NABABALIW NA KO. SOBRA.

hindi ko na alam ... di na talaga.

ano ba ang mali at tama?

ano ba ang bawal at hindi?

ano ba ang pwede at dapat?

ang hirap pigilan ...

ang hirap pala pag gusto mong sabihing mahalaga siya pero di mo magawa

ang hirap pala na mahal mo siya pero di mo man lang maiparamdam

why do i do this?

i hate myself for loving you this much ...

coz you've hurt me too much

life's so unfair

i love you but you don't love me

Everything I Own

Aubrey

And Aubrey was her name,
A not so very ordinary girl or name.
But who's to blame?
For a love that wouldn't bloom
For the hearts that never played in tune.
Like a lovely melody that everyone can sing,
Take away the words that rhyme it doesn't mean a thing.

And Aubrey was her name.
We triped the light and danced together to the moon,
But where was June.
No it never came around.
If it did it never made a sound,
Maybe I was absent or was listening to fast,
Catching all the words, but then the meaning going past,

But God I miss the girl,
And I'd go a thousand times around the world just to be
Closer to her than to me.

And Aubrey was her name,
I never knew her, but I loved her just the same,
I loved her name.
Wish that I had found the way
And the reasons that would make her stay.
I have learned to lead a life apart from all the rest.
If I can't have the one I want, I'll do without the best.

But how I miss the girl
And I'd go a million times around the world just to say
She had been mine for a day.

If by Bread

If a picture paints a thousand words,
Then why can't I paint you?
The words will never show the you I've come to know.
If a face could launch a thousand ships,
Then where am I to go?
There's no one home but you,
You're all that's left me too.
And when my love for life is running dry,
You come and pour yourself on me.

If a man could be two places at one time,
I'd be with you.
Tomorrow and today, beside you all the way.
If the world should stop revolving spinning slowly down to die,
I'd spend the end with you.
And when the world was through,
Then one by one the stars would all go out,
Then you and I would simply fly away

In My Life

Here,There And Everywhere

To lead a better life I need my love to be here...

Here, making each day of the year
Changing my life with a wave of her hand
Nobody can deny that there's something there

There, running my hands through her hair
Both of us thinking how good it can be
Someone is speaking but she doesn't know he's there

I want her everywhere and if she's beside me
I know I need never care
But to love her is to need her everywhere
Knowing that love is to share

Each one believing that love never dies
Watching her eyes and hoping I'm always there

I want her everywhere and if she's beside me
I know I need never care
But to love her is to need her everywhere
Knowing that love is to share

Each one believing that love never dies
Watching her eyes and hoping I'm always there

To be there and everywhere
Here, there and everywhere

THE OLD SONGS

I've Gotta Get a Message to You

The preacher taunted me and he smiled,
Said, "Come and walk with me, come and walk one more mile.
Now for once in your life you're alone,
now you ain't got a dime, there's no time for the phone."

I've just got to get a message to you, oh la, oh la.
One more hour and my life will be through, oh la, oh la.

I told him I'm in no hurry,
but if I broke her heart, won't you tell her I'm sorry.
And for once in my life I'm alone,
and I've got to let her know just in time before I go.

I've just go to get a message to you, oh la, oh la.
One more hour and my life will be through, oh la, oh la.

Well I laughed but that didn't work,
and it's only her love that keeps me wearing this hurt.
Now I'm crying but deep down inside,
well I did it to him, now it's my turn to die.

I've just got to get a message to you, oh la, oh la.
One more hour and my life will be through, oh la, oh la.

'I Started a Joke'

I started a joke, which started the whole world crying,
but I didn't see that the joke was on me, oh no.

I started to cry, which started the whole world laughing,
oh, if I'd only seen that the joke was on me.

I looked at the skies, running my hands over my eyes,
and I fell out of bed, hurting my head from things that I'd said.

Til I finally died, which started the whole world living,
oh, if I'd only seen that the joke was on me.

I looked at the skies, running my hands over my eyes,
and I fell out of bed, hurting my head from things that I'd said.

'Til I finally died, which started the whole world living,
oh, if I'd only seen that the joke was one me (x3)

In The Morning

In the morning when the moon is at it's rest,
you will find me at the time I love the best
watching rainbows play on sunlight;
pools of water iced from cold nights, in the morning.
'Tis the morning of my life.

In the daytime I will meet you as before.
You will find me waiting by the ocean floor,
building castles in the shifting sands
in a world that no one understands,
In the morning.
'Tis the morning of my life,

In the morning of my life the
minutes take so long to drift away
Please be patient with your life
It's only morning and you've still to live your day

In the ev'ning I will fly you to the moon
To the top right hand corner of
the ceiling in my room
Where we'll stay until the sun shines
Another day to swing on clothes lines
May I be yawning
T'is the morning of my life
T'is the morning of my life
In the morning
In the morning
In the morning

Run To Me by the Bee Gees

If ever you got rain in your heart,
someone has hurt you, and torn you apart,
am I unwise to open up your eyes to love me?

And let it be like they said it would be -
me loving you girl, and you loving me.
Am I unwise to open up your eyes to love me?

Run to me whenever you're lonely. (to love me)
Run to me if you need a shoulder
Now and then, you need someone older,
so darling, you run to me.

And when you're out in the cold,
no one beside you, and no one to hold,
am I unwise to open up your eyes to love me?

