Love is wanting to be near YOU, even though it’ll probably only make things hurt more. Love is feeling safest with YOU, even though YOU’d broken MY heart. Love is trusting YOU, even though YOU'd lied to ME a thousand times. Love is YOU, even though for YOU it’s not ME.~
De Moi
- LadY kYu
- Love usually ends in pain and hurt…but that doesn't mean that it’s not worth it.~~
18 July 2010
I'm really weak when any family is the subject....
Ah...of course, he's not in his usual look. I have only known him for weeks as my professor, but his aura that day is really different. He's happy, yeah...he's a really jolly person. He can still throw jokes...but it's obvious...he's longing for something or...FOR SOMEONE.
It's been...ah...I'm sorry I can't remember how long it was since her loving mother died. But I tell you, the wound is still very fresh.
He dropped his class before us early so some of us (including me) jumped in the room early. We are only few. He looks sick. After a couple of minutes, a classmate of mine, who just arrived that time (she's the mole of asia...as she says...because she have this huge mole just below her nose.) asked Sir Lee (it) if they could photocopy the NSTP book authored by Sir Lee (it)'s dad...(he's Sir Lee (ki)). Then, an explanation from Sir Lee (it) followed...and I was a bit annoyed by the reaction of "mole of asia". She said, "what's the connection of his mother's death with my question??"...and then she laughed.
I can understand why she tells so, but she must have understood too what Sir Lee (it) was going through. And in fact, the answer delivered by Sir Lee (it) was the answer she needs...but she didn't expect.
Well, enough of it, the class started with his apology...for not attending the class 2 times. Then he tolds us about his mother, how much he loved her and how was it without her now. It was sad. Some of my classmates even cried while Sir Lee (it) express himself in tears. Yes, he's right. He's now 32 years old, but still he's like a little kid longing for is mother. I am emotional when it comes to these things...I admit I nearly cried...but only A DROP came out of my eyes. I don't want to add on the emotions inside our room.
One statement that I won't forget is... "when it hits you, it hits you like shit...!". Yeah, it really hits like shit. If it would happen to me, I don't know what I'm going to do.
But the best thing that he repeatedly told us is the common lesson...show your loved ones how much you care for them before it's too late.
He dismised us early and as soon as I walked out the camp, I opened my bag, got my sandwich my mom made for me, and eat it with so much happiness and love while heading my way to SM Sucat.
I wish I could tell my parents how much I love them.....
12 July 2010
may sapak nanaman!
(si bunso umakyat ng hagdan...)
Bunso : Te, kain na...
Ako : Sige...hindi na ko kakain...kumain na ko kanina...
(si bunso bumaba na...)
Ako : (sa isip...) bibig pa lang ng nanay mo busog na ko eh....
-.-
08 July 2010
there's this guy....I REALLY LOVE..... (grrrrrrrrrr!!!!!!)
While I was busy on FB...biglang nag-pop up ang isang chat message na galing sa taong ito:
-Jhason ≧◡≦ : eow
Me : hi
-Jhason ≧◡≦ : hu u?
Me : haha..inna.
-Jhason ≧◡≦ : lam ko
nababasa ko
i mean sino ka?
Me : aa...good.
-Jhason ≧◡≦ : annalyze nlng pho ung question
Me : aa...ganon...
so slow ako....hmmm...
-Jhason ≧◡≦ : ahh
ganun ba?
kaya pla
ahaha
joke lng love u
Me : sus...alam mo wag ka na magtanong kasi di rin kita kilala...kung ayaw mo edi burahin mo ko sa friends mo ok.
-Jhason ≧◡≦ : hala
Me : at paki analyze din yung sarili mong question next time.
love u din. (^^)V
-Jhason ≧◡≦ : ok pho sowi huh
^_^,v
Me : o bat ka nagsosori??
-Jhason ≧◡≦ : wala lng
ayaw mo ba?
Me : aa...ok.
-Jhason ≧◡≦ : geu
Me : ayoko.haha.
-Jhason ≧◡≦ : bkt
?
Me : close?
-Jhason ≧◡≦ : mj]
mj
Me : ?
then.,....
-Jhason ≧◡≦ : + eloow po s0wee po knina, xP aheheh fwend ko lang po un ng 33p lng s0wee letz :)
-
Me : ha?????????????????????????????????
-Jhason ≧◡≦ : + uhmMmm wala po ^_^
-
Me : wala pala e....
-Jhason ≧◡≦ : + ^_^
-
...grabe ang kapal din naman ng pagmumukha niyang hayop siya. Nakakainis. Para siyang tanga. Asar na asar talaga ko sa kanya. Hayop siya. Mali pa spelling ng analyze! Bwist!
01 July 2010
haven't posted for like ages....
1.) First day of school as a first year student...again!
2.) 2nd day of school which really knocked me down..err!!!
3.) Being alone eating...aa...I felt sorry for myself.
4.) My newest and cooooolest tambayan...the adoration chapel of our school.
5.) My new school, professors and classmates.
6.) The attire!haha!
7.) The unusual feeling of happiness even if I wasn't supposed to? am I right?
8.) The first crush? na a,,,..!
9.) The book finding...a huge expense!
10.) The happy P.E activity...where my team lose. haha.
11.) My first 10 meter sight with Bro. Mike. :)
12.) The "supposed to be humble" registrar officer.
13.) The seatmate and the first talk.
14.) Concentration.
15.) The 1 meter sight of Bro. Mike. :)
16.) The grocery galore.
17.) JAMLI :)
18.) The McDonald's Fries addiction
19.) Letter of Application story
20.) The death of a bird was blamed to my father.
21.) Inaug and the promises...
22.) Everything's meaningless...I hope one day I'll understand.
23.) The note of encouragement.
24.) My mom and dad's family.
25.) Nice rain experience with Hakuni. :)
26.) The return of the come back at PLMun.
27.) The dirty puppy.
28.) Ang pangarap kong maging isang aktibong mamamayang Pilipino.
29.) And a lot more...... hehehe. :)
I wish I could post everything that's going on my mind...haha. well... I'll try...
Eclipse is now showing...but still I can't watch...a waste of everything.haha.
Well for now...good night.!:)
23 June 2010
No JamLi na... :(
then what's next?? DEVON who is a PRETENDER would win for the big night?
OR
FRETZIE who's flirt and selfish would?
NO WAY!!
I HATE THEM BOTH!!!
I'D RATHER HAVE ALL THE BOYS WIN THAN THE TWO OF THEM!!!
SEE???
BOTH FLIRTS AND SELFISH GIRLS ARE LEFT IN THE HOUSE WITH THE BOYS...
PBB IS SUCH A BULLSHIT!!!
