alam mo sa sarili mong ginawa mo yun at di ka umasa sa iba.

Kaya ko pala.
KAYA KO PALA.
KAYA KO PALA.
KAYA KO PALA.

Sarap talaga! Buti na lang individual yun. Pag groupings kasi, wala, wala akong naa-achieve...wala akong maipagmalaki na kaya kong gawin sa sarili ko...hindi kasi ako pansinin sa grupo e. Tagasunod lang. Kaya ko pala. Astig. Iba talaga nagagawa pag di ka tinatamad. Buti na lang natututo na kong mag-prioritize ngayon. Ang saya ko talaga!!!!!!!!!!!!!

gahaman? selfish?

Kanina, final examination namin sa Values. Si Taray Queen diba katabi ko yun. Sabi niya sakin before mag-start ang exam, magtatanong daw siya sa akin kasi nung time lang na yun siya nag-start mag-review. Sabi ko pareho lang kami pero kung magtatanong siya, I'll try my very best.

Tapos yun exam na. Maya-maya narinig ko si Betty Boobs na nasa harap ko that time na nagtatanong kay Mam kung ano ba sagot sa #10 sa identification. Si Mam naman nagbibigay ng clue...sinabi niya kay Betty na ni-lesson namin yun. Ako, syempre alam ko yun. Si Betty ayun feeling madadala sa ganda si Mam...feeling close. Tapos nagtanong siya kay Taray Queen. Sinabi naman ni Taray Queen yung sagot. Nainis ako. Kasi ayoko kay Betty. Pero di yun ang rason. Ang reason is, nainis ako dahil sinabi ni Taray Queen kay Betty yung sagot...di ba siya nag-iisip? Mamaya ma-perfect pa ni Betty yung exam dahil sa kanya. Pero di ko siya masisisi..kasi mas malapit siya kay Betty..tingin ko nga pag nag-away kami nun...ako kawawa kasi silang lahat kampi dun. By the way, ayun na nga..tapos na ko mag-exam so nag-nap ako. Narinig ko si Taray Queen na nagtatanong. Hindi ako umiimik kasi inis nga ko diba...akala ko sakin siya nagtatanong. After ng exam kinuwento niya sa amin na..ayaw naman daw talaga niyang ibigay ang sagot kay Betty, kaso naisip niya parang paunang bayad niya yun kay Betty. Nagsabi siya ng sagot, so expect niya na tutulungan din siya ni Betty. Nung nagtanong siya ng example kay Betty (hindi siya nagtatanong ng sagot...laging example pero parang ganun na rin ang kalalabasan nun...). At alam niyo ba? Hindi siya pinansin nito. Hindi daw siya binigyan ng example. Nakita ko sa mukha niya ang matinding disappointment lalo pa't malapit niya ngang kaibigan si Betty. Di na siya nag-react pagkatapos niya magkwento...halatang pigil ang salita at gustong sabihin dahil yung dalawa naming kasama, bale silang tatlo na tangi kong kasama...e...malapit talaga dun kay Betty. Pati yung 2 di nakapag-react..nagkakapaan pa kung may magsasalita against kay Betty. Ako wala na lang. Patay malisya. Kasi ayoko mag-comment...ako kawawa...ayaw nila ng nasasaktan ng iba si Betty. Bahala sila. Basta...ang akin..ganun ba ang kaibigan nila? Sila,...handa silang magsakripisyo para sa kanya,...handa silang suungin ang mga away para lang ipagtanggol si Betty,,na ni minsan hindi naman sila inisip. Hay ewan!

natabunan ako nung nagsabog ng kagandahan kaya wala akong nasalo ni isang patak..

Ang galing naman...natutuwa talaga akong tingnan ang profile ng isang girl na itech sa facebook. Schoolmate ko siya nung highschool, bale first year college ako ngayon, 4th year high siya. Dati yung batang yun simple lang makapal ang kilay, di mo aakalaing gaganda siya ng bonggang bongga. As in iba na talaga siya ngayon..anlaking transformation. Tinatawag pa nga siyang wolverine pero ngayon...shet..ganda talaga!!