And when you've got nothing to lose,
nothing to pay for, nothing to choose,
am I unwise to open up your eyes to love me?

Run to me whenever you're lonely. (to love me)
Run to me if you need a shoulder
Now and then you need someone older,
so darling, you run to me.

Run to me whenever you're lonely.
Run to me if you need a shoulder
Now and then you need someone older,
so darling, you run to me.

Run to me whenever you're lonely.
Run to me if you need a shoulder
Now and then you need someone older,
so darling, you run to me.

Kung kailangan mo ako - Rey Valera (lyrics)

Mayrong lungkot sa yong mga mata
At kay bigat ng yong dinadala
Kahit di mo man sabihin
Paghihirap mo'y nadarama ko rin

Narito ang mga palad ko
Handang dumamay kung kailangan mo
Asahan mong mayron kang kaibigan
Laging tapat sa yo

At kung kailangan mo ako
Sa oras ng iyong pag-iisa
Kung naninimdim
Asahan mong ako ay darating
Kung kailangan mo ako
Sa sandaling bigo na ang lahat
Pusong kay tamis
Kailan ma'y di kita matitiis
Sa sandaling kailangan mo ako
Lyrics www.allthelyrics.com/lyrics/rey_valera/

Narito ang mga palad ko
Handang dumamay kung kailangan mo
Asahan mong mayron kang kaibigan
Laging tapat sa yo

At kung kailangan mo ako
Sa oras ng iyong pag-iisa
Kung naninimdim
Asahan mong ako ay darating
Kung kailangan mo ako
Sa sandaling bigo na ang lahat
Pusong kay tamis
Kailan ma'y di kita matitiis
Sa sandaling kailangan mo ako

My Endless Love

My love, there's only you in my life,
The only thing that's right.
My first love, you're every breath that I take,
You're every step I make.
And I, I want to share, all my love with you,
No one else will do.
And your eyes, they tell me how much you care.
Oh yes, you will always be, my endless love.

Two hearts, two hearts that beat as one.
Our lives have just begun.
Forever, I'll hold you close in my arms,
I can't resist your charm.
My love, I'll be a fool, for you I'm sure,
You know I don't mind.
Cause you, you mean the world to me.
Oh, I know I've found in you, my endless love.

And love, I'll be that fool, for you, I'm sure.
You know I don't mind.
And yes, you'll be the only one.
Cause no one can deny,
This love I have its fine.
I'll give it all to you,
My love, my love, my endless love.

Someone Who Believes In You

When there's a dark storm on your horizon
And you think you can't get through it
Just put your hand in my hand
And I'll show you how to do it

When the future looks uncertain
You can count on me to be there
And when your heart and soul are hurtin'
Just look and you'll see me there

Just follow where I lead
I'll give you what you need
A love that's always true
And someone who believes in you

So when you're searching for that rainbow
I will help you find it
And when a mountain stands before you
I will help you climb it

Just follow where I lead
I'll give you what you need
A love that's always true
And someone who believes in you

It's time to come alive
Your moment has arrived
I'll bring out the best in you
We can have it all
No, we will never fall
Looking down from our celestial view

Just follow where I lead
I'll give you what you need
And I'll tell you something else
You'll start believing in yourself
It's an easy thing to do
When you have someone who believes in you

Someone who believes
Someone who believes
I'm someone who believes
And you've got someone who believes in you

Calling Your Name Again

I wake up in the dark
Silence brings me to my senses
I wonder where you are
Then I feel a pain, a pain in my heart
Cause I'm living without your love
And I'm all alone for the first time
And it doesn't seem to be a dream
A dream that will be over



All the words you said
Weren't enough to fool this heartache
Memories in my head
Aren't enough to stop me falling apart
Cause I'm living without your love
And maybe it won't be the last time



I don't know how much more I can take
Hope is wide awake and here I go



(*) Calling your name again
Thinking of all that we two had before
There's got to be more this I know
Calling your name again
Remembering all the love you gave to me
And how we used to be



I think of what's to come
Then I turn and see your picture
The tears begin to fall
And soon I can make sense of nothing at all
Cause I'm living without your love
Hoping that I'll make it this time



Something tells me this is not the end
Wish I could pretend but here I go

What Hurts The Most

I can take the rain on the roof of this empty house
That don't bother me
I can take a few tears now and then and just let them out
I'm not afraid to cry every once in a while
Even though going on with you gone still upsets me
There are days every now and again I pretend I'm ok
But that's not what gets me

What hurts the most
Was being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was tryin' to do

It's hard to deal with the pain of losing you everywhere I go
But I'm doin' It
It's hard to force that smile when I see our old friends and I'm alone
Still Harder
Getting up, getting dressed, livin' with this regret
But I know if I could do it over
I would trade give away all the words that I saved in my heart
That I left unspoken

What hurts the most
Is being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was trying to do

What hurts the most
Is being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was trying to do

Not seeing that loving you
That's what I was trying to do
Ooohhh....

I wish you knew how much I love u

For you .. my YEN .. :(

so help me God ..

To call or not to call?? 

Waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! XD

GTG to Puregold .. :)

Sulitin ang sem break! Yahoo!!! hahaha!

This is what I have been longing for .. . ..

Naalala ko nanaman siya. :'(

sooooo sweeeettttt!

wwweeeeeeee!!!