IT'S NOT REALLY A "TELESERYE NG TOTOONG BUHAY"
IT'S A BIG JOKE!!!
WELL I'M STILL HAPPY 'COZ I SAW HOW JAMES KISSED ANN...YEAH..IT'S SO SWEET!!!
AA...THERE'S ONLY RYAN AND JAMES LEFT...
18 June 2010
You can't have everything all at the same time....
I have lots of friends, money, committed, good grades
No time for Family, broken family as well (we don't have my brother with us), no time to stay at home
2nd Year-3rd Year High School :
I have lots of friends, committed, good grades, I am starting to have time with my family, have a little time to stay at home
I had a little (very, very little) problem with money, I still don't have my brother fully with us
College :
Good grades, I have my full time and strong attachment to my family (I am happy to be with them), my brother finally is with us (thanks LORD!), I had much time to stay at home, I have money again
Single, have friends but not with me, I'm a loner
See the difference? So even though things are just not fair and imbalance, still I thank God for being so good to me. I may fail to have satisfaction on some things but at least I have time for the things and I have the things I wish I had before. At least I've experienced it all....:)
pasok nanaman...thank God Friday ngayon..last day of class for the week.!!
AGREE AGREE!!!!!!!
I didn’t watch last night’s episode because I was too fed up with my life but I am completely aware of what happened. Oh well, again. Read my rant.
So kanina, nandun ako sa bahay ng pinsan ko.. dun ako nanunuod ng PBB kasi ang boring manuod mag-isa. So yun, uminom pa kami ng konti habang iniintay yung PBB.. Bongga pa rin ang katarayan ni Rubi =))
PBB na, pinakita yung mga nangyari kahapon so nalaman ko na kung ano yung mga violations nila and !@#$ like that. But then, I don’t get the point of having a forced eviction lalo na kung yung nangyari eh TEST lang para sa mga housemates. Test lang yun, hindi task. Yes, they didn’t obey some of the house rules but did Big brother even realize that if that happened to his own friends, he would most probably do the same thing.. RISK EVERYTHING TO SAVE YOUR FRIENDS. Ginagago lang ni Big brother yung mga kabataan sa loob ng bahay niya.. Look, he has all the power to control things inside the house diba? Natural lang na maniniwala ang mga housemates na siya yung nag-uutos ng kung anu-ano nung una like yung sa phone call since siya lang naman yung pwedeng tao sa likod kung bakit may cellphone sa loob ng bahay niya. Siya rin naman yung may control sa mga pinto ng bahay kaya pwede ba, wag niyang sabihin na hindi dapat pagkatiwalaan ang mga housemate. Siya ang dapat hindi pagkatiwalaan, he plays trick very well.. he plays with those people’s feelings. Plus the fact na yung mga sinabi niya sa housemates are really emotional torture/abusive.. How he told everybody how much he regret that he trusted them and !@#$ like that. I couldn’t remember what he told to each of them but I know for myself that if someone WHO IS NOT EVEN MY FATHER OR MOTHER OR EVEN RELATED to me told me something like that, I swear to tell how bad I feel and everything I wanna tell him with respect. Just because you’re older and you’re the watchumacallit GOD inside that house doesn’t mean that you can hurt those people’s feelings. You don’t know how much that can affect them.. Maybe those kids are still blinded because they think you know all that.
If I were in that situation, hindi ko pipigilan sarili ko magsalita. IDK who the hell he is.. I obeyed everything inside the house but I only happened to disobey one of the rules and he treated me like I killed a dozen of people. Tutal may violation na rin naman ako, baka kung anu-ano lang masabi ko. Pinoy Big Brother isn’t a reality show anymore because there is one person or a group of people who are manipulating everything that is happening inside the house. Nakakagago lang eh. Nag-eemo pa siya na akala mo he was betrayed eh pakana niya naman yun.
That whole BUZZER thing is just stupid, I could not stress it more ‘cause it is really stupid. It only showed how selfish Pinoy housemates are, how desperate they are to get to the Big Night. Srsly, why does it have to be Jenny? Why not Fretzie since she was the one who answered the call when everyone tried to stop her? I’ve got something to tell y’all.. Have you watched the DEBATE? someone on the side of the teenternationals stressed out that Pinoy housemates had 3 violations while the Teenternationals don’t have any. So, since Big Brother want things to be FAIR, he did something para magkaron din ng Forced eviction sa Teenternationals.. He chose Jenny and Fretzie to kidnapped because Jenny is kind and she thinks of others first while Fretzie just plays safe. You heard it when the kidnapper asked the housemates to choose between Jenny and Fretzie, they chose Jenny but Jenny told them to choose Fretzie.. the one who started it all. Have you seen her felt happy and forget about Jenny when she got back inside the house? Oh Goddamnit. Plus, they only have a few days left.. kaya nira-rush na nila ang pagtanggal sa teenternationals since yung 3 slot eh para na sa Pinoy.. that means, isa na lang matatanggal sa teenternationals para gora na sa big night.
and about that buzzer thing, Fretzie was really a disappointment and I like how Ivan argue with her. Imbes na mag-isip ng maayos, sarili pa inisip. Actually, nagbilang pa sila ng mga nagawa ng mga teenternationals at kung sino lang yung mga tumutulong sa loob ng bahay.. THATS NOT THE POINT KIDS. You saw how the teenternationals take the whole buzzer thing? They prepared themselves but did not talk about behind Pinoy housemates’. I pity Jenny for she deserve the slot for the big night more than Fretzie/Devon. Pinoy made it to the BIG 6 but I really hope that Fretzie and Devon will not win, none of them deserve it.
Teenternationals FTW. Ryan Bang FTW!
PS. I DON’T !@#$ KNOW WHY I AM STILL WATCHING THIS STUPID REALITY SHOW.
14 June 2010
las cosas más baratas en tierra


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Foul Filthy Squalid Soiled Unclean Sordid Impure
31 May 2010
Sleepy...
Ganun???????????!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Joe and Patrick..finally evicted!
Now the nominees are Devon, Tricia, Jenny and Bret...and only one will be evicted on Saturday. I'm a bit disappointed 'coz Fretzie is not one of the nominees...I really hate her...she's a bitch. Hmm...I also hate Devon..yeah...she's pretty,...that's all. I hate them both because they nominated Jenny for eviction just because of the "slot thing". Their attitude are disgusting. And, I hate Devon and Angelo because they are both "paawa effect". Not because they're poor, they deserve to win. If that's the case, Kuya should welcome only poor people in His house instead of having poor and rich mixed. arrggghH!!!