Tangkad...sexy...ganda...ano pa bang hahanapin mo sa kanya?

Sa isang photo album niya sa facebook nakalagay..."You can never be me"..e bago ko mabasa yun..naisip ko sana maging kasing ganda niya ako..naisip ko na kung sakaling magpaparetoke ako gusto ko katulad niya. Pero totoo ang sabi niya. I CAN NEVER BE LIKE HER. NEVER IN MY DREAMS. NEVER IN REALITY.

Wala lang, ang galing nila kasi nasalo na nila ang lahat ng kagandahan...pero bat ako hindi? wala? Ang nasalo ko puro kapangitan...pangit ugali, walang utak, walang talent, at higit sa lahat...WALANG GANDA.

Kahit man lang ganda na lang ee..buhay ka na...tingnan mo yung kaklase ko ngayong college...halos di pumasok pero buhay na buhay. Ganda kasi.
Kahit hindi na siya mag-aral kasi kikita naman siya sa modelling.
Hindi na niya kailangan maghanap ng lalaki kasi lalaki na mismo lumalapit sa kanya.. (fortunately, ako hindi ko naman kinailangan ever in my life na maghabol ng lalaki....haha...). Tapos hindi na niya kailangan pang magpaka-good girl..kahit pa talakera siya ok lang...kasi isang tahimik niya lang ok na, mabait na ulit image niya.
Isa pa, hindi siya nahihirapang mag-gain ng respeto mula sa isang tao kasi basta maganda ka, daig mo pa matanda sa respetong dapat ibigay sayo.
Tapos, yung mga magaganda, lahat ng konsiderasyon nasa kanila. Katulad nung iba kong classmate...may isa dun absent ng absent pero wag ka...lagi mataas grade nun. Pero bakit pag ako, araw araw at on time ako pumasok, nagkakanda kuba kuba na likod ko kakahabol sa klase..at sa paghihintay sa oras sa gitna ng 3 oras na vacant..pero wala...wala pa rin. Kulang pa din effort ko...NG GANDA.
Ano pa ba???
Yung mga magaganda kahit anong itsura nila maganda pa rin sila. Ewan ko ba...sila lang ang may karapatang magsuklay at di magsuklay...mag-make-up at di mag-make-up. Manamit ng kahit na ano...sila lang. Pag pangit ka tulad ko..di pwede yun.
Yung magaganda, sila lang ang may karapatang tumapak sa entabladong puno ng ilaw at tinitingala ng madla. Pag pangit, naku..ni humipo dun di pwede. Buti nga pag graduation nakakatikim ka pa ng stage e. Dun lang.

Hay...basta...andaming konsiderasyo at benepisyo ng pagiging maganda. Investment na, pension pa. Ganun lang yung. Pag maganda ka, insured ka na. Pag pangit ka pa, asa ka pa......

Buti pa ang kapatid ko...ilang taon na lang mula ngayon...masasali na siya sa parada ng mga mgaganda...at ako, mananatili habangbuhay sa likod niya. Habangbuhay kong titiisin ang panlalait ng aking tita. Ang hinayupak kong tita.

Kung magkakaroon man ako ng next life, sana maganda na ko...mayaman pa. Pa-experience naman.!

currently downloading mp3s

Hayun o...naaliw akong magdownload ng mga kanta..kasi kailangan kong mag download nung sa sayaw namin bukas e tatlo lang yun (dr. jones, barbie girl at shalala lala). Kaya yun naisip ko maghanap pa ng ibang songs para masaya. Kaso naparami ata download ko..haha...yaan mo na..pagkakasyahin ko...:)

Sana gumana sa cd player namin pati bukas sana gumana din.

Irah : Sabi ni Kuya miss ka na niya...

Lady Kyu : Pakisabi na lang mahal ko siya...