A mother tiger lost her cubs due to premature labour. Shortly after, she became depressed and her health declined. She was later diagnosed with depression. Since tigers are endangered, every effort was made to secure her health. Zoologists wrapped piglets up in tiger-print cloth, and presented them to the mother tiger. She now loves these piglets and treats them like her own. And needless to mention, her health is back on track. ♥
Yes, they ALL have feelings....just like we do. And yes, their feelings ought to be respected. They shouldn’t have to suffer because of our ignorance and ego.

~just saw this from Facebook. :)

Bubbly :)

I may say that October 22, 2011 was not my day. It's as if everything was ruined. Of course there are a lot of blessings that I had but there are also a lot of misfortunes and waste-of-time things that I have done. Yeah, I should not look at the negative side of my day, but I just can't simply ignore everything especially that those things are what made my whole day.

So what happened?

Morning:

-not enough sleep because of last night's torment

-no breakfast. geee!

-having my flash player crash

-ruined editing of the next book I want to read

-someone I've been texting with didn't sent any reply

Afternoon

-late meal

-unable to sleep (that's why I'm so sleepy right now)

-doing absolutely nothing in front of this computer

-I have not received my most awaited text message (which resulted for not accomplishing a task. tsk)

-not able to go out early (as planned. tsk. it sucks.)

Evening

-I am with my super annoying sister (I hate her today)

-not able to meet a person after I have brought everything that he asked from me

-unable to listen well from the 'talk'

-hating myself for being such a bad girl

- texting a user classmate

-being annoyed with a classmate who finds me disgusting (which is, she is more disgusting than me.. swear!)

-unable to ride the right jeepney (that's why I came home soooooooo late ... 12:45 am I think)

These are the not-so-good things that happened to me .. but you know what?! After experiencing all this and cursing myself for it, my day was save (before it actually turn out to be the worst). 

While I was unconsciously (jk) walking to Kabihasnan .. My eyes have caught this guy in a jeepney ... who looked so familiar to me. I have looked at him for about 30 seconds (that long) before I have recognized him. He was my classmate, Justin. He wears I think pink (if I'm not mistaken .. well he's inside a jeepney and I can't see him clearly) and he has this black and white scarf. He waved at me and flaunted his sensational smile (wooooohooooo!!!!). Of course, I smiled and waved back.

That was sooooooooooooooooooooooooooo amazing. I mean, a smile .. could actually turn my whole ruined day into a refreshing one. That's how magical his smile is. Like every morning when I went to school, I am always in a bad mood .. but whenever I see his huge smile towards me .. I feel better. 

I don't think I have a crush on him .. I mean .. I don't feel any weird thing in me. It's just that I like the way he smile because it affects me .. in a way that it can convert my anger into happiness. 

Until now I can't forget that scenario earlier. That was so cooooooool. I thank him, even if he doesn't know ... for ending up my day positively. 

If you'd see him in person, you'd know what I mean. His bubbly face would remain in my mind as I sleep tonight. :)

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I am so blessed by the way. The 'talk'  a while ago was so timely and inspirational. 

I thank God for everything and I love Him sooooooooooooo much. :)

Renewable Marriage

Just to inform you, Renewable Marriage is having an expiration date on the marriage license. It is a proposed bill here in the Philippines that pursue a 10 year life span for a marriage license. After this period, the couple have the opportunity to decide whether they want to renew it or not. If not renewed, it means that their marriage have been nulled or void or simply, they are separated.

It was a bill made by very intelligent minds. How could someone think of it? He or I may say, they are really men of brains. 

But well, if you would ask me if I am in favor of this, well, ... let me tell you this.

I am not yet a professional and I admit that I know very minimal about this issue. I may not be a reliable person to talk about this, but please just bear with me as I share whatever a mind of a typical teenager has regarding this subject. 

As a Christian, of course I am not in favor of this, especially that the Catholic Church, which I have been one, is after the sanctity of marriage. It is not a game, it is a commitment not only between the couple but also with God. Married people have promised that they will love each other until their last breath, so the expiration of marriage is not good to consider. 

Also, if it would actually happen, when most couples felt tired about their marriage without any valid reason, they would just wait for that expiration date. The one who will be left out will be severely affected, most especially their kids. This would also increase the number of broken families in our society. 

Moreover, this idea would also trigger individuals to take marriage as a 'trial and error' thing. This would also promote infidelity, and it simply tells us that we could try everybody, which is very disgusting. It was like prostitution being legalized. It would actually spread sex-related diseases, which would contradict the other hot bill, which is the reproductive health bill in some ways like when you try this woman, then after ten years another woman... then another on the next. But yeah, it would also support the RH Bill by having safe sex within couples especially when they have planned and have known that after ten years they will separate, so they should not have kids so that no one will be affected. 

See how disgusting this idea goes? And if this happens, where's the love? This thing that keeps everyone going and alive, where would it be? Do you think there will still be love after these things? It's as if marriage would not be out of love but out of nothing, just a mere lust and attraction.

Also, if this would ever happen, it will just be an additional burden to families because they have to pay every ten years for the renewal of the license. It would be very stressful.

But well, if more personal reasons would be taken, a part of my mind actually agrees with it. Like if it would ever happen, I could have the opportunity to marry the man that I love even if he's married right now. I'll just have to wait for their marriage's expiry and then we could do what we want. Also, it would be a great test to a husband because after ten years and then when he choose to still renew your marriage, it would prove how much he loves you, which is a very sweet thing. 