Oh well, let's first forget about the nomination. What's important now is that Patrick and Joe are out of the house. That's all. :)
26 May 2010
I'll post it!!!!!!!!!!!!! I'll post it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I wanna tell you that I'm gonna buy cds of Chris Tomlin, Kristian Stanfill and the Awakening one-by-one...and of course Louie Giglio's books. I really want it and i told you this because I really want to buy it...and this post would be my driving force for it...
na-miss ko agad..
Hay...ampogi talaga ni Kristian Stanfill...grabe..pero mas crush ko pa din si Chris Tomlin. Ganda talaga astig ang experience. Nakakadala lang ang Araneta e sobrang layo kasi. Pero astig talaga sobra..parang gusto ko araw araw na lang yun..........
23 May 2010
If you're not going to read this,...something might happen...! xD
So here's the thing. Most of these chain letters are telling that if you pass it to anyone you know, your wish (mostly) will probably happen. Some tells you to follow their instructions before passing it...doing something kind of a ritual or anything. Then some of it just tells a story.
What I hate most about it is that it creates sudden fear to anyone who reads it. it mostly tells you that if you failed to pass it or if you just ignored it, one of your loved once will surely die or you'll be having bad lucks for the rest of your life. It sucks. I believe it is a demonic message, How come people believe in it? And how true the story in it are? And, above all, how dare the other people pass these messages to the ones "they love" if it carries bad luck.
It's a curse. Yes it is. I actually don't pass any of it. I believe that if I pass it to anyone, I'm passing bad luck to them and it's not good. How can you wish someone bad??
Oh my, I just receive another chain letter in my Facebook account this morning and I get really angry about it.
But I know God won't let those stories of bad luck happen to me.
I don't care if my crush won't love me back or I won't receive electronic gadgets from my loved ones in just one day... I'm not that desperate and I can wait. And besides, if I actually passed the letter, how can my crush love me back if he's none other than James Reid of PBB??? And how will I receive electronic gadgets from my loved ones if for now we have to work hard to have money...??
I don't believe in this,,,I won't let Lucifer to fool me. I only trust God...I know he has plans for me...
PBB Teen Clash of 2010, May 21, 2010 Teenternational Housemates Birit Si...
With regards to the Teenternational Housemates, I love all of them especially Jenny, soooooooooooo cute with the piano and everything...Ryan's very funny...Richard so cute....Others are so cute also but most of all...the mysterious and metallic James!!! I love him!!! :)
Go Teenternationals!!!!!!!!!!! You all are deserving to win...!!!!!!!!!! Hai...how I wish all the slots are for you guys....!
07 May 2010
what if one of them asks for freedom?? would you let them go even if it would hurt you that much???
-you'll let him go, then get him back when the time's up.
What if your dog asks you to let him go and it will never go back again??
-There are still other dogs out there.
When your friends asks you to let them go..
-I'll let them if they want...but with the best reason...I don't own them...but I admit it would hurt me..
When you loved one asks for freedom??
-I'll let him go if that's what he wanted...and I'll be thankful for the days I had him...it would hurt me but not for too long.
When one of your family members asks you to let them go...
-I will allow them if that's what will make them happy...but it would affect me for a lifetime...
I am now at peace... ( ^ ,^ ) V
Despite all of these, I am still looking forward to attend the Thursday Meeting of El Shaddai Chapter in our parish. I know it's the best idea to unwind.
Before going to the church, I prayed to God that whatever message he has for me, as much as possible, He won't tell me things that are straight forward because I don't want to be emotional in front of many people. As I've said to myself, "There are certain things wherein the reactions are meant only for yourself."
I went with my father, my younger sister and my younger cousin. My father was a little bit hesitant because we thought at first that it was already through. But I was very determined to attend and listen to God's words.
I entered the church with a very heavy heart.
The lesson is about Peace. Yeah, I've learned a lot.
After the whole session, we walked towards the door and the first thing I saw is the wonderful art of God..the bright lights and stars...in the dark sky.
And with that scenario, I found peace. :)
Kahit Maputi Na Ang Buhok Ko
SoapdishKung tayo’y matanda na
Sana’y di tayo magbago
At kailan ma’y, nasaan ma’y
Ito ang pangarap ko
Makuha mo pa kayang
Ako’y hagkan at yakapin ooh
Hanggang pagtanda natin
Nagtatanong lang sa `yo
Ako pa kaya’y ibigin mo
Kung maputi na ang buhok ko
Pagdating ng araw
Ang `yong buhok
Ay puputi na rin (puputi na rin)
Sabay tayong mangangarap
Ng nakaraan sa `tin
[chorus]
Ang nakalipas ay ibabalik natin ooh
Ipapaalala ko sa `yo
Ang aking pangako
Na ang pag-ibig ko’y laging sa ‘yo
Kahit maputi na ang buhok ko
[repeat chorus]
Kahit maputi o wala na ang
Buhok ko
pinapaalis nanaman ako...
ABC About You Questions:
B - BIRTHDAY: August 3, 1992
C - CRUSHING ON: none as of this moment
D - DRINK YOU LAST HAD: water
E - EASIEST PERSON(S) TO TALK TO: myself xD
F - FAVORITE SONG: random
G - GUMMY BEARS OR GUMMY WORMS: gummy worms!
H - HOMETOWN: Las Piñas City
I - IN LOVE WITH: My Yen
J - JUGGLE: >.<
K - KILLED SOMEONE: in my day dreams... XD
L - LONGEST CAR RIDE: Manila to Bicol
N - NUMBER OF SIBLINGS: two..
O - ONE WISH: to achieve all my dreams...
P - PERSON YOU CALLED LAST: my brother
Q- QUICKIE: >.<
R- REASON TO SMILE: anything
S- SONG YOU LAST HEARD: Kahit Maputi na ang buhok ko
T - TIME YOU WOKE UP: 9:30 AM
U - UNDERWEAR COLOR: white! (sinilip ko pa yan! xD)
V - VEGETABLE(S): is what i hate the most. :P
W - WORST HABIT: too many to mention xD
X - X-RAYS YOU'VE HAD: none
Y-YOYOS ARE: none sense toys
Z - ZODIAC SIGN: leo
Random Questions About You:
Spell your name without vowels: ld ky (c-r- -r-t...xD)
Your favorite number: three
What color do you wear most?: black
Least favorite color?: green
What are you listening to?: none
Are you happy with your life right now?: yes :].
What is your favorite class in school?: none
When do you start back at school/college?: >.<
Are you outgoing?: yes
Favorite pair of shoes?: high heeled closed shoe.
Where do you wish you were right now?: Switzerland!
THE CANS
Can you dance?: yes, i can :D
Can you tie a cherry stem with your mouth?: NO
Can you whistle?: yes
Write with both hands?: yes
Cross your eyes?: no
Walk with your toes curled?: i can ! xD
THE DO'S:
Do you believe there is life on other planets?: YES
Do you believe in miracles?: definitely :D
Do you believe in magic?: yes...at some point.
