After someone broke your heart, it seems impossible for you to fall in love again. The thought just bring back the pain from the past. It's like your heart had just undergone a traumatic experience with which you already built a phobia with. Anyway, sometime later, after the process of "moving on", there you go again ...

I believe that strong people were not afraid enough to fall again. I mean, yes, it had ruined your heart and shattered it into pieces. But then, still, isn't it worth it? Falling in love is one of the best feelings you'd ever have in your entire life, and being afraid on it means being afraid to be happy again. Pain and suffering is guaranteed, but what are those compared to the priceless moments you'd cherish your whole life for? 

It's the magic of positive thinking. If you'd focus on the negatives and on what you'll lose which make you hold back, you're not actually preventing and shielding yourself from pain. You're blocking the happiness that might come your way.

So for you whose in love now, don't be afraid. No matter what it takes, choose to be happy... to be really happy. Well, it isn't real happiness if you're doing it the wrong way. Real happiness is following what your heart wants, no matter how much people mock you for your own choices, as long as you are on the right path. When love comes, grab it. If you love each other, go for it. 

Never be afraid to fall in love. It may be painful, but remember, on the process of falling, you were high, and you get the best feeling you can't explain. When you reach the ground, you'd be in pain if you're on the wrong track. But don't lose hope. The pain will be gone soon, and when it does fade away, you could try again. But let the pain heal first before you go for another one. Then one day you'd know that you're in the right way, in the right time and the right reason, because you already fell on the arms of someone who would catch you. :)

My eyes were like my heart. It searches for you anywhere. Though I know that I will not find you, there's still inside that urges me to look for you. I mean, I may do it literally, but it speak beyond what I do. My system searches for you, ga. You're the only one who keeps me on track. It seems I had just undergone an operation, a removal of something as delicate and as essential as my heart. Something that once gone, my whole self will never ever function normally anymore. That's you in my life ga. And everyday, every night, my whole being searches for you, hoping that someday I might be complete again .... though behind my mind the truth lies that no matter how far I go, you're gone and never coming back. So here I am, in the midst of people, seeing an illusion, a shadow of you. ... until I realize that it wasn't and just let my heart dying inside to have you back again ................

I swear I'd sleep a lot this coming summer vacation. :)

You would tell this to me when we meet again.

Even if .........~

All those sleepless nights 

All the tears I cried 

All the pain I kept inside 

I kept asking myself why 

You had to say goodbye 

Was it just a dream
When you said to me 

That there is someone new in your life 

You could have at least lied 

The truth just scared me 

Even if... 

You mean the whole damn world to me 

I can forget you, wait and see 

I can be strong even without you 

I can't waste my life forever 

Hoping you'd come back to me 

But deep inside I know 

I'll be waiting here for you 

(instrumental) 

Even if... 

You mean the whole damn world to me 

I can forget you, wait and see 

I can be strong even without you 

I can't waste my life forever 

Hoping you'd come back to me 

But deep inside I know 

I'll be waiting here for you

Reality, isn't it?!

A kid once asked his dad why did God made poor people. They just starve to death, suffer from not having the riches of life, work until late hours and remain the same over and over again. And what's worst, the kid said they were unpleasant beings that pollute the wonderful world.

The father told him.....

poor people starve to death and suffer from not having the riches of life because of rich people's selfishness. 

they work until  hours and remain the same over and over again because we, rich people were greedy enough to get all that is not due to them. it wasn't their effort in the first place, but the most out of something was what we get and we give poor people of hard work with what they do not deserve.

they appear unpleasant, yet they shouldn't be judged from it. if they didn't exist, do you think we could call ourselves rich?

Why so SEXY and HANDSOME, honeyyYYY???!! ♥.♥

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why so handsome, babe?!

I don’t think I’ll ever be able to love another person the way that I love you, and that really scares me.

Let's live for Christ as we open our eyes after a good night sleep. :) Sweet dreams everyone!

I haven't posted for like ages (IKR?!). My schedule lately were like that of the figure 1 (refer to the photo below), but it wasn't like I was actually partying and all that. I am too exhausted about a lot of things - my paper works, reports, duties at school + my sister's bunch of school works (with which I was instructed to help out). I can't even manage to have a good night sleep now, which resulted to a new wave of pimples on my face (i hate it. :/ ). How I wish doing all this staying-up-late-until-morning-doing-school-works can make me thin. haha!

Anyway, I really missed my blog that I feel I was nearly having been depressed again. But of course I won't allow that to happen. Though I was too busy, thank God because a lot of good things were happening to me and that I was happy. Not so, not much, but I'm glad I'm happy. Good thing I still know what happiness is even with small things after I enclosed myself to a definition that --- happiness = having him in my life.