But well at the end, this would affect everybody and more on negative side effects, so this is not favorable. I may wish to have that man who have already been taken by someone else, but I don't want to ruin his children's life (but if they don't have children, I will push myself for it. Just kidding!). After all, I don't want to experience being left behind by my husband someday .... and I can't imagine myself when my husband would tell me that he doesn't want to renew our marriage anymore. It would hurt me a lot.

The faithful husband. :) I love it. :)

;' )

yiheee!!!!!!!!!!!! parang ako lang kagabi .. :)

The DEADLY Terms! Bwahahahahahahaha!!!!

What about the girl stupid enough to love you after you've married another? IS SHE THE ONE? :)

The essence of a WOMAN

I have seen this last night in Facebook. I don't have any accurate knowledge about the unit and measures of pain, but reading this have really made me stand up on my sit, applaud and salute all the moms out there. Yeah, I know I look stupid but well, this is incredible. This is really amazing. 

Women are the carriers of life that God has made. They are the ones who take care of it in their wombs. Isn't it very hard to have something inside your tummy for 9 months? Yes, women's body are built for it, but imagine the sacrifice they undergo for it. For that span of time they are living their lives not just for themselves but also for that special someone inside them who needs them so much. Isn't it  fearful while you wait for that 9th month? Just think of yourself in the 8th month, after all the precautions .. the days are passing so fast .. you have to be ready for that final day. The Labor Day. One of the most painful days. And of course, the DELIVERY.

This is something that we should always keep in our minds and hearts. Our MOMS are not ordinary people. They are EXTRAORDINARY. They are SPECIALLY MADE by GOD for a special mission ..and that is, to take care of us in their womb. 

Now, if you are living whether a good or bad life right now, it's not a reason to hate your mom and blame her for having you here in this world. THE MERE FACT THAT YOU ARE ALIVE IS SOMETHING YOU SHOULD THANK FOR. Especially if you're a boy, you would never experience this sacrifice, so whatever grudges you have against women, just shut your mouth up.

I personally want, of course, to have my own children someday. Before, I was really afraid about this idea because they say it is very painful to bear a child. But well, it's what women are made for. .. and that's what I look forward to. :)

That's more like it! :)

SEMBREAK!!! wooohoooo!!!! FINALLY!!!

Forgiven

 

This is the post that I have seen in my newsfeed in Facebook. It was very timely. A while ago,. we had this celebration in our classroom and we have to give each and everyone a letter. I have this letter to a former friend which contains the words written in Matthew 6:14-15 from the Bible. It says there that if we forgive those who have done wrong to us, God will also forgive us. 

So that was what I've said to her .. and upon opening my Facebook account, I saw this. I was blessed today. I am already forgiven. :) Thank you so much LORD! 

I love the way you lie.

It's funny when someone lies to me and then I ask him about it as if I didn't know what he's doing and he feels like I was so stupid because he can fool me. 

I wonder who among us look definitely foolish, absolutely stupid and certainly idiotic.

How'd you let go?

The Art of Letting Go

Put away the pictures, put away the memories
I go over and over through my tears
I’ve held them ’til I’m blind, they kept my hope alive
as if somehow that might keep you here
won’t you believe in a love forevermore
how do you leave it in a drawer

Now here it comes, the hardest part of all
unchain my heart that’s holding on
how do I start to live my life alone
guess I’m just learning, learning the art of letting go

Try to say it’s over, say the word good bye
but each time it catches in my throat
you’re still here with me and i can’t set you free
so I hold on to what i wanted most
maybe someday we’ll be friends forevermore
wish I could open up that door

Now here it comes the hardest part of all
unchain my heart that’s holding on
how do I start to live my life alone
guess I’m just learning, learning the art of letting go

What can I say, what can I do
but try to make it through the pain
not one more day without you

Where do I start to live my life alone
I guess I’m learning, I’ll be learning
learning the art of letting go

For two consecutive days?! Same color of shirts?! Oh c'mon!

An Updated Version of Me

I've lost interest .. now, who's fault is it? :I

:'(

 I asked God why he didn't give me the one that I love. 

Then He answered me .. 

"..because you love the one I've made for someone else ... "

Taylor Swift - Back To December

Lord, I pray for him .. whatever it is he is in right now. In Jesus' name I pray, AMEN.

Pag-ibig Ko Sanay Mapansin

This was the song I have sang for my ex boyfriend when we are in Batangas during our retreat... I've just remembered. hahaha! :))

Before, I used to say .. "Las Piñas siya, Cavite ako .. " because he lives in LPC and I'm in Cavite. :))

I don't know how was he right now. We last talked during our graduation day in the year 2005. Well, I don't care about him.

I've just thought .. before, when I was younger, I wished that whoever you had or loved that time, that was the one that will God give you. But fortunately, it isn't. If so, I will be sure now that he's the one, and thinking about it, it sucks! hahaha! Of course I say this because my love for him was already gone .. but being in love with him was one of the most stupid things I have done in my life. hahaha!