Love at first sight?: yes
Do you believe in Satan?: yes
Do you believe in Santa? yes
Do you know how to swim?: a little.
Do you like roller coasters?: no
Do you think you could handle the stuff they eat on those reality shows?: NO
THE HAVES:
Have you ever been on a plane?: >.<
Have you ever asked someone out?: yes...friends.
Have you ever been asked out by someone?: yes
Have you ever been to the ocean?: yes
Have you ever painted your nails?: yes
THE WHATS:
What is the temperature outside?: dunno
What radio station do you listen to?: 90.7 Love Radio!!
What was the last restaurant you ate at?: mcdo
What was the last thing you bought?: mcfloat
What was the last thing on TV you watched? Diva
THE WHOS:
Who was the last person you IM'd?: I can't remember.
Who was the last person you took a picture of?: myself xD
Who was the last person you said I love you to?: myself xD
CRYING SECTION:
Ever really cried your heart out?: sure i did
Ever cried yourself to sleep? yes
Ever cried on your friend's shoulder?: haven't tried that xD
Ever cried over the opposite sex?: yes
Do you cry when you get an injury?: yes
Do certain songs make you cry?: yes.
HAPPY SECTION.
Are you a happy person?: yes?
What can make you happy?: anything
you wish you were happier?:
Can music make you happy?: sometimes
LOVE SECTION.
How many times have you had your heart broken? I've never counted.
Have you ever loved someone so much that you'd die for them?: yeah
What is your current hair color?: black
Current piercings?: on my ears..
Have any tattoos?: none
Eye color?: black
IN A BOY/GIRL:
Favorite eye color: black :D
Short or long hair: anything will do as long as it looks good on him
Short Or Tall: taller
Best clothing: whatever suits him
HAVE YOU EVER..
Been to jail: not yet..
Mooned someone: yeah
Ran away from home: no
Laughed so hard you cried: definitely
Cried in school: yes
Thrown up in a store: no
Wanted to be a model: yeah
Cheated on someone: yes
Done something really stupid that you still laugh today? yes! :D
Seen a dead body: yes
Gone skinny dipping: no
THIS OR THAT..
Pepsi or Coke: Pepsi
McDonald's or Burger King: McDonald's.
Single or Group Dates: or...hehe...I mean..both
Strawberries or Blueberries: none
Chocolate or Vanilla: both
Meat or Veggies: meat
TV or Movie: movie
Guitar or Drums?: guitar
Adidas or Nike: both
Chinese or Mexican: none
Cheerios or Corn Flakes: none
Cake or Pie: cake
MTV or VH1: MTV
I've done 88 out of the 108 stupid things. :)
Level 1
() Smoked A Cigarette
() Smoked A Cigar
(~) Kissed A Member Of The Same Sex--sa cheeks lang:P
(~) Drank Alcohol
SO FAR: 2
Level 2
(~) Am / Been In Love
SO FAR: 3
Level 4
(~) Had A Crush On An Older Person--:">
(~) Skipped School
() Slept With A Co-worker
(~) Seen Someone / Something Die
SO FAR: 6
Level 5
() Had / Have A Crush On One Of Your Facebook Friends
() Been To Spain
(~) Thrown Up From Drinking
SO FAR: 7
Level 6
() Eaten Sushi
( ) Been Snowboarding
(~) Met Someone BECAUSE Of Facebook
() Been in a Mosh Pit
SO FAR: 8
Level 7
( ) Been In An Abusive Relationship
(~) Taken Pain Killers
(~) Love/loved Someone Who You Cant Have-:(
(~) Laid On Your Back And Watched Cloud Shapes Go By
( ) Made A Snow Angel
SO FAR: 11
Level 8
( ) Had A Tea Party
(~) Flown A Kite
(~) Built A Sand Castle
(~) Gone mudding
(~) Played Dress Up
SO FAR: 15
Level 9
() Jumped Into A Pile Of Leaves
( ) Gone Sledging
(~) Cheated While Playing A Game
(~) Been Lonely
(~) Fallen Asleep At Work / School
SO FAR: 18
Level 10
(~) Watched The Sun Set
(~) Felt An Earthquake
() Killed A Snake
SO FAR: 20
Level 11
(~) Been Tickled
(~) Been Robbed
(~) Been cheated on
(~) Been Misunderstood
SO FAR: 24
Level 12
(~) Won A Contest
() Been Suspended From School
() Had Detention
() Been In A Car / Motorcycle Accident
SO FAR: 25
Level 13
( ) Had / Have Braces
(~) Eaten a whole pint of ice cream in one night
(~) Danced in the moonlight
SO FAR: 27
Level 14
(~) Hated The Way You Look
(~) Witnessed A Crime
(~) Pole Danced
(~) Questioned Your Heart
(~) Been obsessed with post-it-notes
SO FAR: 32
Level 15
(~) Squished Barefoot Through The Mud
(~) Been Lost
() Been To The Opposite Side Of The World
() Swam In The Ocean
(~) Felt Like You Were Dying
SO FAR: 35
Level 16
(~)Cried Yourself To Sleep
(~) Played Cops And Robbers
(~) Recently Colored With Crayons / Colored Pencils / Markers
(~) Sang Karaoke
(~) Paid For A Meal With Only Coins
SO FAR: 40
Level 17
(~) Done Something You Told Yourself You Wouldn't
() Made a Prank Phone Call
(~) Laughed Until Some Kind Of Beverage Came Out Of Your Nose
(~) Kissed In The Rain
SO FAR: 43
Level 18
(~) Written A Letter To Santa Claus
(~) Watched The Sun Set/ sun rise With Someone You Care/Cared About
(~) Blown Bubbles
(~) Made A Bonfire On The Beach or anywhere
SO FAR: 47
Level 19
() Crashed A Party
() Have Traveled More Than 5 Days With A Car Full Of People
(~) Gone Rollerskating / Blading
(~) Had A Wish Come True
() Been Humped By A Monkey
SO FAR: 49
Level 20
(~) Worn Pearls
() Jumped Off A Bridge
(~) Swore at the teacher, in front of them
( ) Swam With Dolphins
SO FAR: 51
Level 22
() Got Your Tongue Stuck To A Pole/Freezer/ice Cube
(~) Kissed A Fish
(~) Worn The Opposite Sex's Clothes
(~) Sat On A Roof Top
SO FAR: 54
Level 23
(~) Screamed At The Top Of Your Lungs
() Done / Attempted A One-Handed Cartwheel
(~)Talked On The Phone For More Than 6 Hours
(~) Recently stayed up for a while talking to someone you care about.