Irak : Korni niyo friend! (sabay batok)

Lady Kyu : (Iyak...T_T)


Hanggang Dito Nalang - Jimmy Bondoc


akala ko'y habang buhay tayo
akala ko hanggang dulo
kay haba pa ng kalsada
dito nga ba tayo bababa?

kung ganito na nga ba’ng usapan
kung dito na ang hangganan
dapat sigurong iwasan ang mga minsang kamustahan
mga nakasanayan dapat nang kalimutan
upang di tayo magkasakitan

hanggang dito nalang
hanggang dito nalang
ikaw ba ang nagbago o ako o tayo?
Baka..tayo…
hanggang dito nalang
hanggang dito nalang
kung tunay ang paalam
wag ka nang magparamdam
dahil humihirap lang
hanggang dito nalang

akala ko’y habambuhay ang awit
akala ko’y hanggang langit
kay haba pa ng kantahan
dito na ba tayo tatantan
kung ganito na nga ba’ng tadhana
sara'ng pinto at bintana
dapat sigurong iwasan ang pagkatok sa’ting nakaraan
mga nakaugalian dapat nang pagbawalan
sunugin na ang mga larawan

hanggang dito nalang
hanggang dito nalang
ikaw ba ang nagbago o ako o tayo?
Baka..tayo…
hanggang dito nalang
hanggang dito nalang
kung tunay ang paalam
wag ka nang magparamdam
dahil humihirap lang
hanggang dito nalang

ang ganda na sana
bakit biglang nag iba?
Ikaw ba ang nagbago o ako o tayo?
Palagay ko’y tayo
hanggang dito nalang
hanggang dito nalang
kung tunay ang paalam
wag ka nang magparamdam
dahil humihirap lang
kung tunay ang paalam
wag ka nang magparamdam
dahil humihirap lang
kung tunay ang paalam
wag ka nang magparamdam
dahil humihirap lang
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IF YOUR GIFT IS NOT PACKAGED THE WAY YOU WANT IT, IT'S BECAUSE IT IS BETTER PACKAGED THE WAY IT IS!

As I read the story of the diamond ring I posted earlier, tears ran down my face as I remember what happened last Christmas. Every year, my father keep on giving me greeting cards on different occasions. Because we're not rich, I thought it was the only thing my father could give me. One time before Christmas, I asked him why he kept on giving me cards instead of money or things I wanted. He just smiled but I can feel he's offended with my question. I never asked about it again after that day. I hate to see my father sad about me. Christmas eve came. I came home excitedly, and as I entered our sala, I saw 3 same wrapped gifts in our Christmas tree. I immediately grabbed the one where my name is written...oh! That 3 gifts are for my Kuya, younger sister and I. As I handed the gift, I felt a little bit sad because it is weightless..I mean..it is so light and when I started shaking it, it added to my disappointment because it's clear that the box inside is empty. I just laughed out loud when my father asked me to guess what's inside of what he calls "The Secret Box/Gift". I know for sure it has nothing inside. My brother's box had his shorts inside it because I was asked to open his box and put inside it the shorts. That was when I really thought the box for me and my sister is empty. Christmas came. We celebrated it happily like never before. After our celebration, we got inside our house to open the gifts. The last gift I get is my father's gift. I keep on telling my father that I know it's empty. On my mind I thought, my father is so poor all he can give us now is an empty box wrapped in a Christmas wrapper. I even told him he only wasted 3 whole Christmas wrappers for the empty gifts. But then I thanked him for it. Suddenly, my sister shouted and told me the box had money on it. When I checked mine, I saw 20 peso bills in one corner of the gift. And that's the secret of the gift. I was so happy to see and to have P400.00 all in all.

On the story, the woman left because she thought her husband did not gave her the gift she wanted. At the end, she regret everything she did because what she wanted is in wrapped in the bible given to her by her husband.

Now, the reason why I cried is that I actually can relate myself to the story. I was a very materialistic girl that I happen to be disappointed to my father because I wanted something. I admit, I am really guilty right now.

IF YOUR GIFT IS NOT PACKAGED THE WAY YOU WANT IT, IT'S BECAUSE IT IS BETTER PACKAGED THE WAY IT IS! ALWAYS APPRECIATE LITTLE THINGS; THEY USUALLY LEAD YOU TO BIGGER THINGS.