DI KO NA KAYA .. PROMISE. T . T

'Di ko na kaya pang itago
Ang nararamdaman sa iyo

Umaasang ikaw sana'y mayakap

'Di ko na kaya pang ilihim
Nasasaktan lang ako

Sa 'king pag-iisa, hinahanap ka

CHORUS

'Di ko kailangan ng kayamanan

Puso mo ang tangi kong inaasam

Hindi ko kayang ikaw ay malayo
Mawalay ka sa piling ko

Sana ay ikaw ang kapalaran

Sa bawat araw ay aking mahahagkan

Habang ang buhay ko ay narito

Handa kong ibigay sa iyo

INTERLUDE

[Repeat 2nd Stanza]

[Repeat CHORUS]

BRIDGE

Kay sarap damhin

Ang tunay na pagmamahal

Katulad nitong pag-ibig ko sa 'yo

CHORUS

'Di ko kailangan ng kayamanan

Puso mo ang tangi kong inaasam

Hindi ko kayang ikaw ay malayo

Mawalay ka sa piling ko

Sana ay ikaw ang kapalaran

Sa bawat araw ay mahahagkan

Habang ang buhay ko ay narito

Handa kong ibigay sa iyo

Shocks .. ang hirap itago. T . T

            Alam mo yung pakiramdam na in love ka ..at alam na alam mo yun ..at di mo man lang masabi kahit kanino .. kasi walang mapagkatiwalaan sa paligid mo .. kasi alam mong lahat sila di maiintindihan ang pinagdadaanan mo ... Nakakaasar right? Hindi mo malaman kung nasasaktan ka ba o ano e .. may kakaibang feeling kasi sa dibdib. Grabe. Parang nagpipigil lang ng galit. Ang hirap. Parang di ako makahinga. Parang kasalanan pag nabanggit ko siya. Grabe talaga. Ayoko ng ganito. Nakakainis. Kaya naiinggit ako sa mga taong may bestfriend na well trusted talaga e... buti pa sila may napagsasabihan ng nararamdaman nila. Ako wala. Oo, siguro nga kasalanan ko rin dahil bakit di ako magtiwala kahit kanino sa dami ng taong nakapaligid sakin . e kasi naman .. kung ikaw nasa kalagayan ko ngayon maiintindihan mo ako for sure. Ang hirap mabuhay kung napapaligiran ka ng mga taong ang gusto sila lang ang pinakikinggan. Tapos yung iba naman nangangakong papakinggan ka pero huhusgahan ka naman. Yung iba naman sadyang wala lang talagang interes sayo. Ang hirap. Nakakaiyak. Ahai ... ayoko talaga ng ganito .. :((((((((

NEVER QUIT. NO MATTER WHAT. :))

A quitter never wins .. 

So I will never quit ... 

Until I win your heart ♥. :))

Jet Lag

Soundtrip!! :) GOOD MORNING!

Pampasaya sa Tanghali. LOLz! :)

BONGBONG: can we talk?
NOYNOY: who you?
BONGBONG: kapal mo! you deleted my number na?
NOYNOY: kupal ka pala eh. sino ka ba?
BONGBONG: gago! senator BONGBONG here.
NOYNOY: tae ka! why would i have your #?

BONGBONG: di ka ba talaga pwedeng makausap nang matino?
NOYNOY: di tayo close, you know that!
BONGBONG: ulol! we have a lot of things in common, tandaan mo ‘yan.
NOYNOY: magkaiba tayo.
BONGBONG: ‘di ah! pangalan pa lang natin, pareho na! bong-bong! noy-noy!
NOYNOY: tanga! anong pareho dun!? magkaiba ‘yon. ferdinand ka, benigno ako.
BONGBONG: see? kapangalan pa natin ang ating mga ama.
NOYNOY: bobo! junior ka, the third ako. malaki ang difference no’n.
BONGBONG: pati sa mga kapatid natin, may similarity tayo. ‘yong panganay naming si ate IMEE: saksakan nang ‘tigas ng ulo noong dalaga. kapag nagustuhan ang lalaki, nagrerebelde.
NOYNOY: sira! hindi ganun ang panganay naming si ate ballsy.
BONGBONG: ha-ha-ha! sinong may sabing si ballsy ang tinutukoy ko?
NOYNOY: huwag mong idamay si viel, tahimik ‘yon.
BONGBONG: sige na nga. regards na lang kay kris. joke!
NOYNOY: namemersonal ka na!
BONGBONG: ikaw ang nagsimula!

NOYNOY: fault ko pa? sino bang sumisira sa diwa ng edsa? singapore your face! I’ve got two words for you: “martial law!”
BONGBONG: ah gano’n? babalikan na naman natin ang nakaraan? do not provoke me!
NOYNOY: really? here’s another: “marcos cronies!”
BONGBONG: pakyu ka! “kamag-anak incorporated!”

NOYNOY: “plaza miranda bombing!”
BONGBONG: “mendiola massacre!” hoy! wala kang alam sa history! si joma sison ang nambomba sa plaza miranda! ‘yon ang nasa libro ni ka jovy salonga!
NOYNOY: ah basta!
BONGBONG: ha-ha-ha naubusan ka na ng bala!

NOYNOY: noong panahon ng tatay mo, walang freedom of the press!
BONGBONG: noong panahon ng nanay mo, walang kuryente!

NOYNOY: marcos billions sa europa!
BONGBONG: whatever! hacienda luisita!
NOYNOY: engot! in five years, ipapamahagi na namin ‘yon!
BONGBONG: i don’t believe you! gawin mo muna!

NOYNOY: wala ka na sa Bagong Lipunan. wake up!
BONGBONG: wala ka na sa poder ng nanay mo, grow up!