SO FAR: 57
Level 24
(~) Picked And Ate An Apple Right Off The Tree
(~) Climbed A Tree
(~) Had/Been In A Tree House.
(~) Been scared To Watch Scary Movies Alone.
SO FAR: 61
Level 25
(~) Believed In Ghosts
(~) Have had More Then 30 Pairs Of Shoes!
(~) Gone Streaking
() Visited Jail
SO FAR: 64
Level 26
(~) Played Chicken
(~) Been Pushed into a pool with all your clothes on
(~) Been Told You're Hot By A Complete Stranger
() Broken A Bone
(~) Been Easily Amused
SO FAR: 68
Level 27
(~) Caught A Fish Then Ate It Later
( ) Made A Porn Video/got asked to make one
(~) Caught A Butterfly
(~) Laughed So Hard You Cried
(~)Cried So Hard You Laughed
SO FAR: 72
Level 28
(~) Mooned/Flashed Someone
(~) Had Someone Moon/Flash You
(~) Cheated On A Test
(~) Forgotten Someone's Name
(~) French Braided Someones Hair
( ) Gone Skinny Dipping
() Been Kicked Out Of Your House
(~) Tried to hurt yourself
SO FAR: 78
Level 29
(~) Rode A Roller Coaster
() Went Scuba-Diving/Snorkeling.
(~) Had A Cavity
(~) Black-Mailed Someone.
(~) Been Black Mailed
SO FAR: 82
Level 30
(~) Been Used
(~) Fell Going Up The Stairs
(~) Licked by a Cat
(~) Bitten Someone
(~) Licked Someone
SO FAR: 87
Level 31
() Been shot at/or at gunpoint
( ) Had sex in the rain
(~) Flattened someones tires
() Rode your car/truck until the gas light came on
() Got five dollars or less worth of gas
TOTAL: 88
Shalala lala xD
1. Put your iTunes, Windows Media Player, etc. on shuffle.
2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.
3. YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS.
4. Have Fun!
IF SOMEONE SAYS 'ARE YOU OKAY' YOU SAY?
--Barbie Girl (baliw.)
HOW WOULD YOU DESCRIBE YOURSELF?
--Dr. Jones (anu daw??)
WHAT DO YOU LIKE IN A GUY/GIRL?
--Awit kay Inay (layo...)
HOW DO YOU FEEL TODAY?
--Bakit nga ba mahal kita (ouch...)
WHAT IS YOUR LIFE'S PURPOSE?
--Complicated (it's complicated...xD)
WHAT'S YOUR MOTTO?
--Cry (haha..)
WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU?
--Dahil mahal na mahal kita (ngek.)
WHAT DO YOUR PARENTS THINK OF YOU?
--Gemini (Leo ako...xD)
WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT VERY OFTEN?
--Hanggang Dito Na Lang (hmm...ayos gyud.)
WHAT IS 2 + 2?
--Here I Am (yun o!)
WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR BEST FRIEND?
--kapag ako ay nagmahal (hala...)
WHAT IS YOUR LIFE STORY?
--Kung ako na lang sana (ouchness...)
WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GROW UP?
--Kung alam mo lang (kung alam mo lang talaga..!)
WHAT DO YOU THINK WHEN YOU SEE THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
--Let me be the one (hayup!)
WHAT WILL YOU DANCE TO AT YOUR WEDDING?
--Muntik na kitang minahal (ano ba yan...nakakasayaw ba yan??)
WHAT WILL THEY PLAY AT YOUR FUNERAL?
--My happy ending (kyot!)
WHAT IS YOUR HOBBY/INTEREST?
--Once in a lifetime (ha?)
WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST FEAR?
--one and only you (haha!)
WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST SECRET?
--Pain in my heart.. (yeah right!)
--Pakisabi na lang (kasi di ko alam. xD)
WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR FRIENDS?
--Each Passing Night (haha..)
WHAT WILL YOU POST THIS AS?
--Shalala lala (tae, sakto.)
The Ex Survey.
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1. ano tawagan niyo dati?
- pare
2. pano kung makipagbalikan siya sayo ngayon?
- hindi ko alam
3. bat kayo nag break?
- may maaapektuhan kasi pag pinanindigan pa namin...
4. ilang months kayo tumagal?
- 11 months and 23 days
5. san siya nag-aaral?
- UPHR Molino
6. theme song niyo?
- I'd rather
7. kelan naging kayo?
- August 11, 2007
8. kelan kayo nagbreak?
- August 4, 2008
9. ilang beses kayo nagbreak?
- isa lang...
10. sakaling available kayong dalawa, are you ready to bring back the past?
- oo...sana...
11. mahal mo pa ba?
- oo..
12. na-kiss mo na ba siya?
- of course.
13. ano usually pinapanood niyong dalawa?
- Prince of Tennis..favorite niya e...
14. minahal mo ba siya?
- oo naman...
15. ilang months bago ka naka get-over sa kaniya?
- hindi ko alam.
16. kelan kayo huling nagsama?
- last month
17. close ka ba sa family niya?
- ok lang.
18. mahal ka pa rin kaya niya?
- sabi niya,.
19. nakapunta ka na ba sa bahay nila?
- oo..
20. ever been to the mall with him/her?
- definitely.
21. ano pinaka memorable na memory sa past niyo?
- lahat.
22. ever watched a movie together? what?
- yeah...the simpsons movie
23. pano kung one day, bigla ka niya i-kiss sa lips?
- haha...wala...
24. san kayo madalas tumambay dati?
- tennis court tsaka sa bahay nila
25. sino nanligaw sa inyo?
- siya.
26. ilang days?
- 150 days
27. any regrets?
- wala naman.
28. mahilig ba siya mag-pc?
- hindi masyado
29. napag awayan niyo na ba about his/ her friends?
- hindi..
30. eh yung paglalaro niya ng pc?
- hindi
31. what can you say bout the survey?
- badtrip. haha.
06 May 2010
Trip lang
--9:30 AM
2. How do you like your steak?
--it has to be cooked by my mom
3. What was the last film you saw at the cinema?
--I Love You, Goodbye...tsk.
4. What is your favorite TV show?
--Agua Bendita, PBB and Rubi
5. If you could live anywhere in the world where would it be?
--Switzerland!
6. What did you have for breakfast?
--cheese bites.
7. What is your favorite cuisine?
--filipino dish, of course :))
8. What foods do you dislike?
--sweets...anything my mom cooks.
9. Favorite Place to Eat?
--house...there's no place like home :)
10. Favorite dressing?
--none
11. What kind of vehicle do you drive?
--single motorcycle && bike
12. What are your favorite clothes?
--dress.
