It's only you ga!

I remembered before, he used to tell me that I never get out of his mind. He always want me to know that he keeps thinking of me wherever he is and whatever he is doing. But now ... everything has changed. He never uttered the exact words but his actions showed to me the real thing ... that now, I don't even cross his mind. It hurts. It really hurts. 

I miss the old days. They're not too old for you to forget. :/

... the steps that I'll have to take

Prelim exams next week. Oh well, everything's light this semester (again) and it bothers me. Really. Does this mean I have to expect fourth year to be on it's hardest? NO!!!!

Anyway, I'm not pressured for next week. It's just that ... I've realized that I'll have to work a little harder this time, especially that distractions are already out of my way. So I have to persevere, focus and .... work for better grades at the end of this sem. :D

After next week, I'll just have to work on the two coming terms and then another one year (two semesters, 6 terms) and then .... I'm finally FREE!!!!! :DDDDD

I'm giving you up, and I promise I'll get up.

I will miss the hugs, ga. :(

....

True ♥

Masakit. XD

So .... I don't care na rin. Kala mo ah!

I'm destroyed because you're gone.

MORE OF A HELL.

S.T.U.P.I.D

... but the most painful as well :'(

i love you haters

‎"Never ever make your girl demand for every thing you are supposed to do. Its like making her feel she doesn't deserve your care."

True enough. It's never my character to force someone to do something for me, especially if that thing is what they are supposed to do. But then, I insisted that he must promise to offer me 2 days and 2 consecutive Sundays so we will be together. I know I was so wrong. Believe me, I don't really want to do it. I swear. I just want him to feel that he must do something for me. 

Next week would be our monthsary, and you know what? He told me he'd text me if he will be able to meet me up next week. HE HAS TOTALLY FORGOTTEN OUR SPECIAL DAY, even though just last week, we've talked about it and he said he's always been thinking about it. It was sad, and it hurts me too much. So I have no choice but to make him remember today his promise of 2 days even if he has more important things to do. Well, I don't really mean it. I would only want to see him react. Of course, as expected, he was very disappointed and he just answer me with his unwilling "yes". No I love yous, and he doesn't even tell he's excited and happy for that day (after I told him I have no classes that day). :/

Though he swear again he'd meet me up and we'll be together, I won't do it. I know he will not be happy with me. I'd just stick with this until Thursday or early on Friday next week, and then I will tell him to do what he really want to do ... even if it would kill me inside. 

"Someone will really hurt us intentionally and yet we tolerate that person only because OKAY LANG na saktan ka niya at least may connection kayo kahit masakit sayo."
-Papa Jack

“Para sa mga lalaki, be man enough to say na ayaw mo na, hindi yung basta ka na lang hindi magpaparamdam. Isa kasi sa pinakamasakit ay ang umasa na meron pa, yun pala wala na.”
- Papa Jack

Nobody can be happy all the time. Its not healthy to keep your hurt in or your tears. So let them flow. But once they are out wipe them away, put a smile on your face, and walk away from whatever or whoever made you hurt......

I've just called him a while ago, and for 5 minutes, I haven't uttered a single word.

It's because, ... I want to just hear his voice. I missed it so much. It seems like I haven't heard of it a long time ago, though we had talked a couple of hours ago. I've just ... appreciated it more tonight. How I miss him so much. 

I just want to hear his breath. It was so cool. I miss that too. 

I miss everything about him. Really. :'(

Never waste an opportunity to tell someone you love them.

~I've already wasted almost a day by not telling him how much I love him .... because it hurts a lot. :'(

“Nakakainis yung pakiramdam na miss na miss mo na siya. Pero wala kang magawa kundi hintayin siya kung kelan ka niya ulit maaalala.”

Just let go of things that makes you sad and be Happy . 

Headin' somewhere far from you.

"It was so easy for him na mawala ka kasi nga option ka lang niya."

-Papa Jack