NOYNOY: teka nga! bakit ka ba text nang text?
BONGBONG: eh bakit reply ka nang reply?
NOYNOY: ano ba talagang gusto mo?
BONGBONG: simple lang, state funeral and an honorable burial para sa aking tatay sa Libingan ng mga Bayani.

NOYNOY: that’s not for me to decide.
BONGBONG: i’m not surprised.
NOYNOY: what do you mean?
BONGBONG: wushuuu! aminin mo, hindi naman talaga ikaw ang nagdedecide sa government kundi ang mga taong nakapaligid sa ‘yo eh!

NOYNOY: that’s democracy.
BONGBONG: that’s weakness.

NOYNOY: hindi ako diktador!
BONGBONG: oops, i’m sorry mr. symbolic president.
NOYNOY: sumusobra ka na! ang pagiging sobra ang dahilan kung bakit kayo pinalayas ng people power sa edsa. you’re way out of line!

BONGBONG: out of line??? no! we’re so back! isa sa senado, isa sa kamara at isang gobernadora.
NOYNOY: WALANG STATE BURIAL!
BONGBONG: ha-ha-ha, now you’re talking! fine!

NOYNOY: tapusin na natin ‘tong usapang ‘to. stop txting me!
BONGBONG: agad? i’m just warming up.
NOYNOY: maghanap ka ng kausap mo.
BONGBONG: may ipapakilala akong chick. 25 lang. maputi, mahilig sa jazz music.
NOYNOY: huwag mo akong daanin sa babae. sa dami ng problema ng bansa these days, women are the least of my concerns.
BONGBONG: talaga? ok. fine. bye!
NOYNOY: sandali lang!!! chinita ba?

Note: BONGBONG Marcos didn’t reply. An aide said, “Na-check operator services po si Sir.”

Muntik Na Kitang Minahal

I so love this song.. !!! :D

I'm bored. :I

I wasn't supposed to be bored. I should have been very busy right now because I have to finish everything before noon time, but still I don't do anything. Yes, I might look stupid, but all I do is stare in my monitor and that's it. I have already spent an hour doing that. tsss.... 

Well, ah .. I confess that I am missing so badly right now. I don't know who, but I am longing for someone. Yeah, I just need to have someone beside me, which I don't. The fact that I am here all alone in our house kills me, even if I am so used to it. I feel lonely. I feel empty. I am free to go out and have fun, but I prefer to stay here inside my room and just sit. I feel tired .. I don't know why. Ah... I'm really bored to death. I hope I could write anything right now .. something sensible.  Ah. !!!!!

Wherever You Will Go

I don't wanna miss a thing

Whenever I hear this song, I remember a classmate way back when I was in third year high school. It was a sunny morning, we are having our intramural and our foundation week as well. There are different booths and one of them is the 'Most Requested Song Booth'. He was so funny because he keeps on requesting this song and he would actually spend all his money for it. That week, we were amazingly very close with each other, which isn't usual during normal school days. My friends were like, "What's going on with you two?" and they believe that the song he always requested was for me. We just laughed about it.

Well, after that week, we have parted. I mean, not literally, but we were back to our normal lives, not too close from each other. We still talk, but as usual classmates. It was just like a .. one week happy bonding. No emotions attached. Maybe a bit physical, but it didn't exceed to the limit. :)

I've just shared this because it's one of the memories I want to stay here in my blog. I know someday I would be forgetting these kind of memories, so for now, let me cherish it as I can. :)

It's wrong for me to stay and love you .. .

Fate led you straight to me
You came and suddenly
I was weak beyond control
I had given you my soul
My life was no longer mine.

Chorus:
I love you more than life itself
I never loved anyone else
I've tried to stop myself so many times
It hurts me
A love like ours
Where can it go?
I must be strong
'Cause now i know
It's wrong for me to stay and love you.

One life won't let love grow
It has no place to go
So you tell yourself be strong
But the world tells you you're wrong
'Cause life has the final say.
(Repeat Chorus)
(Instrumental)

Coda:
A love like ours
Where can it go?
I must be strong
'Cause now I know
It's wrong for me to say
Wrong for me to stay
And love you
And love you.

The only thing I can't wait for. LOL

You're weird and that's what I like most about you. :)

iwantyou

I know you don't know this, but all I really want is you. i wish I could have you for at least a day. I just want to experience how it is to call you as my own. I really want you. I want you so badly that if this would happen even in my dreams, I will surely beg the Lord not to wake me up anymore. I know you don't want me, I don't care about it. I WANT YOU. IT'S ONLY YOU WHOM I AM WISHING FOR. IT'S ONLY YOU THAT I LIKE. IT'S YOU THAT I LOVE.

WAIT

This is one thing that I have been an expert of. I am fond of waiting. I used to be impatient before, but now I learned how to wait. Well, it's one of the worst things a man can do. To wait is to kill yourself, especially when you are waiting for something you don't know if will ever come. 

There is just one thing that I have been waiting for. It's you. LOL. Kidding aside, I was actually waiting for someone .. but .. ah .. I'm murdering myself. The outcome appears to be impossible, but still I'm hoping. I won't stop waiting and hoping until the answer is in my hands.

IT KILLS ME. REALLY.

Yes. I admit it. NOT TALKING TO YOU KILLS ME. It's as if talking to you has been a very important part of my life. It's like a life support that once it is taken out, I would die. It's like oxygen that I need in every second of my life. It's like food that once I forgot to take up, I will feel dizzy and I have less energy. That's how precious your time for me is. That's how I value you in my life. The simple things like talking to you is my life.