13. Where would you visit if you had the chance?
--Masbate
14. Cup 1/2 empty or 1/2 full?
--1/2 empty...to justify my negativity :)
15. Where would you want to retire?
--in one of the virgin beaches of Masbate
16. Favorite time of day?
--any
17. Where were you born?
--Las Piñas City
18. What is your favorite sport to watch?
--tennis and volleyball!!
19. Who do you think will not tag you back?
--i dunno.
20. Person you expect to tag you back first?
--i dunno either.
21. Who are you most curious about their responses to this?
--anyone.
22. Bird watcher?
--definitely :P
23. Are you a morning person or a night person?
--morning >.<
24. Do you have any pets?
--yes i have.
25. Any new and exciting news you'd like to share?
--I'll be attending the Passion Manila this coming 25th day of May in the year 2010...and you know what...I'm planning of attending all of the Passion Manilas every two years!
26. What did you want to be when you were little?
--a princess and a bank manager
27. What is your best childhood memory?
--every memory where my father and mother is involved :DD
28. Are you a cat or dog person?
--dog
29. Are you married?
--no.
30. Always wear your seat belt?
--nope.
31. Been in a car accident?
--almost.
32. Any pet peeves?
--too many to mention
33. Favorite Pizza Toppings?
--cheese
34. Favorite Flower?
--rose ^_____^
35. Favorite ice cream?
--cheese && cookies and cream
36. Favorite fast food restaurant?
--mcdo
37. How many times did you fail your driver's test?
--i haven't taken it yet :P
38. From whom did you get your last email?
--facebook :P
39. Which store would you choose to max out your credit card?
--book store. National Bookstore to be specific.
40. Do anything spontaneous lately?
--cry.
41. Like your job?
--i don't have one
42. Broccoli? cheese? together?
--cheese only.
43. What was your favorite vacation?
--I love all vacations.
44. Last person you went out to dinner with?
--My family
45. What are you listening to right now?
--90.70 Love Radio
46. What is your favorite color?
--Orange
47. How many tattoos do you have?
--none
48. How many are you tagging for this quiz?
--none
49. What time did you finish this quiz
--11:48 PM
50. Coffee drinker?
--never
05 May 2010
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04 May 2010
God Bless Us later....:)
This day would be very exciting because we both do not know how to get there...but I know...I mean...we know..
God will be with us on our trip. :)
I just wish I had my cam with me... :(
they're a dying breed....

WE'RE A DYING BREED...

.to every guy that has said: you are beautiful
.to every guy that has said, "Sex CAN wait."

.to every guy that was never too busy to drive across town to see her.
.to every guy that gives flowers and a card.
.to every guy who has given her flowers just because.
.to every guy that said he would die for her.

.to every guy that really would.

.to every guy that did what she wanted to do.
.to every guy that cried in front of her.
.to every guy that she cried in front of.
.to every guy that holds hands with her.

.to every guy that hugs her when she's sad.

.to every guy that hugs her for no reason at all.
.to every guy who would give their jacket up for her.
.to every guy that calls (or texts) to make sure she got home safe.
.to every guy that would sit and wait for her for hours just to see her for ten minutes.
.to every guy that would give his seat up.
.to every guy that just wants to cuddle.
.to every guy that reassured her that she was beatiful no matter what.
.to every guy who told his secrets to her.
.to every guy that tried to show how much he cared through every word and every breath.
.to every guy that thought maybe this could be the one.
.to every guy that believed in her dreams.
.to every guy that would have done anything so she could achieve them.
.to every guy that never laughed at her when she told him her dreams.
.to every guy that walked her to her house.
.to every guy that gave his heart.
.to every guy who prays that she is happy even if he is not with her.
.to every guy who is willing to wait for years just to prove his love for her.
.to every guy who still prioritizes GOD instead of making the girl as the sun of his life.
ARE YOU ONE OF US?
25 April 2010
Passion Manila 2010

Syempre ako go ako..kaso nga...after the tampuhan we had, medyo alangan pa ko mag-trust ulit when it comes to meetings like that. So now, kanina as in,,,I was thinking of a reason...one valid reason to refuse. But fortunately, I haven't think of anything. I am planning actually of using someone as a reason...but as soon as I saw the web blog of Becca Music...everything changed. My thirst for refusal has gone. Gusto ko ng pumunta sa concert.!
I actually saw first the ad in Alabang Town Center...I only saw Louie Giglio's name but syempre, I thought it would be impossible for me to go there kasi as expected, mahal ang bayad dahil international icon siya. But I was wrong. 200 ang bayad. Unfortunately, gabi siya and what's worst, Upperbox B na lang ang available slot.
Pero di ako susuko. I have to be there. Only 16-25 years old....grabe,...astig talaga kumilos si God.
I hope I'll be there. I will, I will, I will. God will make a way for me...!!! Puro pa favorite ko andun...si Loiue Giglio (How great is our God), Chris Tomlin (Indescribable), and Kristian Stanfill na di ko pa kilala...but I'll know him as soon as possible.
God, I now claim that I'll be there on the 25th day of May.
Amen!
18 April 2010
ayo has....!!!
kaya eto nagpupuyat sabik sa computer!!!!!!!!
oi..may picture na ko sa blog ko..kaatar naman o...hahaha...
nga pala..kaya ganyan ang title kasi uso sa bahay ngayon yung dugtungan ng letrang 's' ang mga salitang wala talagang 's' at tanggalan ng 's' ang merong 's'.
ayos ba?? di ko na ginawa sa post baka mabaliw tayo..ayiiieee!!
BOGA!~
14 April 2010
01 April 2010
maundy thursday
Tapos yun bumangon na ko...naghilamos...habang naghihilamos nagdasal ako na sana babae ang makasagot..ok lang babaeng masungit basta wag lang lalaki.
Lapit sa telepono....
dial...
ring...
(kabado)
Presto!
Sinagot.
Lalaki!
Tinanong ko kung DEPED yung tinawagan ko. Hindi siya sumagot. Nakalimutan ko pala mag-good morning kaya inulit ko ang tanong ko. Sumagot na. Oo daw. Tinanong ko kung pwedeng magtanong tungkol sa school kung registered sa kanila. Tinanong niya ako kung anong school. Edi sinabi ko ang pangalan. Tapos alam mo kung ano sinagot? Tawag na lang daw ako by Monday kasi walang tao doon ngayon...KASI HOLIDAY!!
Tae pahiya ako dun aa...ayun nagbigay siya ng bagong number na tatawagan ko sa Monday..tapos nag-thank you na ko...sabay baba ng phone.
hehe...
31 March 2010
hindi ko alam ang uunahin ko....