I still have a lot of stuff to do. I want to finish some now but I'm afraid my system tells me it needs a break, which I cannot afford to not allow myself to have after a very tiring day. :) So, until next time. I promise I will be posting as soon as possible. :) 

Figure 1

When you say I miss the things you do, 

I just want to get back close again to you. 

But for now your voice is near enough. 

How I miss you, and I miss you love. 

And though all the days that pass me by so slow, 

all the emptiness inside me flows all around, 

and there's no way out. 

I'm just thinkin' so much of you. 

There was never any doubt. 

I can wait forever if you say you'll be there too. 

I can wait forever if you will. 

I know it's worth it all to spend my life alone with you. 

When it looked as though my life was wrong, 

You took my love and gave it somewhere to belong. 

I'll be here when hope is out of sight. 

I just wish that I was next to you tonight. 

And oh, I'll be reaching for you even though 

You'll be somewhere else, my love. 

We'll go like a bird on its way back home. 

I could never let you go. 

And I just want you to know... 

I can wait forever if you say you'll be there too. 

I can wait forever if you will. 

I know it's worth it all to spend my life alone with you. 

Where are you now, 

along with the thoughts we share? 

Keep them strong somehow. 

And you know I'll always be there. 

I can wait forever if you say you'll be there too. 

I can wait forever if you will. 

I know it's worth it all to spend my life alone with you. 

Let's do some THINKING today! :D

GOOD MORNING!

I had a great day today. Thank God for all the laughter I had with my classmate. Somehow, I felt happy at school, and it was a good thing to thank God for. :) 

Aside from the laughter, I have learned a lot today that I really want to share here ... but I'm afraid I will not be able to tell it now for I am too tired I want to dive in my bed now. :/

Good night people! :D 

If you love deeply, you’re going to get hurt badly. But it’s still worth it.

— C.S Lewis 

In spite of busy schedules, thank God .... I still can manage to post in my blog. :)

I have not more than a month left for this semester .. and as the days pass by, I can feel the excitement brought by the pressures and bunch of things to do. 

Anyway, I was asked to do the remaining scripts for our shoot tomorrow. At the back of my mind, I was this mischievous girl who grunts about being made responsible of those things (despite the fact that we have a lot of members in our group). But to take it on its positive side, I was so blessed to be given this opportunity to work and use my brain in useful stuff. The fact that my group mates had entrusted me this task makes my self-worth increase, which is a great help for someone like me who's in the process of putting myself back together again. I'm just happy, that even though one person have shown me how worthless I am, there are a lot of people who could actually prove it wrong. 

Thank God for this. Though I will gain another bag under my eyes, it's a good thing that I have another reason why I should get up and tell the world I was worthy of this life!

1. Losing you forever.
2. Losing myself during the process. 

Requirement #91 - My 100 Ideal Man List

I'd look forward for it. :)

Chemistry. If you have chemistry, you only need one other thing– timing. But timing is a bitch.

— Robin Scherbatsky (How I Met Your Mother)

MY LIFE ......... IS A NIGHTMARE ............ FOR TWO MONTHS .......................... UNTIL WHEN ????????????????

Lahat tayo may hangganan. Parang ako, hanggang sayo lang. :) ~ 

So many times are wasted without you ...... :'(

As for me, it would take infinity before I can put myself back together ....

Charlie: Why do nice people choose the wrong people to date? 
Bill: We accept the love we think we deserve. 
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Charlie: Can we make them know they deserve more? 
Bill: We can try. 

The exact words I've told myself last August 3, 2012 .....

YES, HE IS. AND I SWEAR I'D DO ANYTHING JUST TO HIDE ALL THOSE BAD THINGS HE HAD DONE AND STILL DOING. IT'S NOT WHAT SHOULD DEFINE HIM. HE'S A REALLY GOOD MAN, AND I KNOW IT. I KNOW IT BY HEART. HE'S JUST OUT OF CONTROL. AND BESIDES, HE HAD DONE NOTHING WRONG TO ANYONE BUT ME. HE'D NEVER DO IT IF I DIDN'T EXIST. I'M THE ONE RESPONSIBLE FOR EVERYTHING .... 

sHiT.

BECAUSE YOU'RE NOT A PART OF IT ANYMORE .....

~soooo high school. :D

I DON'T KNOW..
BUT ONE THING'S FOR SURE ... 

Kung maaalala mong mahal kita, balik ka lang. Mamahalin pa rin kita. :">


Ga ........... kalimutan mo na lahat ng ala alang meron tayo ... wag lang yung katotohanan na noon, hanggang ngayon at sa marami pang bukas ... mahal pa rin kita. Ikaw lang, wala ng iba. 

Balik ka lang, MAMAHALIN PA RIN KITA ............