I just have this one wish ... please. .. STAY and TALK TO ME ALWAYS. :)

Laugh Trip to grabe! XD

Shower Me With Your Love

I'm so tired of you. ...

I think it will never gonna work out. No matter how we try to connect, it's just simply not meant to be. This is not about a lover, it's about a friend. We are trying to pick up the pieces again after it has all been scattered, but well, as we try to assemble things back again, one wrong move and it all crashes out. I simply hate this. If it will just turn out negatively, then I would prefer us to be ok and just stay like that. I guess we should not try to make up with each other. It's just going so wrong. We just have to accept that we don't fit to be friends with each other.

I really want him to stay, but instances dictates that he shouldn't. He's so unreachable that the things that my mind could touch is nothing as compared to him. I get really sick with his expectations, asking me to think the way he thinks. That kills me. Can't he just recognize the fact that I am not as intelligent or as grave thinker like him? Can't he just admit to himself that I was the most stupid girl he could ever talk with and just accept me just as I am? 

I really feel sad about it. I am always on the wrong side, and I really know I am. It's just that I am really having a hard time to be what he wants me to be. I openly admit to him that his mind is unfathomable, that I can't understand everything that he utters. .. but he doesn't believe it.

I know that this won't take long. In the next days, I will find myself again alone. He will be gone soon in my life because of my foolishness. I have to be ready. I have to condition myself so that when he finally decides to leave, I will not be gravely affected.


But now, this idea really KILLS ME. :(

The reason behind the posts today. :)

I'm not in love. I just want to write things like those that I have posted earlier. I don't know. I just feel like it.

For the past three years I have been this girl who 'fears commitments'. I mean, yeah. I am really afraid of having intimate relationships with any opposite sexes. It happened after the worst break up I have experienced before. After that great event, I didn't see myself settling for anyone. 

In the course of my existence, even though I fear having relationships (not only with opposite sex actually, it also made me have a hard time to make friends with anyone .. really!) I still manage to try to at least socialize with anyone. At first it wasn't easy. I'd rather have no one by my side than have someone who would just hurt me. In terms of opposite sex, I have been into them as well. I had a crush and I fell in love. .. but I never settled with anyone after that last someone. I am more on having flings and mutual understandings, and that's it. For me, that's more practical. I don't have to attend too much with them. I don't have the right to get hurt and be attached too much. That was cool, but not necessarily safe. I still have this tendency of being hurt, but I find it minimal than which I have experienced before. 

Well, I have this strange feeling inside me .. I can't figure it out. I was really fond of dreaming about having someone with me right now. Does it mean I am now ready again to accept and engage myself into a relationship? Does it indicate that the fear I had with me for the past three years is now gone?

I want to meet the man who would sing this song for me. :)

There are times when I just want to look at your face
With the stars in the night
There are times when I just want to feel your embrace
In the cold night

I just can't believe that you are mine now
You were just a dream that I once knew
I never thought I would be right for you
I just can't compare you with anything in this world
You're all I need to be here with forevermore
All those years, I've longed to hold you in my arms
I've been dreaming of you
Every night, I've been watching all the stars that fall down
Wishing you would be mine

Time and again
There are these changes that we cannot end
As sure as time keeps going on and on
My love for you will be forevermore
Wishing you would be mine
I just can't believe that you are mine now
You were just a dream that I once knew
I never thought I would be right for you
I just can't compare you with anything in this world
As endless as forever
Our love will stay together
You're all I need to be here with forever more
(As endless as forever
Our love will stay together)
You're all I need
To be here with forevermore...

How I wish a man like this exist.

Jealous

It's so funny to remember how I used to be so jealous of his girl. I was this young lady who secretly likes this man who happened to finally have someone by his side. I really wished that time that I would be that one with him. I am always day dreaming about how would it be if I were her. That was silly, I know. That's one of the funniest memories I had, and the most embarrassing too.

Well, I have just realized that I could never be her. Yes, just now (joke!). Ah .. ok. So kidding aside, I have actually thought about it now and I knew I cannot replace her. I mean, aside from the fact that I COULD REALLY NEVER BE IN HER PLACE, I realized that I CAN NEVER DO WHAT SHE COULD DO. Do you understand my point?

Jealous of the girl who caught your eye
One of my darker days
When you looked at her where was I?
Shoulda been in her place, here I am
All alone imagining what could have been
If I had been there

As I have read and heard this line, I have imagined if I were actually on that same time they have met each other. I know that he won't notice me. Not just because I am not really attractive, but because HE WASN'T REALLY MEANT FOR ME. It's that even though I am on that time, they will still be the perfect couple. That's when I know I believe in destiny. That whatever happens, there's this someone who is really meant for you. That no matter how you believe that it depends on your hands and mind, still, everything seems to follow a plan, and that's what makes love so magical. So even if I was there, HE WOULD STILL CHOOSE HER.

Well, realizing this things doesn't hurt me. I have felt this admiration for him for so long, now, I have finally move on. Sometimes when I hear this song, I remember him and the other guys whom I have been into. This have marked in my life, and it had shared me lessons necessary to live life.

Jealousy is natural. It's an emotion, I think. It becomes a sin when you sin because of it. Personally, I believe that we should not blame anyone when they feel being jealous. I mean, they're human, we are all human, so everyone has felt it, may be in different circumstances, but still it happened for once in your life.