27 March 2010
DARATING DIN ANG ARAW....
Mayaman na..matalino pa...talented pa...san ka pa??
Unfair no? Lahat ng magaganda ibinibigay sa isang tao tapos may isang tao din na sumalo lahat ng pangit. At sa kamalasang palad ako yun.
Buti pa yung ka-edad kong yun...may kotse na...ako nga halos malusaw na ang puso tuwing nakikita ko ang lumang motor namin na pinagtitiyagaan ni Papa....ni hindi man lang kami makabili ng bago o ni wala man lang kaming pampagawa sa sira non....kailangan pa naming magtipid at mag ipon para don.
Sana dumating ang araw na kaya ko ng ibigay ng instant ang mga bagay na tulad non kina Papa at Mama. Sana dumating ang araw na barya na lang ang libo, laruan lang ang sasakyan, sing halaga lang ng eraser ang librong aking pinaka-aasam asam, at di lang tingin at sulyap ang magagawa ko tuwing may magandang damit at sapatos akong nadaaanan..
Sana dumating ang araw....MAYAMAN NA DIN AKO....
I dont mind other people. rich or poor. they're the same. - jopert
http://www.pinoyexchange.com/forums/archive/index.php/t-32303.html
Ito yung site kung saan ko nabasa yung thread. Sobrang haba...inabot na ko ng 12:26 AM sa pagbabasa at pakikiusyoso.
Nakakatuwang basahin ang iba't ibang reaksyon ng mga tao. Yung iba may point talaga..yung iba pointless talaga. Pero itong mga nabanggit ng ilan ang talagang pumukaw sa aking atensyon.
I dont mind other people. rich or poor. they're the same. - jopert
Tama! Na-inspire ako dito infairness. Ilabas muna natin ang usapin mula sa Starbucks. Totoo naman diba. Rich or Poor, they're the same. Tao din naman. At bow ako sa mga taong ganito mag-isip...walang diskriminasyon...walang pagmamaliit. Hindi tulad ng ibang kakilala ko..tsk tsk.
walang mayaman at walang mahirap pagdating sa KAPE!!! =) - Darkshader
Ayan! Tama nanaman diba. Kape lang naman...naging batayan pa ng estado ng buhay. Sakin wala namang problema kung pang mayaman o pang mahirap na kape ang meron jan...kung iisipin mong mahirap lang ako dahil di ako makapasok pasok ng Starbucks o kahit na anong mamahaling kainan..edi bahala ka...basta at the end of the day isa lang naman ang mahalaga...
NABUSOG KA BA?
well it is normal in to use your 10 mins. salary for a cup of coffee but in the philippine 1cup of coffee from starbucks will gonna cost you almost half of your day's work . guys stop comparing the place where you are now from the place you where before 'cause it doesn't make sense. if you use half day salary of an average worker from where you are for a cup of coffee it means you are rich right? or stupid ? - Izzandro
Ay ito resonable. Oo nga naman. Hindi natin pwedeng ikumpara ang US sa Pilipinas dahil ibang iba ang pera ng dalawang bansa. Hindi mo talaga maitatangging ang mayaman o may kaya lang ang kayang iwaldas ang otsenta pesos na kinita niya sa kalahating araw para sa isang baso ng kape. Kung isa kang maglalako at kailangan mong maglakad ng 4 na kilometro para maibenta ang isang produkto sa halagang 100 piso..kaya mo bang ipambili iyon ng 80 piso na kape na sandaling kaligayahan, kaginhawaan at karangyaan lang ang kayang ibigay sayo??haha...
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Pero sa huli isa lang ang masasabi ko..
Wants and Needs.
May mga taong mahalaga sa kanila ang needs..may mga taong mahalaga sa kanila ang wants. Kung kaya mo edi bahala ka...kung hindi tiis ka.
Wag lang sana itong maging dahilan ng INGGIT NA NAKAMAMATAY at DISKRIMINASYONG NAKAKASIRA NG BUHAY.
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Basta ako...ipinagmamalaki kong ang greatest achievement ko ngayong taon ay ang matutunang iiwas ang sarili ko sa mga WANTS ko para matugunan at mapag-ipunan ang mas mahahalagang bagay tulad ng NEEDS ko. Isa pa di lang nakatulong sa needs ko...pati needs ng pamilya ko natulungan ko. :) Iniisip ko na lang na gutom lang ako pag napapatingin ako sa mga resto...tapos paglingon ko sa bag ko may biscuit na pabaon ni Mama...nakatipid na ako, nakaiwas pa sa temptasyon...nakain ko pa ang bicuit ko.
26 March 2010
gusto ko mang bawiin....
ooiii...!!hahaha!!
Hmm...isang seryosong bagay. Partida hindi ako nag-review sa Philippine History para lang dito aa...(O.A)
Hmm..tungkol to para bukas (ha??)...
Hmm....ano ba hindi ko alam kung pano sisimulan..
Hmm...kasi diba mali talaga yung ginawa kong di pagpansin kay Taray. Ang tanga ko..hindi ko inisip na ako rin ang kawawa kasi ako nga pala ang walang kakampi. Haizt!
Tama nga ang sabi nila...wag kang magdedesisyon pag nasa sukdulan ka ng iyong emosyon...katulad pag galit ka. Pero kasi hindi mo rin naman maiiwasang maging tanga pag nasa sukdulan ka na ng emosyon mo diba....
Yan, namomroblema tuloy ako. Bukas Finals namin sa Philippine History. Last Day na namin. Pagkatapos nito ang aatupagin ko na ay ang paglipat ko ng school. Wala na akong pagkakataon bukas para humingi ng tawad dahil kailangan kong umalis ng maaga. Pero gusto ko ng ganito..pero mahirap kasi baka isipin nila wala akong utang na loob diba. Ito kasi mahirap sa akin ee...hindi ko maipakita ang totoo kong saloobin...puro kabaliktaran...kainis.
Goodluck na lang sakin bukas.
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Wala lang...naiinis lang ako kasi napakawalang utang na loob na parang napaka alam mo yun...parang walang pinagsamahan...yung akala kong mga naging kaibigan ko noon wala nakalimutan na ko ngayon. At ang paplastik nilang lahat a infairness.Lahat na lang. Ngayon ko na-realize wala pala akong kaibigan. Kasi pag nakikita ko naman maraming nakakaalala sa kanila...marami silang kaibigan..bakit ako wala? pag birthday ko iilan lang ang bumabati sa akin...di pa umaabot ng isangdaan. Masayahin naman ako lalo na noon. Akala ko talaga marami na kong naging kaibigan pero wala pala.