This is the best lesson I've learned tonight. Thank you God for letting me know this. I love you...

the diamond ring...T_T

A married lady was expecting a birthday gift from her husband. For many months she had admired a beautiful diamond ring in a showroom, and knowing her husband could afford it, she told him that was all she wanted.

As her birthday approached, this lady awaited signs that her husband had purchased the diamond ring ... finally, on the morning of her birthday, her husband called her into his study. Her husband told her how proud he was to have such a good wife, and told her how much he loved her. He handed her a beautiful
wrapped gift box. Curious, the wife opened the box and found a lovely, leather-bound Bible, with the wife's name embossed in gold. Angrily, she raised her voice to her husband and said, 'With all your money you give me a Bible? And stormed out of the house, leaving her husband.

Many years passed and the married lady was very successful in business. She managed to settle for a more beautiful house and a wonderful family, but realized her ex-husband was very old, and thought perhaps she should go to visit him. She had not seen him for many years. But before she could make arrangements, she received a telegram telling her that her ex-husband had passed away, and willed all of his possessions to her. She needed to come back immediately and take care of things.

When she arrived at her ex-husband's house, sudden sadness and regret filled her heart. She began to search through her ex-husband's important papers and saw the still new Bible, just as she had left it years ago.

With tears, she opened the Bible and began to turn the pages. Her ex-husband had carefully underlined a verse, Matt 7:11, 'And if you, being evil know how to give good gifts to your children, how much more shall your Heavenly Father which is in heaven, give to those who ask Him?'

As she read those words, a tiny package dropped from the back of the Bible. It had a diamond ring with her name engraved on it, the same diamond ring which she saw at the showroom. On the tag was the date of her birth, and the words...'LUV U ALWAYS'...

How many times do we miss God's blessings because they are not packaged as we expected? I trust you enjoyed this. Pass it on to others.
Do not spoil what you have by desiring what you have not; but remember that what you now have was once among the things you only hoped for.

IF YOUR GIFT IS NOT PACKAGED THE WAY YOU WANT IT, IT'S BECAUSE IT IS BETTER PACKAGED THE WAY IT IS! ALWAYS APPRECIATE LITTLE THINGS; THEY USUALLY LEAD YOU TO BIGGER THINGS.

With God, nothing on earth is imposible...!!!!!!!!!!

I was in Cupang, Muntinlupa City, having our house-to-house interview for our CWTS (actually, I'm with my friends that time chatting...we have finished the interview alread☺) when I received a message from my sister that I passed the admission examination in the College of Divine Wisdom. When I read that, I don't want to believe but what I actually did is that I jumped in happiness and shouted that I passed! My friends congratulate me. I was so happy!!! My dream came true! God willed that I pass there. I can't tell what I'm feeling right now. All I know is that I can't believe I can do it...but most especially, I want to thank GOD for helping me. For giving me the positive thinking that I can pass. That I will pass. And now, I'm only waiting for the enrollment. Ah...such a wonderful experience and achievement as well. I gained trust on my self. Thanks God. I offer this success to YOU. I will use this opportunity to change for the better...ahh...I really miss studying in a Catholic School. I'm so excited. I wish I'll have more friends there.

THANK YOU GOD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Hindi ko malimutan ang karumal dumal na sinapit ng aking binder..

Kanina tinapos ko na yung notes ko na matagal ng naaagnas sa mga scratch papers ko. Yun malamang nahirapan ako kasi nga hiwa-hiwalay na ang mga fillers ko dahil sa kulang kulang na mga pins nito. At dahil dun naiinis nanaman ako...(inis day ba ngayon??)

Nakakainis...ako tuloy naperperwisyo...nagmagandang loob ka na nga ikaw pa minamalas...hay..buti na lang hindi ko nakita buong araw yung taong may gawa nun sa binder ko...

hindi ko malilimutan ang ginawa niyang ito...!!