I am not happy that I have experienced this, though I am not ashamed to say that for once I have been jealous with his girl, because that time, it was the indicator that have told me that I was into him. :)

♥ Marry Your Daughter ♥

How I wish I would be the same bride. It's so nice to know that there's this other one who would bravely face my dad and my mom and tell them that he would take care of me for the rest of his life. :) Whenever I hear this song, I feel excited to see my future, who will be the man God had perfectly planned for me and how things will gonna work out when we are already together.

Honestly, I am this 'bitter lady' who never wants to see a happily ever after in a movie and a story, who always wish for a tragic ending, who doesn't want to see anyone having their wedding and a baby. That's how I was...before. Maybe because of the painful experiences I had with having relationships, that's why I became like this.

Somewhat I am still the same, but I'm trying to pull myself away from it. I am now learning to feel free to dream of myself having this wonderful wedding and a happy family. I am now becoming appreciative when I see people happy with their loved ones. I am trying to turn the bitterness into sweetness. :)

Well, I am still young and my priorities for now is my studies. But when this time comes that I will be planning my life with my other half, I wish and I pray that it would be the nicest thing that would ever happen to me. That time, I will not be alone ... because there's this someone whom God had finally given me as my companion. :)

AMAZING! :)

 

1. Focus on red dot in the centre.
2. See what happens to the blue circle.

Touch and Go - Rupert Holmes (Visual Interpretation)

Nobody said that
Life is always fair
Sometimes it clips your wings
While you're in mid-air
But there's a thread
Between your life and mine
And when you're losin' hope
This rope won't unwind

REFRAIN:
Hold on tight
'Cause life is touch and go
It's sink and swim
But never doubt
If you're out on a limb
I'll get the call
To break your fall
I'll never leave you
Even when life
Is touch and go
Or hit and run
We'll never break
If we take it as one
I'm here to stay,
I pray you know
I'll never touch
I'll never touch and go

Someday you'll find
There's nothin' in the night
That wasn't there before
You turned out the light
Straight from your mind
The monster 'neath your bed
The voices in the hall
They're all in your head

REFRAIN:
Hold on tight
'Cause life is touch and go
It's sink and swim
But never doubt
If you're out on a limb
I'll get the call
To break your fall
I'll never leave you
Even when life
Is touch and go
Or hit and run
We'll never break
If we take it as one
I'm here to stay,
I pray you know
I'll never touch
I'll never touch and go

When you feel lost
You're only spun around
Tumbled and tossed
But never run around
Life is a townful
Of strangers at best
I'll help you home
God help the rest

REFRAIN:
Hold on tight
'Cause life is touch and go
It's sink and swim
But never doubt
If you're out on a limb
I'll get the call
To break your fall
I'll never leave you
Even when life
Is touch and go
Or hit and run
We'll never break
If we take it as one
I'm here to stay,
I pray you know
I'll never touch
I'll never touch and go

Life is touch and go
It's sink or swim
But never doubt
If you're out on a limb
I'll get the call...

Terminal - Rupert Holmes

I've come back this mornin' to where I first came alive
Here within this terminal where the buses arrive
I was a commuter on the 804
Work for a computer on the 19th floor and...

You came down the aisle of the bus and you sat by my side
Shoulder up to shoulder we shared that 9 o'clock ride
Oh, my heart was screamin' as you left your seat
Followin' your movements I was at your feet and...

Oh, down into the terminal both of us smiled
So we entered the terminal just as you smiled
"Won't you leave out work for today?" you ask of me then
So I phoned-in-sick on the way to the home of a friend
We were all alone from 10 A.M. till 3
Really thought the fire had gone out of me but...

You awoke the sleep of my life from gray into red
Made the weary wonder of Wall Street rise from the dead
Could have held up budding my entire life
But I had to get home to the kids and the wife and...
So I left for the terminal where I began
Baby, no, I wouldn't have left if I'd been half a man

So here I am this morning where love had asked for the dance
Here within this terminal where I passed on a chance
Lord, I'll never find her though I've truly tried
Probably she's found another bus to ride and...

I am now about to begin the last of my days
I'm within what others would call a terminal phase
I myself can only say it's livin' dead
Ridin' to the office with a song in my head that goes...

La da da...
And you know it grows
La da da...
Oh, la da da...
Oh, la da da...

My fear.

Do you know what I have with me right now? 

It's the fear that I might fall in love with you again ...

And I don't and won't let it to happen. 

I promise.

beeeeeeeeeezzzzzzzzzzzziiiiiiiiiiii

I have been very busy lately that's why I didn't post anything. I really wish I could write everything that's on my mind because I always feel that I will be forgetting everything when I grow older .. but I can't. All I could actually do is to put everything in my heart. 

Well, nothing so special ever happened to me these past few days. It's just that I have passed my examinations (of course except in statistics), and I have spent a lot of days with my family (and I already had two nights that I have slept in our house with our WHOLE family.) I have also reconciled with my past hurts and my friends before are getting close again with me. Whoa! I was wrong. Everything that happened was indeed special. These are the things I thought would never happen again. I was so happy and of course, thankful to the Almighty Father. He has blessed me a lot. But I pray that He would not just take all of this away in one snap. I mean, He could prolong my happiness. I have been through a lot of heartaches and failures in the last months that passed. I really don't deserve these blessings, after all the mistakes that I have done .. but still God is so good. :))