Ano bang problema?? Ano bang mali sa akin? Ginagawa ko naman lagi ang lahat ng makakaya ko para lang maging mabuti sa ibang tao...pero bakit ganun?
Isa pa, ang masakit sa lahat...yung sinasabi nilang kaibigan nila ako pero sa huli hindi pala...na ginamit lang nila ako nung panahong magkakasama kami..na ngayong wala na limot na nila akong lahat. Bakit ganon?
Kaya hindi ako masisisi nino man kung bakit nahihirapan ako ngayong magtiwala kahit na kanino...nahihirapan akong i-accept ang mga sinasabi ng iba na...
"Friends tayo.."
...
"Di kami tulad nila..."
...
"Hindi namin gagawin sayo ang ginawa nila.."
...
"hindi ka namin malilimutan..."
...
"walang iwanan ha..."
...
Hay,,nakakalungkot talagang isipin. Tapos isa pang nakakainis e yung malalaman mong galit pala si ganito sayo...diba?? Hindi ko naman alam kung ano nagawa ko...minsan alam ko nagawa ko pero ang alam ko tapos na yun..ok na kami...
ANO BA???
Lahat na lang wala ako....
*DI AKO MAGANDA PHYSICALLY, EMOTIONALLY AND MENTALLY
*HINDI AKO MAYAMAN...AT ANG MASAKLAP HINDI KO PA MABILI ANG ILANG MURA NA NGA LANG NA GUSTO KO
*MARAMING GALIT AT AYAW NA TAO SAKIN...PARTIDA YUNG IBA KAHIT DI KO KILALA
AND LAST...
*WALA AKONG FRIENDS...
So ngayon magtatanong uli ako...
Ano ba'ng purpose ko dito sa mundo???
eerrrrr.....baduy!!!!!
asked him if he would want to be with her forever and he said no. She
then asked him if she were to leave would he cry, and once again he
replied with a no. She had heard enough. As she walked away,tears
streaming down her face the boy grabbed her arm and ...said... .
You're not pretty you're beautiful.
I don'twant to be with you forever. I NEED to be with you forever.
And I wouldn't cry if you walked away...I'd die... ♥♥
24 March 2010
migraine
Meron kasi akong severe headache...grabe anlupet di ito biro...hindi ako mapakali pag inaatake ako nito. Tumatagal siya ng ilang oras...at ilang araw pa nga kung minsan,...hindi siya basta basta nawawala. Nandyan iuntog ko ulo ko sa pader, o kaya pinadadag-anan ko sa kapatid ko ang ulo ko..sa sobrang sakit! Tapos minsan tinutulog ko..swerte kapag nawala paggising...pero madalas hindi. Pag nawala naman sandali lang...maya-maya anjan nanaman. Tapos pag tumawa, ngumiti o nagsalita ako sumasakit ng bonggang bongga. Para akong nabubuang talaga. Haizt. Tapos minsan nasusuka na lang ako sa sakit ng ulo..hindi ko magets kung bakit. Nahihilo ako tsaka sensitive sa light at noise. Katulad na la ng nung grad namin nung 4th year high school...grabe sakit ng ulo ko dahil sa liwanag ng mga ilaw...nung high school ako madalas ayoko ng maliwanag kahit ilaw ng cell phone ko ayoko makita kasi nga masakit sa mata at ulo. Tapos pag maingay...paksyet!
May migraine na ba ko sa lagay na to?? Tingin niyo??
Ayokong ayoko na umaatake to...kasi parang mas gugustuhin mo pang mamatay na kesa maranasan pa to...
Ang malupit pa dun hindi ako nainom ng gamot. Dati nainom ako..kaso wala namang epekto..ganun pa rin...walang 'k' ang mga pain reliever at mga biogesic and whatever. Pati mga pampahid na menthol pinatulan ko na...naubos na lang ng walang nagagawa sakin. Ngayon di na ko nainom ng gamot kasi natatakot na ko...madalas kasi akong ma-choke.
Hmm...hay....hindi ko alam. Sana lang wag na uli siyang umatake..asa pa ko...
YeN...
I think of him each hour...
I remember him every second of my life...
He's everything to me...
But I have to let him go....
I have to forget him........
Or else.........
someone will suffer...
because of my selfishness....
aww..
23 March 2010
ready for retirement...
Well, ayun usie ako ee...syempre naki-epal ako sa chikahan nila ni Mama about sa motor...nung una nagana pa siya...kaso nung pinagawa lalong yun di na umandar. Nakalungkot yung reaksyon ni Papa as in parang disappointed na ewan. Parang naiiyak na ewan. Kasi naman, una sa lahat, ayoko mang sabihin (dahil sabi nga nila dapat lagi mong sinasabi na may pera ka...) wala kaming pera. Hirap talaga ngayon. As in nararamdaman ko na ang epekto ng krisis...pati nga El Niño ee ramdam ko ee...
Hay nako...nalulungkot ako kanina habang pinagmamasdan ko si Papa, lalo na yung motor niya. 12 taon na kami nitong pinagsisilbihan. Oo, matagal na at pwede niyong sabihin na maaari na namin itong sindihan. Pero hindi. Ayoko. Nagkaroon na kami ng pangalawang motor na mas bago sa kanya noon pero yun pa ang naunang na-dispatsa namin.
Mahirap siyang palitan. Noong bago pa lang namin iyong nabili, kitang kita ko kung gaano kasaya si Papa. Iyon ang kauna-unahang sasakyang naipundar nila ni Mama mula sa pagtitinda.
First everything.
Dito natuto si Papa mag-motor. Ito ang naging bestfriend niya. Saan man siya magpunta, kasama niya ito. Napakalaki ng naitulong nito sa pamilya namin. Naaalala ko pa noon, napakalakas pa niya...parang si Papa. Pero ngayon....it's ready for retirement..
Kahit na ganon, ayoko pa rin siyang ibenta o palitan. I want it to stay. Actually, I still hope na maaayos pa yun. Sa dinami-dami na nitong pinagdaanan, ngayon pa siya susuko...naman diba! Sabi ko nga kanina kay Papa..kung yung mga kalansay ng mga motor nakilos pa...yun pa kaya na buo pa....
Nagpahinga lang sandali yun. Isipin ko na lang na nagkasakit siya...at gagaling din. Mabuti ang Diyos hindi lang sa mga tao kundi pati sa mga bagay. Alam kong papagalingin siya ni God.
Bukas, magcocommute si Papa sa pamamalengke. Gusto ko man siyang tulungan, hindi na rin kasi alam kong mas magiging hassle lang pag andun pa ko.
On the other hand, nakakadagdag lang to ng tampo kay Kuya kasi antamad niya...hindi man lang magkusang tumulong sa amin. Nakakainis.

